{"id":11216,"date":"2021-11-08T02:46:02","date_gmt":"2021-11-07T23:46:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11216"},"modified":"2021-11-08T02:46:02","modified_gmt":"2021-11-07T23:46:02","slug":"kirmizi-ucurtma","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11216","title":{"rendered":"KIRMIZI U\u00c7URTMA"},"content":{"rendered":"

Il\u0131k haziran ikindisinin keyfini s\u00fcrercesine, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fck tempolu g\u00fcnl\u00fck y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc yap\u0131yordu Elif. \u00a0Bir yan\u0131nda deniz, di\u011fer yan\u0131nda da, altlar\u0131ndaki banklarda insanlar\u0131n oturup vakit ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi, \u00e7imenlik alanla, r\u0131ht\u0131m\u0131 ay\u0131ran ulu \u00e7\u0131nar a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 vard\u0131. Okullar\u0131n kapanmas\u0131, mevsimin yaza d\u00f6nmesi ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 hareketlendirmi\u015fti. Tenini \u0131s\u0131tan tatl\u0131 ikindi g\u00fcne\u015fine, sahilden esen hafif bir r\u00fczg\u00e2r e\u015flik etmekteydi. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 e\u011flendiren aileler, \u00e7imenlerin \u00fcst\u00fcne yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015f gen\u00e7ler, k\u00f6peklerini gezdiren insanlar, banklarda oturup sohbet eden ya\u015fl\u0131lardan olu\u015fan bir kalabal\u0131k vard\u0131 etrafta. Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f yaparken etraf\u0131n\u0131 izliyor, bir yandan \u2018<\/em>insan ya\u015f ald\u0131k\u00e7a detaylar\u0131n daha \u00e7ok fark\u0131na var\u0131yor, an\u0131n k\u0131ymetini, hayat\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131 daha \u00e7ok kavr\u0131yor\u2019 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Eh o da art\u0131k \u00e7ok gen\u00e7 say\u0131lmazd\u0131. Otuzlar\u0131n\u0131n sonuna geliyordu ama incecik bedeni, k\u00e2k\u00fcll\u00fc kumral sa\u00e7lar\u0131, spor giyimiyle ya\u015f\u0131ndan daha gen\u00e7 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Denizdeki tekneleri, bal\u0131k tutanlar\u0131, berrak mavi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcndeki bulutlar\u0131, ko\u015fturup e\u011flenen \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 izleyerek yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc tamamlam\u0131\u015f, bankta yaln\u0131z oturan ya\u015fl\u0131 bir kad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda kendine bir yer buldu\u011fu i\u00e7in sevinmi\u015fti. \u0130zin isteyerek bank\u0131n di\u011fer ucuna yerle\u015fti, solukland\u0131. \u00c7antas\u0131ndaki kitab\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p, yapraklar\u0131 tatl\u0131 bir h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131yla sal\u0131nan \u00e7\u0131nar a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda, g\u00fcne\u015f \u00e7ekilene kadar okumak niyetindeydi. O s\u0131rada, az ilerde u\u00e7urtma u\u00e7urmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir baba k\u0131za tak\u0131ld\u0131 g\u00f6zleri. Yedi sekiz ya\u015flar\u0131nda k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu, babas\u0131n\u0131n eline tutu\u015fturdu\u011fu ipi tutmaya ve u\u00e7urtmay\u0131 havaland\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Birka\u00e7 denemeden sonra r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc, ipin uzunlu\u011funu ve ko\u015fma h\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 ayarlamay\u0131 ba\u015farm\u0131\u015flar ve alt\u0131gen formlu, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, p\u00fcsk\u00fcll\u00fc u\u00e7urtma esintiye kap\u0131l\u0131p, havada s\u00fcz\u00fclmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Babas\u0131 alk\u0131\u015fl\u0131 tezah\u00fcrat\u0131yla, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 cesaretlendirirken, k\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131k siyah sa\u00e7lar\u0131 u\u00e7u\u015fan ufakl\u0131k da k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sevin\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 at\u0131yordu. Elif de y\u00fcz\u00fcnde mutlu bir ifadeyle onlar\u0131 izliyordu. \u201cBu ya\u015f\u0131ma geldim, hi\u00e7 u\u00e7urtma u\u00e7urmad\u0131m ben, biliyor musunuz?