Yol ge\u00e7mez araba \u00e7\u0131kmaz, g\u00f6zlerden\u00a0\u0131rak d\u00fcnyadan\u00a0uzak, \u00e7amlar, ard\u0131\u00e7lar, yapraklar\u0131\u00a0 hen\u00fcz\u00a0 sararm\u0131\u015f me\u015fe ve \u00e7itlenbik a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 aras\u0131nda, \u00f6n\u00fcnde uzan\u0131p\u00a0 giden geni\u015f\u00e7e\u00a0 d\u00fczl\u00fckte\u00a0 yer\u00a0 alan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir sebze\u00a0 bah\u00e7esine\u00a0ve hemen\u00a0biti\u015fi\u011findeki \u00e7itlerle \u00e7evrili ke\u00e7i a\u011f\u0131l\u0131na bakan ve ufka\u00a0do\u011fru uzanan e\u015fsiz manzaraya\u00a0hakim bir yamaca kurulu ta\u015f\u00a0bacalar\u0131ndan dumanlar\u0131n t\u00fctmekte oldu\u011fu, \u015firin\u00a0mi \u015firin\u00a0iki\u00a0ah\u015fap ev. \u0130\u00e7ine\u00a0girip \u00e7\u0131kmayas\u0131n, okuyas\u0131n, yazas\u0131n, \u00e7izesin, g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda\u00a0ye\u015fil\u00a0denize, gecenin\u00a0zifiri\u00a0karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda y\u0131ld\u0131zlara\u00a0bakas\u0131n, t\u00fcrk\u00fcyle\u00a0 yat\u0131p \u015fark\u0131larla uyanas\u0131n gelen, mutluluk ve huzurun sanki mecburi\u00a0 oldu\u011fu \u0130ki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck\u00a0ev…
\nAma\u00a0insano\u011flu\u00a0i\u015fte! Bolluk\u00a0i\u00e7inde yoklu\u011fu\u00a0ya\u015far da yokluk i\u00e7inde g\u00f6nl\u00fcnde g\u00fcller a\u00e7ar. So\u011fan\u00a0 ekmekle\u00a0 karn\u0131\u00a0 doyar da bal\u0131k havyarla daha yok mu der. \u0130\u015fte\u00a0 bizim iki\u00a0k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck\u00a0\u015firin\u00a0 evimizin\u00a0 sakinleri\u00a0de maalesef sahip olduklar\u0131 g\u00fczelliklerin\u00a0ne\u00a0\u015f\u00fckr\u00fcnde ne de\u00a0bilincindeler. \u00dcstelik hi\u00e7 sakin de de\u011filler. Baba\u00a0 o\u011fulla kavgal\u0131 o\u011ful ana ile ama b\u00fct\u00fcn ya\u015fananlarda\u00a0da kabak, yeni\u00a0 gelin Nazl\u0131’n\u0131n\u00a0ba\u015f\u0131nda\u00a0patlamakta… Ana geline s\u00f6ylenir, baba geline ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r, koca\u00a0 hoyrat\u00e7a dal\u0131ndan kopard\u0131\u011f\u0131 nazl\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fc ezer\u00a0de ezer. Hi\u00e7 g\u00fcl g\u00f6rmemi\u015f, hi\u00e7 nergis\u00a0 koklamam\u0131\u015f ki ne yaps\u0131n fukara… Nazl\u0131 bin pi\u015fman, bu o\u011flana \u201cEvet!\u201d\u00a0 dedi\u011fine. Ocaktaki odun ate\u015fi\u00a0gibi i\u00e7i\u00a0yanmakta, bacadan\u00a0\u00e7\u0131kan\u00a0duman\u00a0gibi ac\u0131lar\u0131 t\u00fctmekte… Ama ne duman\u0131 g\u00f6ren var ne\u00a0de ate\u015fi. Avaz avaz i\u00e7inden kopup gelen \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar, bo\u011faz\u0131ndaki\u00a0 d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc a\u015fam\u0131yor bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc. Feryad\u0131n\u0131 duyurabilece\u011fi, konu\u015fabilece\u011fi, payla\u015fabilece\u011fi hi\u00e7 bir canl\u0131 kul yok. Tek duydu\u011fu\u00a0 yabanc\u0131\u00a0 ses radyodakiler. Onun da ge\u00e7enlerde pilleri\u00a0 bitti, yenisi kim bilir ne zaman al\u0131n\u0131r. Telefon da\u00a0yok ki anas\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 babas\u0131n\u0131 aras\u0131n da birazc\u0131k\u00a0i\u00e7ini d\u00f6ks\u00fcn.<\/p>\n
