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Bug\u00fcn \u00e2rafta uyand\u0131m, kusarak, a\u011flayarak
\nAnnemin s\u00f6zleri akl\u0131mda; k\u0131r\u0131lgan, berrak
\nBabam\u0131n kalbini han\u00e7erledi\u011fim her bir an\u0131
\nVe o k\u0131z… Kimseye anlatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m sakl\u0131 firak
\nHer \u015fey akl\u0131mda bug\u00fcn i\u015fte; \u015fu \u015fanss\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa bak
\nBurda \u00f6lmek de yasakm\u0131\u015f geri d\u00f6nmek de yasak…<\/p>\n
Ve o k\u0131z… Ge\u00e7mi\u015fimin l\u00e2neti; s\u00eenemde yeis
\nBug\u00fcn \u00e2rafta uyand\u0131m, yapayaln\u0131z ve de pis…<\/p>\n
Ezdi\u011fim t\u00e2ze \u00e7i\u00e7ekler bile akl\u0131mda \u015fu an
\nO k\u0131z… \u0130ncitti\u011fim insan, hani me\u00e7h\u00fblde kalan
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn en b\u00fcy\u00fck ars\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131, boynumda veb\u00e2l
\nO k\u0131z… \u0130ns\u00e2f\u0131ma ba\u015ftan beri aldanm\u0131\u015f o can
\nD\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr sa\u00e7lar\u0131 m\u00e2sumlu\u011fa yaprak yaprak
\nBurda \u00f6lmek de yasakm\u0131\u015f geri d\u00f6nmek de yasak…<\/p>\n
O k\u0131z\u0131n k\u00e2tiliyim; bir canavar, bir iblis
\nBug\u00fcn \u00e2rafta uyand\u0131m, yapayaln\u0131z ve de pis…<\/p>\n
K\u00f6r batakl\u0131klara saklanmay\u0131 bir \u00e7\u00e2re say\u0131p
\nGirdi\u011fim kirli yataklar bile akl\u0131mda; ay\u0131p…
\nHayk\u0131r\u0131\u015flar, yakar\u0131\u015flar, yar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131plak ac\u0131lar
\nVe o k\u0131z… \u0130smi kay\u0131p, cismi kay\u0131p, resmi kay\u0131p…
\nHer bir ink\u00e2r giyotin, t\u00f6vbe edi\u015flerse b\u0131\u00e7ak
\nBurda \u00f6lmek de yasakm\u0131\u015f geri d\u00f6nmek de yasak…<\/p>\n
Ve o k\u0131z, aynada vicdan; ve o k\u0131z camdan akis
\nBug\u00fcn \u00e2rafta uyand\u0131m, yapayaln\u0131z ve de pis…<\/p>\n
\u00c7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m elmalar akl\u0131mda; k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fcm ve c\u0131l\u0131z
\nD\u00fc\u015flerim vard\u0131; karanl\u0131kt\u0131, \u0131\u015f\u0131ks\u0131z, \u0131ss\u0131z
\nVe ih\u00e2netlere batm\u0131\u015f nice \u00e7ok gizli g\u00f6m\u00fcm
\nVe o d\u00fc\u015fler, ve o su\u00e7lar, ve o zulmet, ve o k\u0131z…
\nNe bir imd\u00e2da gelen var, ne de \u00eed\u00e2m\u0131ma hak
\nBurda \u00f6lmek de yasakm\u0131\u015f geri d\u00f6nmek de yasak…<\/p>\n
O k\u0131z\u0131n \u00e2h\u0131 bu efk\u00e2r, o k\u0131z\u0131n h\u00fczn\u00fc bu his
\nBug\u00fcn \u00e2rafta uyand\u0131m, yapayaln\u0131z ve de pis…<\/p>\n
O b\u00f6b\u00fcrlenmelerim, arzular\u0131m; hepsi serap…
\nSonra bo\u015f korkular\u0131m, h\u0131rslar\u0131m akl\u0131mda harap.
\nEvrenin merkeziyim sanmalar\u0131m, d\u00fc\u015fmelerim
\nBabam, annem ve o k\u0131z… Beynime saplanm\u0131\u015f azap!
\nKap\u0131lar s\u00fcrg\u00fclenir, bir yere \u00e7\u0131kmaz bu sokak
\nBurda \u00f6lmek de yasakm\u0131\u015f geri d\u00f6nmek de yasak…<\/p>\n
Ve o k\u0131z, g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme k\u0131rba\u00e7; ve o k\u0131z, ufkuma sis
\nBug\u00fcn \u00e2rafta uyand\u0131m, yapayaln\u0131z ve de pis…<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn \u00e2rafta uyand\u0131m, koca bir yoktu diyar
\nHer taraf kan ve irin, k\u00f6zle ate\u015f, k\u00fcl ve buhar
\nNe cehennemde ad\u0131m var ne de cennette izim
\nVe o k\u0131z… Par\u00e7al\u0131yor r\u00fbhumu tekrar tekrar…
\nOnun emrinde v\u00fcc\u00fbdum, ona \u00e2it bu sunak
\nBurda \u00f6lmek de yasakm\u0131\u015f geri d\u00f6nmek de yasak…<\/p>\n
O k\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6zleri her yer, bedenim onda hapis
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