\u201d dedi y\u00fcksek sesle. Yan\u0131ndaki ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n Elif\u2019e bakarak \u201c Efendim k\u0131z\u0131m, bana m\u0131 dediniz?\u201d diye tam duyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 c\u00fcmleleri anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rcas\u0131na sordu. Elif, g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek a\u00e7\u0131klad\u0131: \u201cKendimi tutamad\u0131m u\u00e7urtmay\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce\u2026 Hi\u00e7 u\u00e7urtmam olmad\u0131, denemedim de, ama izlemek bile \u00e7ok e\u011flenceli\u2026\u201d diyerek ba\u015f\u0131yla ilerdeki baba, k\u0131z\u0131 i\u015faret etti.<\/p>\n

Yetmi\u015fli ya\u015flar\u0131ndaki, \u00fcst\u00fcnde ince h\u0131rkas\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131nda e\u015farb\u0131, sap\u0131n\u0131 tuttu\u011fu b\u00fcy\u00fccek \u00e7antas\u0131yla oturan kad\u0131n, sevgi dolu bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 Elif\u2019in bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 tarafa do\u011fru \u00e7evirip : \u201cOnlar benim o\u011flumla, torunum Melis\u201d dedi. \u201cR\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131 fark edince torunum u\u00e7urtma diye tutturdu, biz de geldik tabi. Yavrumun y\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fcyor bug\u00fcn, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr.\u201d dedi. Elif: \u201cAllah ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n, \u00e7ok sevimli\u2026 Hep birlikte mi ya\u015f\u0131yorsunuz?\u201d diye sordu. Kad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zleri nemlendi; bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 havadaki k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 u\u00e7urtmaya dald\u0131: \u201cEvet k\u0131z\u0131m\u2026 Annesini iki sene \u00f6nce bir kazada kaybettik. Evimi kapatt\u0131m, o\u011flumun evine ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m, ben bak\u0131yorum torunuma\u201d dedi. Elif: \u201c\u00c7ok \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm. Allah sab\u0131r versin. Hi\u00e7 kolay de\u011fil, ac\u0131 bir kadermi\u015f.\u201d dedi\u011fi s\u0131rada, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z babaannesine seslenerek u\u00e7urtmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6steriyordu. Babas\u0131n\u0131n yard\u0131m\u0131yla u\u00e7urtmay\u0131 kontrol alt\u0131nda tutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. R\u00fczg\u00e2r bir miktar \u015fiddetlenmi\u015f, g\u00fcne\u015f \u00e7ekilmeye y\u00fcz tutmu\u015ftu. Ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n sesini duyurmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak: \u201cHadi art\u0131k, yeter \u00e7ocu\u011fum. Terledin, yoruldun, hem ge\u00e7 oldu. Toparlan\u0131n art\u0131k\u201d, diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Elif\u2019e d\u00f6nerek: \u201cSizin \u00e7ocu\u011funuz var m\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131m?\u201d diye sordu.<\/p>\n

\u201cHay\u0131r\u201d dedi Elif, \u201cEvli de\u011filim, yaln\u0131z ya\u015f\u0131yorum. Edebiyat \u00f6\u011fretmeniyim ben. Tayinle geldim, bir y\u0131ld\u0131r buraday\u0131m\u201d diye cevap verdi. \u201cBurada aileniz, dostunuz, akraban\u0131z yok mu?\u201d diye sordu ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n. \u201cYok kimsem. Annem beni d\u00fcnyaya getirirken \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f, babam da beni kuruma b\u0131rak\u0131p yok olmu\u015f. Ben yeti\u015ftirme yurdunda b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm. Sonras\u0131, azimle okuma ve mesle\u011fime tutunarak ayakta kalma m\u00fccadelesi i\u015fte. Hen\u00fcz kendi ailemi kuramad\u0131m. K\u0131smet olursa belki bir g\u00fcn\u2026\u201d dedi do\u011fal bir ses tonuyla Elif. Kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z duyduklar\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u00fczg\u00fcn, ne diyece\u011fini bilmez bir halde: \u201cBuray\u0131 seversiniz, u\u011furlu gelir size in\u015fallah k\u0131z\u0131m.