Nazl\u0131, ne\u00a0 yapt\u0131ysa yaranamad\u0131. Ne aile b\u00fcy\u00fcklerine ne de kocas\u0131na. Her yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00a0 kabahat, her\u00a0 s\u00f6yledi\u011fi\u00a0kabahat…\u00a0Her g\u00fcn k\u00fcf\u00fcr, her g\u00fcn azar. \u00dcstelik onca hakaret\u00a0ve\u00a0eziyetten hemen sonra, hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey\u00a0olmam\u0131\u015f gibi\u00a0bir de koynuna\u00a0girmiyor\u00a0 mu kocas\u0131! Ac\u0131lar\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fc de bu
\nolsa gerek.<\/p>\n
\u201cTanr\u0131m\u00a0 dayan\u0131lacak gibi de\u011fil. Ka\u00e7\u0131p\u00a0gitsem mi\u00a0yoksa!\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye\u00a0ba\u015flad\u0131 Nazl\u0131. K\u0131\u015f\u00a0iyice bast\u0131rmadan, kar yollar\u0131\u00a0kapamadan gitmeli buralardan. Ya annesi\u00a0 babas\u0131 da \u201cK\u0131r dizini otur oturdu\u011fun yerde!\u201d deyip, geri\u00a0 g\u00f6nderirlerse. O zaman ne\u00a0yapar, nereye gider k\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z. Sorular sorular… Bo\u015fa koysa dolmuyor doluya koysa alm\u0131yor. \u201cSab\u0131r\u00a0 k\u0131z\u0131m,\u00a0biraz\u00a0 daha\u00a0sab\u0131r.\u201d dedi\u00a0 kendi kendine. \u201cBelki de\u011fi\u015firler\u00a0belki\u00a0de severler\u00a0beni! Allah\u00a0korusun!\u00a0Ya artarak devam ederse bu i\u015fkence, bu \u00e7ile. Nas\u0131l dayan\u0131r\u0131m o zaman.\u00a0\u015eimdi bile \u00e7ok\u00a0zor. Tanr\u0131m bana\u00a0bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f yolu\u00a0 g\u00f6ster, bu\u00a0insanlar\u0131n\u00a0kalbine merhamet, g\u00f6n\u00fcllerine\u00a0 sevgi, bana da\u00a0dayanma g\u00fcc\u00fc\u00a0ver. \u0130yili\u011fini esirgeme bizden. Sen\u00a0s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131lacak\u00a0yeg\u00e2ne\u00a0dostsun.\u201d<\/p>\n
Umutlar\u0131 her\u00a0 ge\u00e7en\u00a0g\u00fcn\u00a0t\u00fckendi\u00a0gen\u00e7\u00a0k\u0131z\u0131n. Ya\u015fam\u0131nda\u00a0de\u011fi\u015fen\u00a0hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmad\u0131. \u00dcstelik ilk\u00a0 kar\u00a0d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, do\u011fa beyaz\u00a0elbisesini\u00a0giymi\u015f, sa\u00e7aklardan buzlar\u00a0sarkm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Zaten patika olan ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f yolu hen\u00fcz kapanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama onun da eli kula\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Yaln\u0131z muhte\u015fem bir k\u0131\u015f g\u00f6rseli\u00a0olu\u015fmu\u015ftu. Nazl\u0131\u00a0bu manzaraya bakarak uzaklara\u00a0dal\u0131yor, do\u011fan\u0131n dinginli\u011fin de ve ihti\u015fam\u0131nda biraz huzur\u00a0biraz teselli buluyordu. Her \u015fey iyiydi ho\u015ftu,\u00a0soba\u00a0g\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00a0g\u00fcr\u00fcl, \u00e7aydanl\u0131k fokur fokurdu. Fakat baba yine kereste, koca yine\u00a0 odundu. \u0130ki ki\u015fi iki\u00a0 eve
