Liturjik bir rutindir benim i\u00e7in sabah kahvesi… Gece yar\u0131s\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r okunan Kur’an, Fecir vakti yap\u0131lan dua gibi. Bir kez daha bu ana ula\u015fman\u0131n \u015f\u00fckr\u00fc i\u00e7inde kavanozun kapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f\u00e7a a\u00e7ar, kahverengi gran\u00fcllerden yay\u0131lan e\u015fsiz ve enfes kokuyla mest olurum. Tinsel, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnsel ve g\u00f6lgesel b\u00fct\u00fcn hazlar\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclmeyi bekleyen \u015fifresi gibidir bu koku. Onunla a\u00e7\u0131lmaya ba\u015flar, ac\u0131lar\u0131n bile tatl\u0131 bir hat\u0131raya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc sararm\u0131\u015f sayfalar. Sonra suyla bulu\u015fur kahve tanecikleri a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r pi\u015fer k\u00f6p\u00fck olur, kabarc\u0131kla\u015f\u0131p dem olur. Yava\u015f\u00e7a d\u00f6kerim kadrolu porselen beyaz fincana. Sonra ge\u00e7eriz birlikte hayal perdesinin ac\u0131 tatl\u0131 ekran\u0131na. Her yudum al\u0131r g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr ge\u00e7mi\u015ften seslenen bir yapra\u011fa, ya da yaz\u0131lmay\u0131 bekleyen bir \u00f6yk\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6rg\u00fcl\u00fc sat\u0131rlar\u0131na. Birlikte seyrederiz ya\u011fan ya\u011fmuru, u\u00e7an ku\u015fu, d\u00fc\u015fen yapra\u011f\u0131, tela\u015fla ge\u00e7enleri, ba\u015f\u0131 e\u011fik olanlar\u0131, kas\u0131m kas\u0131m y\u00fcr\u00fcyenleri. Onunla daha bir anlam kazan\u0131r; ge\u00e7en bulut, d\u00fc\u015fen kar, miyavlayan kedi, v\u0131z\u0131ldayan sinek, batan g\u00fcne\u015f. Bazen ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u0131cac\u0131k bir yudumla hi\u00e7 gitmedi\u011fim \u0130shak Pa\u015fa Saray\u0131’n\u0131n bir burcuna \u00e7\u0131kar, izlerim \u0131ss\u0131z \u00e7orak ovay\u0131, ya da Sibirya kurtlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ekti\u011fi bir k\u0131zakta bulurum kendimi. Bir ba\u015fka yudumda, Darkwood ormanlar\u0131nda sabah y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131m. Oradan da bir bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 teknesine atlar \u201cheyamola\u201d seslerini dinlerken dalgalarla y\u00fczerim. Sonras\u0131nda da Hayyam’\u0131n Rasathanesine ge\u00e7er birlikte izleriz y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131. Binlerce y\u0131l \u00f6ncesine gitti\u011fim de olur. Kade\u015f anla\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f tablete nak\u015feden M\u0131s\u0131rl\u0131 ve Hattia’l\u0131 yaz\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131 hayranl\u0131kla seyredip, \u0131\u015f\u0131k h\u0131z\u0131yla Kud\u00fcs ‘e ge\u00e7erim. S\u00fcleyman’\u0131n k\u0131yamda iken asas\u0131na dayal\u0131 olarak ruhunu teslim etmi\u015f haline bakar\u0131m uzun uzun. Onun \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc anlayamayanlara hayret ederim. Haz\u0131r ge\u00e7mi\u015fte iken Platonun Akademisine kay\u0131t yapt\u0131r\u0131r bir m\u00fcddet ideler nazariyesini dinledikten sonra s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131p Epicuros’un tekkesine ge\u00e7erim. Usturuplu bir felsefi sohbet virdinden sonra su kat\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bir Hedonist olur, instagram profilime de hermetik hayalci, narsist determinist yazarak akla ziyan bir karma\u015f\u0131kl\u0131\u011fa dalar\u0131m. En keyif ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m ise \u00e7ocukluk g\u00fcnlerimdir. K\u0131sa s\u00fcren bir ka\u00e7amakla dalar\u0131m bah\u00e7elere. Avludan avluya atlar, a\u011fa\u00e7lar da b\u0131rak\u0131lan son elmalardan bir iki tane kopar\u0131r, ta\u015f atarak indirdi\u011fim cevizlerle birlikte afiyetle yerim. Bir ba\u015fka g\u00fcn, \u00f6zellikle ya\u011fmurlu havalarda bah\u00e7e bah\u00e7e, \u00e7al\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131 dola\u015farak toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u00fc b\u00f6cekleri Yonis day\u0131ya satar, paras\u0131yla G\u00f6k\u00e7elerin Ahmet day\u0131dan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m horoz \u015fekeriyle Halk evinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde toplanan arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131na do\u011fru giderim. Son yudumsa \u015fimdiye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f i\u015faretidir. Bitti mi? Tabi\u00ee ki hay\u0131r. \u0130kinci fincan yasak de\u011fil ya! \u00dcstelik \u015fimdiki zamandan da keyif al\u0131p mutlu olabilecekken… Nice yazar, nice kitap, nice film, nice ma\u00e7, g\u00fczler, baharlar, beklenen ya\u011fmurlar, ya\u011facak karlar, ho\u015f sohbet dostlar, kendine e\u015flik edecek taze kahveleri bekler… Ye o\u011flum, i\u00e7 o\u011flum, u\u00e7 o\u011flum… Al k\u0131z\u0131m, gez k\u0131z\u0131m, g\u00fcl k\u0131z\u0131m!..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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