{"id":11368,"date":"2022-02-03T02:14:59","date_gmt":"2022-02-02T23:14:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11368"},"modified":"2022-02-03T02:14:59","modified_gmt":"2022-02-02T23:14:59","slug":"isik-ve-zaman","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11368","title":{"rendered":"I\u015f\u0131k ve Zaman"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>S\u0131radan bir g\u00fcnd\u00fc, klasikle\u015fmi\u015f arkada\u015f \u00f6rg\u00fctlenmemizi ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirmi\u015ftik. Nereye, nas\u0131l, neden gidece\u011fimize karar veremeden t\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131k araban\u0131n i\u00e7ine. \u015euana kadar kayda de\u011fer bir \u015fey yok, klasik ara\u00e7 i\u00e7i<br>arkada\u015f muhabbetleri;<br>\u00a0\u201c-Bu \u015fark\u0131c\u0131 da amma bozdu!<br>\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0-Yine bir \u015fekilde sat\u0131yorlar \u00fclkeyi!<br>\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0-Ulan \u015fu \u0130srail yok mu, her sabah toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131m odam\u0131 da\u011f\u0131t\u0131yor!\u201d<br>Bu arada s\u00f6ylemeyi unuttum; Araba ve tekerlekleri de bizden, bizim gibi! En g\u00fczel \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131 kapitalistlerce<br>sat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, i\u015fleri g\u00f6rd\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f ve ya\u015f ald\u0131klar\u0131nda da kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne konulmu\u015f. Sormu\u015ftum bahsi ge\u00e7ti\u011finde \u201cNeden hakk\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 aramad\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d diye.\u00a0 O zamanlar bahsetmi\u015fti bana; Hak arayamas\u0131nlar diye kanunlar \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. Bir de eklemi\u015fti;<br>\u201cNe hak aramas\u0131, enerji ve maden i\u015f\u00e7ileri gibi daha Ankara\u2019ya varmadan kesiverirlerdi \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc. Sizi en fazla d\u00f6verler, ama bizi\u2026 Kald\u0131 ki insan bile de\u011filiz.\u201d Hakl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na ben k\u0131l\u0131f bulamam ama adaletin terazisinde para tartanlar i\u00e7in, bu pek de zor de\u011fil. \u0130\u015fte o kadar bizden, hat\u0131rlatmak istedim.<br><br>Yol, arkada\u015f, sohbet ve ara\u00e7 al\u0131\u015f\u0131ld\u0131k. \u0130leride \u0131\u015f\u0131klar. Bir kazadan hemen \u00f6nce gibiyiz. Her \u015fey o kadar monoton ve sakin. Trafik lambas\u0131, sar\u0131, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131\u2026 \u00d6n\u00fcmde k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 stop lambalar\u0131, her zamanki gibi\u2026 \u00c7ok dinledi\u011fin \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131 \u00e7alarken duymamak gibi, es ge\u00e7ti\u011fim ara\u00e7 i\u00e7i arkada\u015f sohbetleri ve monotonla\u015fm\u0131\u015f ayna kontrollerim\u2026<br>Az daha sola \u00e7evirdim kafam\u0131. \u0130\u015fte i\u00e7ime do\u011fan kaza, tam da o an ger\u00e7ekle\u015fti!<br><br><strong>Bir anne, k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu daha iyi dilenebilsin diye \u00fczerindeki ceketi \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131!<\/strong><br><strong>\u00c7al\u0131lar\u0131n aras\u0131nda, Ku\u015flar\u0131n alt\u0131nda, \u00e7imenlerin \u00fczerinde, bu d\u00fcnyada!<\/strong><br><br>S\u00fcratle giden arac\u0131n direksiyonunu az ama bariyerlere do\u011fru \u00e7evirmi\u015f gibiydim! Dondum. \u00c7at kap\u0131 kutuplara ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131 her \u015feyim! Ne bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m, ne de dudaklar\u0131m\u2026\u00a0 Kalbimin al\u0131naca\u011f\u0131 bir ameliyat \u00f6ncesi \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc ka\u00e7an anesteziye maruz kalm\u0131\u015f gibiydim! \u00a0Hissiz ve hareketsizdim, Er Rayn\u2019daki terc\u00fcman gibi! Birka\u00e7 saniye i\u00e7inde tarand\u0131m! Birka\u00e7 hareketle vicdan\u0131ma yollanan canl\u0131 bomba kendini patlatt\u0131! Bir sava\u015ftan d\u00f6nerken \u00f6ld\u00fcm adeta, biraz biraz\u2026<br><br>Cam\u0131 t\u0131klatt\u0131 k\u0131z. Az kals\u0131n, cam\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p hayk\u0131rarak \u201cA**** S******!\u201d diyecektim, onu korumak i\u00e7in\u2026 Alt\u0131nda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 kader enkaz\u0131ndan onu kurtarmak istedim! Fakat kazada bilincimi, anestezide hislerimi, eylemde vicdan\u0131m\u0131, ona varamadan \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm zaten, biraz biraz!<br><br>K\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu gitti, nefessiz kal\u0131p \u00f6lmesi gereken enkaza do\u011fru. I\u015f\u0131klar, sar\u0131, ye\u015fil ve sab\u0131rs\u0131z kornalar! F\u0131r\u0131ndan ekmek almaya giderken bile birinin \u00f6lmesine tahamm\u00fcl\u00fc olmayan insanlar, ah \u015fu insanlar! Art\u0131k sa\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m arac\u0131n i\u00e7ine. Zihnim ve bedenim ayr\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131; Bedenim g\u00fcvenli bir \u015fekilde arac\u0131 s\u00fcrecek, zihnim kafas\u0131na s\u0131kacak kur\u015funu ararken bu konuyu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnecekti. Kimseyi su\u00e7layamad\u0131m, kan\u0131m \u00f6yle donmu\u015ftu ki damarlar\u0131m\u0131n titredi\u011fini hissettim! Zihnim \u00e7alkalan\u0131yor; l\u00fcks bir arac\u0131n bardakl\u0131\u011f\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, karton Starbucks barda\u011f\u0131ndaki afili kahve gibi. Ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncemin yama\u00e7lar\u0131na vuruyor kaderini terk etmek isterken bo\u011fulmu\u015f bir soru;<br><strong>\u201cBir anne bu ac\u0131ya raz\u0131 olmak i\u00e7in, hangi ac\u0131lar\u0131 tatm\u0131\u015f olabilir?\u201d<\/strong><br><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>S\u0131radan bir g\u00fcnd\u00fc, klasikle\u015fmi\u015f arkada\u015f \u00f6rg\u00fctlenmemizi&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":279,"featured_media":11370,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,69],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11368"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/279"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11368"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11368\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11368"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11368"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11368"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}