\ns\u0131\u011fam\u0131yor, ba\u011fr\u0131\u015f \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015f\u00a0ve\u00a0k\u00fcf\u00fcrler\u00a0havada\u00a0u\u00e7u\u015fuyordu. Hala ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f d\u00fc\u015flerinde\u00a0olan\u00a0Nazl\u0131’n\u0131n hi\u00e7 istemedi\u011fi \u015fey de ba\u015f\u0131na geliverdi. Y\u00fckl\u00fcyd\u00fc k\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z. Acaba bu durum olumlu\u00a0bir de\u011fi\u015fimin ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 olabilir miydi? Beklemedi Nazl\u0131. Hemen verdi haberi. Sevin\u00e7\u00a0\u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 umdu\u00a0bir an. Ama hepsi de ta\u015f gibiydi. \u00dcstelik \u201csenin derdin\u00a0yetmezmi\u015f gibi\u00a0bir de\u00a0s\u0131panla m\u0131\u00a0u\u011fra\u015facaz!\u201d dedi kocas\u0131. Umutlar\u0131 buhar\u00a0olup u\u00e7tu, as\u0131l\u0131p kald\u0131\u00a0tavana. Demek ki\u00a0ne olursa\u00a0 olsun hi\u00e7bir\u00a0\u015fey de\u011fi\u015fmeyecekti hayat\u0131nda. O da do\u011fal\u00a0ve\u00a0derin\u00a0bir sevgiyle\u00a0ba\u011fland\u0131 bebe\u011fine. Her\u00a0\u015fey\u00a0onun\u00a0i\u00e7indi art\u0131k. Her \u015feye onun\u00a0i\u00e7in\u00a0katlanacak\u00a0ve her \u015feye onun i\u00e7in\u00a0 sabredecekti. Fakat kara yaz\u0131 bu, biter mi\u00a0hi\u00e7? Bir ay sonra kocas\u0131\u00a0olacak hergele iki\u00a0tokatla\u00a0 yere\u00a0serdi Nazl\u0131’y\u0131. \u0130ki tekme de\u00a0karn\u0131na\u00a0yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131. Allahtan bebe\u011fe\u00a0bir\u00a0 \u015fey\u00a0olmad\u0131\u00a0ama bundan\u00a0sonra olmayaca\u011f\u0131\u00a0anlam\u0131na da gelmezdi. \u0130\u015fte o saniye bir daha d\u00f6nmemek\u00a0 \u00fczere\u00a0 gitmeye\u00a0 karar\u00a0verdi k\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bebe\u011fi de tehlike alt\u0131ndayd\u0131 art\u0131k. O ak\u015fam kocas\u0131 yine pis\u00a0kokular\u0131n\u0131\u00a0\u00fczerinde b\u0131rakarak derin bir uykuya dald\u0131. Hem horlayan bu kemre\u00a0 torbas\u0131ndan hem de bedenindeki d\u00f6l izlerinden\u00a0i\u011frenerek\u00a0\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u00a0yataktan. Sobaya\u00a0iki odun daha att\u0131. \u00dczerinde\u00a0\u0131s\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ibrikle\u00a0bo\u015f\u00a0dolaba\u00a0girdi. Gusl\u00fcn\u00fc al\u0131p\u00a0temizlendikten sonra iki rek\u00e2t namaz\u00a0 k\u0131ld\u0131. Duvardaki mushaf\u0131 indirip, h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar i\u00e7inde\u00a0bir Y\u00e2sin okudu. Sonra t\u00fcm\u00a0benli\u011fiyle\u00a0t\u00fcm
\nkalbiyle\u00a0ellerini\u00a0duaya a\u00e7t\u0131. Yalvard\u0131, a\u011flad\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00a0ya\u015flar\u0131\u00a0s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp seccadeye\u00a0indi. \u201cRabbim\u00a0ne\u00a0 olur bizi\u00a0 esirge, bize\u00a0yard\u0131m\u00a0et!\u201d deyip g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00a0ilk\u00a0\u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131yla\u00a0yola\u00a0koyuldu.