\u201d dedi. \u201c\u0130n\u015fallah\u201d dedi gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n; sonra da konuyu de\u011fi\u015ftirmek i\u00e7in \u201c\u015eu u\u00e7urtma hevesi i\u00e7imde uhdedir. \u00c7ocuklu\u011fum mahrumiyetle ge\u00e7ti\u011finden, b\u00f6yle sevin\u00e7le u\u00e7urtma u\u00e7uran \u00e7ocuklar beni hem h\u00fcz\u00fcnlendirir, hem de mutlu eder\u201d dedi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcndeki s\u00fcz\u00fclen k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 u\u00e7urtmaya bakarak. Ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n i\u00e7ini \u00e7ekti: \u201cBu u\u00e7urtmay\u0131 Melis\u2019e annesi elleriyle yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7ok g\u00fczel bir anne ve iyi bir e\u015fti benim gelinim. K\u00f6t\u00fc kader hepimizi mahvetti. Melis\u2019im alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nda \u00f6ks\u00fcz kald\u0131. O\u011flumun hayat\u0131 karard\u0131, kendisini k\u0131z\u0131na adad\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00fc ba\u015fka bir \u015fey g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor. Benim de y\u00fck\u00fcm a\u011f\u0131r. Sa\u011flam durmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum ama nereye kadar? \u0130\u015fte k\u0131z\u0131m, herkesin kaderi ayr\u0131, s\u0131nav\u0131 ayr\u0131. Ne yapal\u0131m!\u201d<\/p>\n

O s\u0131rada Melis, babas\u0131n\u0131 geride b\u0131rakarak, k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f yanaklar ve a\u011flamakl\u0131 g\u00f6zlerle babaannesine do\u011fru ko\u015farak geldi: \u201cBabaanne, u\u00e7urtmam a\u011faca tak\u0131ld\u0131 kald\u0131 orada\u201d diyerek az ilerdeki b\u00fcy\u00fck a\u011fac\u0131 g\u00f6steriyordu. Babas\u0131 da Melis\u2019in ard\u0131ndan yeti\u015ferek: \u201cR\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n y\u00f6n\u00fc de\u011fi\u015fti, ipi kontrol edemedik, a\u011fac\u0131n \u00fcst dallar\u0131na tak\u0131ld\u0131 u\u00e7urtma\u201d diye ellerini a\u00e7arak \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle durumu a\u00e7\u0131klamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z art\u0131k iyiden iyiye h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131rken, babaannesi \u201c\u00dcz\u00fclme kuzum, ne yapal\u0131m. Kurtulur d\u00fc\u015fer belki oradan. Park g\u00f6revlilerine haber b\u0131rak\u0131r\u0131z. \u015eimdi gidelim, bak ak\u015fam oluyor. Yar\u0131n yine gelir bakar\u0131z, olmad\u0131 yenisini yapar\u0131z.\u201d diye teselli etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Elif sessizce izliyordu. Tesad\u00fcfen orada bulunan, o ana \u015fahit olan bir yabanc\u0131yd\u0131 nihayetinde ama hepsiyle empati kurmu\u015f, en \u00e7ok da Melis\u2019in \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc i\u00e7inde ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Melis\u2019in annesiyle olan ve y\u0131llar i\u00e7inde solacak hat\u0131ralar\u0131n\u0131n somut bir ta\u015f\u0131y\u0131c\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131 o u\u00e7urtma belli ki. Elif annesini hi\u00e7 bilmemi\u015fti. Ondan kalan tek bir e\u015fya, ya da payla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir andan bir iz olmas\u0131 i\u00e7in neler vermezdi! Melis\u2019in g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 onun y\u00fcre\u011fine akm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 adeta. Ailenin, tela\u015fla toparlan\u0131p gitmelerinin ard\u0131ndan, gidip a\u011fac\u0131n tepesindeki u\u00e7urtmaya bakmak istedi. Y\u00fcksekteki dallar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bir leke ili\u015fti g\u00f6z\u00fcne. Orada s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, hatta muhtemelen par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

