O gece \u015fehrin arka sokaklar\u0131nda nefes nefese ko\u015fan bir kad\u0131n vard\u0131. Birka\u00e7 ad\u0131mda bir d\u00f6n\u00fcp arkas\u0131na bak\u0131yor, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs kafesindeki ini\u015f kalk\u0131\u015ftan dakikalard\u0131r ko\u015ftu\u011fu anla\u015f\u0131l\u0131yordu. Yal\u0131n ayakt\u0131, pembe bir pijama tak\u0131m\u0131 vard\u0131 \u00fczerinde. Hava so\u011fuktu, aral\u0131k ay\u0131n\u0131n ortalar\u0131yd\u0131, y\u00fcz\u00fc k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olmu\u015ftu. H\u0131zla ge\u00e7ti\u011fi sokaktaki evlerin kap\u0131lar\u0131 pencereleri s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya kapat\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7o\u011funlukla soba yakt\u0131klar\u0131 havaya kar\u0131\u015fan gri siyah dumandan belli oluyordu. Ara ara, \u201c\u0130mdat!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yor, kal\u0131nla\u015fan sesi a\u011fdams\u0131 bir bo\u011funtuyla birle\u015fiyordu. Merhamet duygusundan yoksun b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f \u00f6fkeli \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n, sapan ta\u015f\u0131yla vurup daldan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fckleri ser\u00e7enin bo\u011fazlan\u0131rken \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7elimsiz \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sanki sesine… Renkli \u00e7itlerle \u00e7evrilmi\u015f gecekondunun \u00f6n\u00fcne geldi\u011finde bir anda durdu. Perdesi yar\u0131 aral\u0131k kalm\u0131\u015f camdan i\u00e7eriye bakt\u0131. Soban\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde oturan iki \u00e7ocuk vard\u0131. G\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen bir kad\u0131n, soba \u00fczerindeki kestaneleri ay\u0131klay\u0131p \u00e7ocuklara uzatan bir de adam. \u201cBabalar\u0131 olmal\u0131.\u201d dedi. Cellad\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm ad\u0131mlar\u0131ndan ya\u015fama do\u011fru ko\u015fan kad\u0131n bu kareyi izlerken sakinlemi\u015f gibiydi. Kalp at\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ve zihni y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesindeydi art\u0131k.<\/p>\n
-Hadi k\u0131z\u0131m ye \u015fundan bir tanecik!<\/p>\n
-Sevmiyorum baba, zorlama!<\/p>\n
-Yahu kestane sevilmez mi? Hem bak ellerimle pi\u015firip temizledim, a\u00e7 bakay\u0131m o g\u00fczel a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n
-Baba \u00e7ocuk muyum ben?<\/p>\n
-Evet, benim \u00e7ocu\u011fumsun.<\/p>\n
Babas\u0131 Muhsin Bey konserve fabrikas\u0131nda i\u015f\u00e7iydi. Ne\u015feli babacan tav\u0131rlar\u0131yla, mahallesinde de i\u015f yerinde de \u00e7ok sevilirdi. K\u0131z\u0131na Ada, o\u011fluna Deniz ad\u0131n\u0131 koyarken g\u00fcn\u00fcn birinde iklimi Akdeniz, denizi sakin bir kasabaya ta\u015f\u0131nma hayalini kendince belgelemi\u015fti. Sahaflardan toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 eski kitaplar ve \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 hazinesiydi. Ak\u015famlar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck burnunun ucuna d\u00fc\u015fen siyah \u00e7er\u00e7eveli g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc tak\u0131p divana oturur, kitap okurdu. Arada parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kitab\u0131n aras\u0131na koyup hararetle yorumlar yapar, y\u00fcz\u00fcnde beliren ifadeyle evdekileri g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Pazar sabahlar\u0131 elleriyle menemen pi\u015firir, demledi\u011fi \u00e7ay\u0131 soba \u00fczerine b\u0131rak\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00c7ay\u0131 yakmadan s\u0131cak tutmak, menemendeki yumurtalar\u0131 da incitmemek gerek.\u201d deyip kahkahay\u0131 basard\u0131. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na al\u0131p s\u0131k s\u0131k konu\u015furdu. O g\u00fcnde Deniz ile konu\u015fuyordu.<\/p>\n
-Bak o\u011flum \u00f6nce s\u00f6z verdi\u011fin gibi okulunu bitir, ekme\u011fini kazan. O i\u015fler sonra\u2026<\/p>\n
-Hangi i\u015fler baba?<\/p>\n
-Ulan kerata bilmiyor muyum g\u00fczeller g\u00fczeline nas\u0131l bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, akl\u0131ndan neler ge\u00e7ti\u011fini tahmin edebiliyorum! Bak evlat daha kendini tan\u0131ma a\u015famas\u0131ndayken hayat\u0131na ba\u015fka bir insan\u0131 d\u00e2hil etmeyi planlarsan sonu iki ki\u015filik mutsuzluk olur. Ger\u00e7ekten seviyorsan ki sevmek ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n belirsizliklere onu d\u00e2hil etmek, vadetmek de\u011fil, sevdi\u011finin hayat\u0131na yeni g\u00fczellikler katabilme g\u00fcc\u00fcne sahip olmakt\u0131r. Bu g\u00fc\u00e7le ya\u015fam\u0131 payla\u015fmay\u0131 teklif edebilirsin. Yoksa c\u00fcretin aptall\u0131k, aptall\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bedeliyse bir kad\u0131n\u0131n y\u0131k\u0131lan inanc\u0131 olur. \u0130nan bana o\u011flum ben d\u00fc\u015fleri y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir kad\u0131n\u0131n enkaz\u0131ndan sa\u011flam \u00e7\u0131kan adam g\u00f6rmedim. ,<\/p>\n