\nKar\u00a0yoktu\u00a0ama\u00a0hava\u00a0iyice ayaza\u00a0 \u00e7ekmi\u015fti. \u201cOlsun.\u201d dedi Nazl\u0131, \u201cSadece\u00a0 iki saatlik\u00a0 yol var abimin\u00a0k\u00f6y\u00fcne. Hem\u00a0y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e\u00a0\u0131s\u0131n\u0131r\u0131m, Rabbim\u00a0de\u00a0benimle\u00a0de\u011fil mi zaten.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ka\u00e7man\u0131n\u00a0 ve kurtulman\u0131n verdi\u011fi umut ve heyecanla enerji\u00a0doldu Nazl\u0131’n\u0131n\u00a0 bacaklar\u0131. O g\u00fc\u00e7le dald\u0131 orman\u00a0 yoluna. Ko\u015far gibi\u00a0y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc bir saate\u00a0yak\u0131n. Sa\u011fdan\u00a0soldan\u00a0kurt ulumalar\u0131 gelse de umursamad\u0131, korkmad\u0131 Nazl\u0131. \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck\u00a0 yolu bu; emek ister, cesaret\u00a0ister. O da\u00a0Nazl\u0131\u00a0da\u00a0fazlas\u0131yla var ama\u00a0 kara \u00f6r\u00fcmcek a\u011flar\u0131yla \u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcyd\u00fc, kara\u00a0kuru hen\u00fcz yirmisindeki\u00a0 k\u00f6rpe\u00a0fidan\u0131n hayat yolu. Kar\u00a0d\u00fc\u015fmeye\u00a0ba\u015flad\u0131\u00a0tek\u00a0t\u00fck. \u00c7ok\u00a0ge\u00e7meden de tipiye d\u00f6nd\u00fc. R\u00fczg\u00e2r\u00a0bir\u00a0yandan kar bir\u00a0yandan, y\u00fcr\u00fcyemez\u00a0oldu Nazl\u0131 gelin. Ad\u0131mlar\u0131\u00a0 giderek\u00a0 yava\u015flad\u0131. Kendisi\u00a0 oldu kardan bir kad\u0131n. Biraz nefeslenip tipinin ge\u00e7mesini beklemek i\u00e7in bir \u00e7am a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na girip \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc. Beklemeye\u00a0ba\u015flad\u0131. \u015eiddetli so\u011fuk\u00a0ve\u00a0tipiye bir de hareketsizlik\u00a0eklenince, iliklerine\u00a0 kadar dondu k\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z. Zang\u0131r zang\u0131r titremeye\u00a0ba\u015flad\u0131. \u201cYolun\u00a0 sonuna\u00a0geldim\u00a0galiba!\u201d\u00a0diye\u00a0 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Korkmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\u00a0Kendi\u00a0i\u00e7in korktu,\u00a0bebe\u011fi\u00a0i\u00e7in korktu. \u0130ki\u00a0damla ya\u015f\u00a0d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u00a0g\u00f6zlerinden, hemencecik buz\u00a0oldu\u00a0kirpiklerinde. Sonras\u0131nda titremelerin\u00a0yerini derin bir uyku iste\u011fi ald\u0131. Pek\u00a0tatl\u0131yd\u0131 bu \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl istek. Ama dayanacak\u00a0 g\u00fcc\u00fc de kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 art\u0131k. Sal\u0131verdi kendini\u00a0sonsuz uykunun\u00a0\u015fefkatli\u00a0kollar\u0131na… A\u011fz\u0131ndan\u00a0 s\u0131zan son s\u00f6zleri de hayat\u0131 gibi pek ac\u0131l\u0131 oldu Nazl\u0131\u00a0 k\u0131z\u0131n. Ama onlar\u0131 da\u00a0kimseler duymad\u0131. Yap\u0131\u015f\u0131p kald\u0131lar\u00a0 kaskat\u0131 kesilmi\u015f kardan yorgana;
\n\u201cKarlar\u00a0d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u00a0bize, sen\u00a0de \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcn m\u00fc bebe\u011fim?\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Yol ge\u00e7mez araba \u00e7\u0131kmaz, g\u00f6zlerden\u00a0\u0131rak d\u00fcnyadan\u00a0uzak,…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":278,"featured_media":11254,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,69],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11253"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/278"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11253"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11253\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11253"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11253"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11253"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}