{"id":11180,"date":"2021-10-09T11:58:08","date_gmt":"2021-10-09T08:58:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11180"},"modified":"2021-10-09T11:58:08","modified_gmt":"2021-10-09T08:58:08","slug":"ay-sunaklardan-suzul-icime-gunes-ayrik-geceden","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11180","title":{"rendered":"Ay sunaklardan s\u00fcz\u00fcl i\u00e7ime g\u00fcne\u015f ayr\u0131k geceden"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\/G\u00fcne\u015f ayr\u0131k geceden<br \/>\nAy sunaklardan s\u00fcz\u00fcl i\u00e7ime\/<br \/>\nBir jilet kesi\u011fi gibi b\u0131rak\u0131p gitti\u011fin ruhumu iyile\u015ftirmek istiyorum<br \/>\nDilimin ucunda zehir z\u0131kk\u0131m bir tat gibi kalan yoklu\u011funu da<br \/>\nAlt\u0131 ay geceyi ya\u015fayan kutuplular gibi b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan beri<br \/>\n\u00dcstelik g\u00fcne\u015fi bir h\u00fczme ara s\u0131ra Malta&#8217;da g\u00f6ren mahkumlar gibi<br \/>\nKalakald\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnden beri<br \/>\nTuz bas\u0131p ge\u00e7i\u015ftirdim yoklu\u011fundan arta kalanlar\u0131m\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nTaze bu yara b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan fazla<br \/>\nHer g\u00fcn ge\u00e7er umuduyla<br \/>\nHer g\u00fcn daha heyecanl\u0131<br \/>\nHer g\u00fcn daha biterek&#8230;<br \/>\nAma ge\u00e7meli bu sa\u011falmayan ac\u0131<br \/>\nHer g\u00fcn i\u00e7imde ihtilale yeltenen bu duygular t\u00fckenmeli<br \/>\nBeni ele ge\u00e7irmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bu bitmek bilmez h\u00fcz\u00fcn gitmeli<br \/>\nBu onulmaz ac\u0131 damarlar\u0131mdan \u00e7ekilmeli<br \/>\nKalakalmak ve bir \u015fey yok gibi davranmak Ahmet Kaya \u015fark\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00fczel<br \/>\n\u201ckendine iyi bak beni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme\u201d kadar kendincil olma ne olur<br \/>\nSana ihtiyac\u0131m var<br \/>\n\u0130yice beyaza b\u00fcr\u00fcnen sa\u00e7lar\u0131mdan<br \/>\nVe sakal\u0131mdaki ac\u0131lar\u0131mdan \u00f6p \u00f6nce<br \/>\nEn \u00e7ok onlar yarenlik etti yoklu\u011fundaki gecelerde<br \/>\nBir durakta dinlenmi\u015f, son nefes sigaram\u0131 \u00e7ekmi\u015fim<br \/>\nAyaza keserken sabaha kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7i\u011f d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f \u00fczerime<br \/>\nDesem ki; bu \u00e7i\u011f de\u011fil biliyorum<br \/>\nAlt\u0131nda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve nefes alamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc yitirdi\u011fim bir \u00e7\u0131\u011f<br \/>\nDesem ki; son birka\u00e7 dakikam\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131yorum hi\u00e7 abartmam<br \/>\nBilirsin ki sen de \u015fefkatle ve g\u00fclerek g\u00f6zlerine bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnler<br \/>\nEllerini \u00f6pe koklaya sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m d\u00fcnler<br \/>\nU\u00e7urum kenarlar\u0131nda hayata tutunmu\u015f bir a\u011fa\u00e7 gibi<br \/>\nBiraz ma\u011frur<br \/>\nBiraz ma\u011fdur<br \/>\nBiraz sensiz bir nisyan sabah\u0131<br \/>\nVe g\u00fcne\u015fe ilk \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131m sanki \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l\u0131n ard\u0131ndan<br \/>\nG\u00f6zlerimden \u00f6p beni<br \/>\nHadi yanaklar\u0131mdan, aln\u0131mdan<br \/>\nS\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131l\u0131p kemiklerimi k\u0131rarcas\u0131na<br \/>\nG\u00fcnaym\u0131\u015f bir sabahla gel bana&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>09.08.2021\/ Bursa<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\/G\u00fcne\u015f ayr\u0131k geceden Ay sunaklardan s\u00fcz\u00fcl&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":164,"featured_media":11181,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[64],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11180"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/164"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11180"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11180\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11180"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11180"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11180"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}