Deniz ama diye ba\u015flayan c\u00fcmleler kurma g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc kaybetmi\u015fti. Babas\u0131na minnetle bak\u0131p, \u201cGaliba hakl\u0131s\u0131n babac\u0131\u011f\u0131m.\u201d demi\u015fti… Abisiyle aras\u0131nda d\u00f6rt ya\u015f vard\u0131 Ada\u2019n\u0131n. \u0130ki karde\u015finde kahraman\u0131yd\u0131 babalar\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u0130s kokan sokaktaki reng\u00e2renk boyanm\u0131\u015f \u00e7itlerin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki kad\u0131n g\u00fcr tiz bir sesle irkildi.<\/p>\n
-ADA ADA ADA…<\/p>\n
Yeniden ko\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, k\u00f6\u015feyi d\u00f6n\u00fcp daha dar bir soka\u011fa girdi.<\/p>\n
-\u0130mdat yard\u0131m edin, ne olur yard\u0131m edin!<\/p>\n
\u0130ki katl\u0131 evin balkonuna yirmi ya\u015flar\u0131nda bir gen\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Panikle Ada\u2019ya do\u011fru bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n
-\u00d6ld\u00fcrecek beni, l\u00fctfen polisi ara, yard\u0131m et!<\/p>\n
Gen\u00e7, babas\u0131na seslendi, \u201cBaba ko\u015f yeti\u015f!\u201d \u0130ri k\u0131y\u0131m siyah e\u015fofmanl\u0131 adam, \u201cNe var lan!\u201d diyerek geldi. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya do\u011fru e\u011fildi, k\u0131zla g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldi sonra o\u011flunu i\u00e7eri \u00e7ekerek, \u201cBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 belaya m\u0131 sokacaks\u0131n sanane!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u00c7aresiz kalan kad\u0131n yeniden ko\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00c7\u0131kmaz soka\u011fa girdi\u011fini bilmeden ilerledi. \u00d6n\u00fcnde beliren y\u00fcksek, eski duvar yolun sonuna geldi\u011fini anlat\u0131yordu. Otuz be\u015f ya\u015flar\u0131ndaki atletik g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcml\u00fc adam elindeki koca b\u0131\u00e7akla kurban\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. Av\u0131na do\u011fru ilerleyen y\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 hayvan gibiydi. Ada incecik parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 boynuna do\u011fru g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Titriyordu. Annesinin daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken hediye etti\u011fi cev\u015feni tuttu s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya. \u00dcniversite s\u0131nav sonu\u00e7lar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131klanmadan k\u0131sa s\u00fcre \u00f6nce Muhsin Bey kalp krizi ge\u00e7irip vefat etmi\u015fti. Hukuk fak\u00fcltesini kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 mezar\u0131na gidip haber vermi\u015fti babac\u0131\u011f\u0131na. Abisi ise bu ani \u00f6l\u00fcmden hemen sonra mezun olmu\u015ftu. Zor g\u00fcnleri birbirlerine tutunarak a\u015fmay\u0131 ba\u015farm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Fak\u00fcltenin son s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131na geldi\u011finde babas\u0131na s\u00f6z verdi\u011fi diplomay\u0131 alacak olman\u0131n gururu ve heyecan\u0131 vard\u0131 i\u00e7inde. Staja ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 hukuk b\u00fcrosundaki avukat Sarp ile tan\u0131\u015fana dek. Hayat\u0131n\u0131n amac\u0131 hedeflerine ula\u015fmakken sonralar\u0131 amac\u0131 hayatta kalma \u00e7abas\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fecekti… Sarp evli iki \u00e7ocuklu ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 bir avukatt\u0131. K\u0131sa s\u00fcre i\u00e7inde ba\u015flayan uygunsuz teklifleri, bask\u0131s\u0131 gen\u00e7 stajyeri can\u0131ndan bezdirecekti. Adam reddedilmeyi hazmedememi\u015f, \u00fcst\u00fcne bir de h\u0131rslanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sonunda ofisten ayr\u0131lan Ada telefon numaras\u0131n\u0131 da de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015fti. \u00dc\u00e7 ay boyunca onunla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmay\u0131nca kurtuldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, rahat bir nefes alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Fak\u00fclteden arkada\u015f\u0131 olan Emir ile de ni\u015fanlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Uzun s\u00fcrmemi\u015fti huzuru. \u00c7ok ge\u00e7meden yeniden \u00e7irkin i\u00e7erikli mesajlar, tehditler almaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca su\u00e7 duyurusunda bulunmu\u015f, zaman i\u00e7inde yeni dilek\u00e7eler birbirini takip etmi\u015fti. \u0130fadesi al\u0131nan adam savc\u0131l\u0131ktan her d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnde daha g\u00f6z\u00fc d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f olarak kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden devam ediyordu. Abisi Deniz mezuniyetinin ard\u0131ndan askere gitti\u011fi i\u00e7in hen\u00fcz olanlar\u0131 bilmiyordu. ,<\/p>\n
