Hep ard\u0131na bakmaktan boynu tutulmu\u015f bir neslin son mahsulleriyiz. Nefretle a\u015f\u0131land\u0131k, kanla suland\u0131k ve radikal fikirlerle at\u0131ld\u0131 g\u00fcbrelerimiz. T\u00fcm \u00e7i\u00e7eklerimiz \u00f6l\u00fc do\u011fdu bahara ve sivri dikenlerimizle birbirimize sar\u0131ld\u0131k\u00e7a kanad\u0131k, kanad\u0131k\u00e7a sar\u0131ld\u0131k. Biz, yolun ba\u015f\u0131nda kazanma ihtimalinin hayaliyle ko\u015fturup, kazanamamas\u0131 i\u00e7in her milimetreye binlerce engeli koyduklar\u0131 bir neslin yans\u0131mas\u0131y\u0131z. \u00c7ift taraf\u0131 yaz\u0131 olan paraya hep tura diyenlerin aciz inad\u0131, bast\u0131\u011f\u0131 her topra\u011fa kasvet yayan bir yeis deryas\u0131, her \u015feye do\u011fru diyenlerin ve her \u015feye yanl\u0131\u015f diyenlerin aras\u0131nda preslenen, bu d\u00fcnyaya \u00e7ok bahts\u0131z zamanda zuhur eden solgun birer goncay\u0131z. Tek umudumuz, sar\u0131labilece\u011fimiz bir umudun olabilmesi…<\/p>\n
Kirli bir \u00e7er\u00e7eveden poz veriyoruz hayata. Ne y\u00fczlerimizde ince g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f, ne arkam\u0131zda renkli bir perde var. G\u00f6zlerimizin ard\u0131na saklanan \u00f6fke n\u00f6betleri d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda pek bir duyguya sahip de\u011filiz. Ne siyah\u0131m\u0131z siyah, ne beyaz\u0131m\u0131z beyaz. 2+2’nin taraflara g\u00f6re de\u011fi\u015febildi\u011fi berbat bir matematik dersindeyiz. Bu derste hen\u00fcz Harezm\u00ee s\u0131f\u0131r\u0131 bulmad\u0131. Ve biz t\u00fcm ko\u015fullarda taraf se\u00e7meye mecbur olduk. Karanl\u0131k bir d\u00fczende hi\u00e7bir \u015feye sahip olmay\u0131p, her \u015feye ait k\u0131l\u0131nd\u0131k. C\u00fczzaml\u0131 fikirlerimizin \u00fczerine tonlarca kire\u00e7 d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc. Bu d\u00fcnya sorular\u0131n sessiz soruldu\u011fu, sorunlar\u0131n kilim alt\u0131 oldu\u011fu ve verilecek her cevab\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl bulundu\u011fu bir d\u00fcnya ve bu d\u00fcnyada cevaplar\u0131 g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fcler verir, zay\u0131flar iman getirir.<\/p>\n
Binlerce sorunun tek bir cevaba ula\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu karanl\u0131k d\u00f6ng\u00fcde, her dakikam\u0131z son dakika haberleri gibi ge\u00e7iyor. Bir haberi sindirmeden, ard\u0131ndan geliyor di\u011feri. Ringde ard\u0131 ard\u0131na aparkat yiyen boks\u00f6rden feci halimiz. Her \u015feyi a\u00e7\u0131k a\u00e7\u0131k s\u00f6ylemek gerekirse e\u011fer, ger\u00e7ek \u015fu ki hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi a\u00e7\u0131k a\u00e7\u0131k s\u00f6yleyemiyoruz. Biz, d\u00fczenin sindirdi\u011fi minik fareleriz. \u0130\u00e7imizden ge\u00e7iyor t\u00fcm isyan c\u00fcmleleri. Kalbimizde ba\u015flay\u0131p, dilimize varmadan can veren c\u00fcmlelerden bir buket yapt\u0131m. Hepsi kupkuru, kokusuz ve kimsenin d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir halde g\u00f6r\u00fclmeyi bekliyor. Kimse bu can s\u0131kan ger\u00e7eklere bakmak istemiyor. Herkes elinde plastik bir g\u00fcl\u00fc tutmu\u015f, ci\u011ferlerini patlat\u0131rcas\u0131na koklamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor. \u0130\u015fte d\u00fczen, hep yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi niceli\u011fi niteli\u011fe, sahteli\u011fi hakikate, ger\u00e7ekleri yalanlara tercih ediyor, ettiriyor.<\/p>\n
Nurettin Top\u00e7u bir mektubunda \u015funlar\u0131 yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201cHizmetine \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc harcad\u0131\u011f\u0131m memlekette, dostlar\u0131m kalmad\u0131 gibi bir \u015fey. \u0130nsan\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, sefaletini bilirdim ama ruh sefaletinin bu kadar karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim. \u0130nsan diye emek verdiklerimin hemen hepsi de ruh ve mana mefhumuna yabanc\u0131, menfaat k\u00f6lesi bir tak\u0131m ha\u015ferelermi\u015f. Ahlaks\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n umman\u0131 olan bu \u015eark\u00b4\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131k\u00e7a tan\u0131yorum. Burada insan\u0131 fenerle arayanlar yan\u0131lmam\u0131\u015flar. \u201cM\u00fcsl\u00fcman\u0131z\u201d diyen insan y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yok mu onlar, \u015eark\u00b4\u0131n en a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 tabakas\u0131n\u0131 te\u015fkil ediyor. Ya\u015fanan \u015fekliyle M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanl\u0131k \u015eark\u00b4\u0131 bitirmi\u015f. Buraya art\u0131k ne ilim girer, ne ahlak; ne de Allah uzan\u0131r bunlara\u2026 Bunlar\u0131n \u00f6nce her \u015feyi b\u0131rak\u0131p, insanl\u0131k devrine girmeleri laz\u0131m…\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130nsanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n limanlar\u0131 yand\u0131, t\u00fcm \u00fcmidimizi koydu\u011fumuz sandallar ise \u00e7oktan so\u011fuk sularda derinlere ilerliyor. Medeniyet devrinde bedeviyeti, ilimlerin \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda cehaleti ya\u015f\u0131yoruz. G\u00f6zlerimiz kapal\u0131, kulaklar\u0131m\u0131z sa\u011f\u0131r, y\u00fcreklerimiz be\u015f kuru\u015f etmiyor T\u00fcrk paras\u0131yla. Biz korkunun sindirdi\u011fi, insanl\u0131k devrini te\u011fet ge\u00e7en kurak topraklar\u0131z. \u00dczerimizde kakt\u00fcslerden daha canl\u0131 bir \u015fey yok.<\/p>\n
Bu kara, kapkara yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde tutunabilece\u011fimiz \u00e7ok az \u015fey var. \u0130\u00e7imizde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z insan olma sorumlulu\u011fu ve her hareketimizi inceleyen vicdan muhasebesi. Yoksa karlar\u0131n i\u00e7inde bast\u0131ran o \u00f6l\u00fcm uykusu gibi tatl\u0131 geliyor karanl\u0131k. \u00c7ok basit, \u00e7ok ola\u011fan duruyor herkes gibi olmak, herkes gibi ya\u015famak iste\u011fi. Yani kuru kalabal\u0131klarda kalabal\u0131k olmak, \u00e2di y\u0131\u011f\u0131nlarda y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131 olmak. Yani s\u00fcr\u00fc olmak, sorgulamadan, ele\u015ftirmeden, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden, istemeden, bilmeden, hissetmeden; vicdan\u0131 reddederek, akl\u0131 iflas ederek, g\u00f6ren g\u00f6ze parmak \u00e7alarak kabullenmek her \u015feyi.<\/p>\n
Despotizm, susturulan \u00f6zg\u00fcr insanlar, susmayan \u00f6zg\u00fcr insanlara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce sans\u00fcr\u00fc, ard\u0131ndan artan bask\u0131lar ve nihayetinde kanl\u0131 infazlar. Uzun s\u00fcren vicdani sessizlikler ve a\u015fa\u011f\u0131l\u0131k korkular. Sonras\u0131nda ortaya \u00e7\u0131kan bir ka\u00e7 k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131m, yang\u0131nlar, ihtilal ve ba\u015fkald\u0131r\u0131lar. Kurulan yeni d\u00fczen ve verilen h\u00fcrriyet vaatleri. Sessiz ge\u00e7en k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcrenin ard\u0131ndan yine g\u00fcc\u00fcn o e\u015fsiz zehri. Ve tekrardan despotizm; ele\u015ftiri ve muhalifli\u011fe a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 tahamm\u00fcls\u00fczl\u00fck. Kesin ve de\u011fi\u015fmeyen fikirler. Despotizm, susturulan \u00f6zg…<\/p>\n
\u0130nsanl\u0131k her daim ayn\u0131 kirli suya dal\u0131yor ve hep o ayn\u0131 suda boyan\u0131yor siyaha. Hatta bir bak\u0131ma t\u00fcm insanlar \u00e7a\u011fda\u015ft\u0131rlar. Ne de olsa herkes ayn\u0131 karanl\u0131k \u00e7a\u011flarda yeti\u015fen fidanlar. Sonu\u00e7 olarak g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131, orta \u00e7a\u011fdan \u00e7ok da ayd\u0131nl\u0131k de\u011fildi. Cad\u0131 avlar\u0131 h\u00e2len devam etmekte, hatta insanl\u0131k; insanl\u0131k denen \u015feyden \u00e7ok daha uzak bi\u00e7imde, ruhsuz, vah\u015fi, barbar… Heraklitos “De\u011fi\u015fmeyen tek \u015fey, de\u011fi\u015fimin kendisidir” der. Bu co\u011frafyada de\u011fi\u015fen tek \u015fey isimler. Bu co\u011frafyada b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7a\u011flar ayn\u0131d\u0131r. Her metrekareye bir d\u00fc\u015fen \u0131zd\u0131raplar diyar\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmez bir halde, i\u00e7imde saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir par\u00e7a \u00fcmitle do\u011fan her g\u00fcne\u015fle bir kez daha bekliyorum bahar\u0131. Belki bir sabah uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc o gri ve u\u011fursuz bulutlardan ar\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, g\u00fcler y\u00fcz\u00fcyle haydi uyan diyecek bize. Belki o zaman bir ihtimal g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcm\u00fc gere gere s\u00f6ylerim her \u015feyi. Belki o g\u00fcn bir ihtimal her \u015feyi a\u015fik\u00e2r \u015fekilde s\u00f6yler, karanl\u0131ktan \u00e7\u0131kar ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde c\u00fcmlelerimi \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak dile getiririm<\/p>\n
Belki bir g\u00fcn \u201cbelki bir g\u00fcn\u201d demeyi b\u0131rak\u0131r\u0131m…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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