O gece Elif\u2019i uyku tutmad\u0131. \u0130nternetten u\u00e7urtma yap\u0131m\u0131yla ilgili videolar izledi. Ertesi g\u00fcn\u00fc, gerekli malzemeleri temin etmek ve Melis\u2019inkinin t\u0131pat\u0131p ayn\u0131s\u0131ndan, parlak k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, alt\u0131gen formunda, p\u00fcsk\u00fcll\u00fc bir u\u00e7urtma yapmakla ge\u00e7ti. Ak\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc, bir g\u00fcn \u00f6nceki bankta otururken, yan\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fck\u00e7e bir po\u015fet i\u00e7inde k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bir u\u00e7urtma vard\u0131. \u0130ki g\u00fcn boyunca bekleyi\u015fi sonu\u00e7suz kald\u0131, gelmediler. Sonraki ak\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc sahile geldi\u011finde, ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki bankta otururken, Melis\u2019i de babas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zetiminde bisiklete binerken g\u00f6r\u00fcp, uzaktan bir s\u00fcre izledi. Yan\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 po\u015fetten \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u00e7urtmay\u0131, ulu \u00e7\u0131nar a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n arkas\u0131na usulca b\u0131rakt\u0131 ve ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na gelip, selam vererek oturdu: \u201cMerhaba nas\u0131ls\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d, \u00a0kad\u0131ndan selam\u0131n\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131ktan sonra hemen konuya girdi: \u201cO g\u00fcn \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcn\u00fcz, iki g\u00fcnd\u00fcr de g\u00f6r\u00fcnmediniz, merak ettim sizi\u201d dedi Elif. \u201cSorma k\u0131z\u0131m, Melis iki g\u00fcn odas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131, a\u011flad\u0131 durdu\u201d dedi ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n. Elif, \u201cSize g\u00fczel bir haberim var. Temizlik g\u00f6revlileri u\u00e7urtmay\u0131 az ilerde bulup, \u015fu \u00e7\u0131nar\u0131n alt\u0131na b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015flar. H\u00e2l\u00e2 duruyor olmal\u0131 orada, bir bak\u0131n isterseniz\u201d dedi\u011finde ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n inanmayan ama \u00fcmit dolu bak\u0131\u015flarla s\u00fczd\u00fc gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131. Hemen o\u011fluna seslendi, durumu haber verdi. Az sonra Melis, sevin\u00e7le z\u0131playarak elinde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u00e7urtmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6steriyordu babaannesine. Melis\u2019le \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n baba, u\u00e7urtma hevesiyle uzakla\u015f\u0131rlarken, ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n usulca Elif\u2019in kuca\u011f\u0131nda kavu\u015fturdu\u011fu ellerini yakalad\u0131. Nemli g\u00f6zleri \u015fefkat ve minnet doluydu. \u201dSen hi\u00e7 u\u00e7urtma u\u00e7urmad\u0131m diye \u00fcz\u00fclme k\u0131z\u0131m. Sen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00f6ks\u00fcz\u00fcn y\u00fcre\u011fini kanatland\u0131rd\u0131n, bir annenin hat\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131 canland\u0131rd\u0131n. Allah da senin y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fcrs\u00fcn. \u0130lerde \u00e7ocuklar\u0131nla nice u\u00e7urtmalar u\u00e7urursun in\u015fallah.\u201d dedi. Elif, utanga\u00e7 bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyle ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011ferken, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 u\u00e7urtma g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde s\u00fcz\u00fclmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile.<\/p>\n

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