O gece ard\u0131 ard\u0131na onlarca mesaj atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yine hastal\u0131kl\u0131 d\u00fcrt\u00fcleriyle. Barodan at\u0131labilece\u011fini, sebebinin o oldu\u011funu, bu saatten sonra teklifini kabul etmezse kaybedecek \u015feyinin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlat\u0131yordu. G\u00fcnlerdir uyuyamayan gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeden bekliyordu. Yorgun d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, g\u00f6z kapaklar\u0131 a\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131, dalmakla uyan\u0131kl\u0131k aras\u0131ndaki cinnet \u00e7izgisinde gidip gelirken a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ca kapatan elleri hissetmesiyle g\u00f6zleri yuvalar\u0131ndan f\u0131rlad\u0131. Adam odas\u0131na kadar girmi\u015fti, i\u015faret parma\u011f\u0131yla sus diye i\u015faret etti. Sonra aya\u011fa kald\u0131r\u0131p f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 kula\u011f\u0131na, \u201cBenimle gelmezsen annen i\u00e7in \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u00fcn!\u201d Yava\u015f hareketlerle k\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7ekerek d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Arabas\u0131 evin \u00f6n\u00fcndeydi. Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131, \u201cBin!\u201d diye itti. Ada ad\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 atmadan ani bir hareketle yerden ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck\u00e7e ta\u015f\u0131 adam\u0131n kafas\u0131na vurup ko\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Dakikalarca ko\u015ftu ko\u015ftu. Ayaklar\u0131 ac\u0131yordu, elleri, y\u00fcz\u00fc, v\u00fccudu buz kesmi\u015fti. T\u00fcm insanlar neredeydi, hepsi ayn\u0131 anda \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f m\u00fcyd\u00fc? Yoksa sa\u011f\u0131rlar m\u0131yd\u0131? \u00c7\u0131kmaz soka\u011fa girmi\u015fti ona do\u011fru yakla\u015fansa Azrail\u2019i idi. Kad\u0131na yakla\u015f\u0131rken kendini aslan sanan s\u0131rtlana benziyordu. Pembe pijamal\u0131 minyon k\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinden ya\u015flar s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. Art\u0131k ba\u011f\u0131rm\u0131yordu, s\u0131k\u0131ca tuttu\u011fu cev\u015feniyle bir \u015feyler m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yordu. Elinde telefonu, yal\u0131n ayak onlara do\u011fru ko\u015fan ki\u015fi biraz \u00f6nce yard\u0131m istedi\u011fi balkondaki gen\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n
-Polisi arad\u0131m geliyorlar b\u0131rak k\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n
Sesin sahibine ald\u0131rmadan Ada\u2019ya yakla\u015ft\u0131. Elindeki b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6sterdi, sonra geriye do\u011fru kas\u0131l\u0131p saplayacakken, delikanl\u0131 Sarp\u2019\u0131 s\u0131rt\u0131ndan h\u0131zla savurarak yere d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yerde bir m\u00fcddet debelendiler, gen\u00e7 yand\u0131m, \u201cAnam!\u201d diyene dek. \u00c7ocuk yerde k\u0131vran\u0131rken yeniden k\u0131za y\u00f6neldi. Elleri yoruluncaya kadar saplad\u0131 b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n\u0131…<\/p>\n
\u00c7ocuk ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu, \u201cYapma dur, \u00f6ld\u00fcrme!\u201d diyordu. Siren sesi duymaya ba\u015flad\u0131klar\u0131nda katil \u00e7oktan g\u00f6zden kaybolmu\u015ftu. Delikanl\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcnerek Ada\u2019n\u0131n yan\u0131na gitti. Gen\u00e7 k\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6zleri a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, bir \u015feyler s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n
\u00c7ocuk, \u201cDayan iyile\u015feceksin!\u201d dedi a\u011flayarak. Can \u00e7eki\u015fen, pembe pijamas\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya boyanan k\u0131z\u0131n elini tuttu. Sesi h\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, s\u00f6ylediklerini duymak i\u00e7in yakla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
-S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc tutmama az kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
-Ne s\u00f6z\u00fc?<\/p>\n
-Babama verdi\u011fim s\u00f6z\u2026<\/p>\n
Hava is kokuyordu. Sa\u011f\u0131r insanlar duymuyordu. Yasalar\u0131 hasta idi. Ormanda s\u0131rtlanlar ceylan kan\u0131 i\u00e7iyordu. \u0130yilik yaln\u0131zd\u0131, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011fe g\u00fcc\u00fc yetmiyordu.<\/p>\n
Hava is kokuyordu…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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