Turkuaz denizdi \u00f6mr\u00fcn ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta
\nSusan kad\u0131n ortalar\u0131nda
\nEksik kelimeler bir bir vurdu\u011funda k\u0131y\u0131ya
\nHayat\u0131n tan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 yapars\u0131n…<\/p>\n
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Hani \u00f6\u011fretmenin takm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r sana, sevmiyordur muhtemelen de ondan k\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r notunu. Hani sen hi\u00e7 yanl\u0131\u015f yapmam\u0131\u015fs\u0131nd\u0131r da ah o arkada\u015f\u0131n yok mu yar\u0131 yolda b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r seni. Hani evdekiler anlam\u0131yordur, konu\u015fam\u0131yorsunuzdur bile. Ku\u015fak fark\u0131 denilen melanet tu\u011flalar dizmi\u015ftir aran\u0131za. Okul koridorunda ayak\u00fcst\u00fc anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n t\u00fcm \u0131st\u0131raplar\u0131n\u0131 di\u011fer teneff\u00fcste tostunu yiyip gazozunu i\u00e7erken unutur, yeni vizyona girecek filmden hararetle konu\u015fursun ya. Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta…<\/p>\n
\u00c7ocukluk d\u00f6neminde t\u00fcm ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131lanmas\u0131 g\u00fcd\u00fcs\u00fcyle b\u00fcy\u00fcyen varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n, gen\u00e7lik d\u00f6neminin start\u0131yla s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ne varsa di\u011ferine paslamas\u0131, hen\u00fcz o rehavetin sarho\u015flu\u011fundan \u00e7\u0131kmamas\u0131yla ilintilidir belki de. Biliriz ki o sabah uykusu mahmurlu\u011fu bitti\u011finde ger\u00e7eklerin kat\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fc bir nevi sorumluluk duygusu korkutmu\u015ftur \u00e7o\u011fumuzu. S\u0131rf bu y\u00fczden b\u00fcy\u00fcmeyi reddeden yeti\u015fkinler, mecburiyetlerinden yeti\u015fkine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7ocuklarla doludur ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z gezegen.<\/p>\n
\u015eu da bir ger\u00e7ek ki o y\u0131llar\u0131n reng\u00e2renk ruh hali olan mutlulu\u011fun; okul \u00e7antas\u0131ndaki kitab\u0131n ayrac\u0131nda, arkada\u015flar\u0131nla kafede ba\u011f\u0131ra \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ra s\u00f6yledi\u011fin \u015fark\u0131da ya da bir film afi\u015findeki ba\u015frol oyuncusunun surat\u0131nda kolayca ortaya \u00e7\u0131kma gibi muazzam y\u00f6nleri vard\u0131r. Almak istedi\u011finiz k\u0131yafeti ayn\u0131 kafadan olanlara g\u00f6stermek i\u00e7in kilometrelerce yol y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcp ter i\u00e7inde ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z vitrinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z analizler o g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fmeler tekrar\u0131 olacak \u015feyler de\u011fildir asl\u0131nda. Hava g\u00fczelse, ya\u011fmurluysa, tatilse ya da Eyl\u00fcl kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131ysa sebeptir mutlulu\u011fa… Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta…<\/p>\n
Sevdi\u011fimiz dizinin dilimize dolanan repli\u011fiyle ilgili bile onlarca c\u00fcmle kurmam\u0131z, azar i\u015fitti\u011fimiz \u00f6\u011fretmenimize dakikalarca uzun uzun kendimizi anlatma \u00e7abam\u0131z, az konu\u015fuyor diye yak\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z babam\u0131z\u0131n suskunlu\u011fuyla tezatl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131r sava\u015f\u0131m\u0131z. Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta…<\/p>\n
Dut a\u011fac\u0131na t\u0131rman\u0131rken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp diz kapa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 o g\u00fcn annemizden saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yaray\u0131 \u00fcflerken nas\u0131l bir ac\u0131 bu diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek ilk yan\u0131lg\u0131m\u0131z. Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta…<\/p>\n
S\u0131k\u0131 dostlar\u0131nla ayn\u0131 \u015fehirde kazanacaks\u0131nd\u0131r \u00fcniversiteyi, iyi paralar kazan\u0131p \u00e7ok istedi\u011fin spor arabaya, belki de karavana sahip olacaks\u0131nd\u0131r. Tatillerde hep beraber Prag\u2019\u0131, Milano\u2019yu sokak sokak gezeceksinizdir. Hayallerinin kanatlar\u0131 sevdiklerini \u00fczerinde ta\u015f\u0131yacak kadar b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fcr. Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta…<\/p>\n
Ha bir de d\u00fcnyay\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirmek isteyenlerimiz vard\u0131; aram\u0131za \u00e7ok almad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u00fc kitap kurdu, erken b\u00fcy\u00fcmeyi tercih eden aceleci, yaln\u0131z tayfa. Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta…<\/p>\n
Toplumsal e\u015fitsizliklere, d\u00fcnya bar\u0131\u015f\u0131na kafa yorup hatta Victor Hugo\u2019yu, Dumas\u2019\u0131, Balzac\u2019\u0131, Dostoyevski\u2019yi arkada\u015f\u0131 sanan o \u00e7ocuklar. Konu\u015furken tutuk, okurken ve yazarken nehir co\u015fkunlu\u011fundaki \u00e7ocuklar\u2026 Ne zaman b\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcz peki? Hayatla y\u00fczle\u015fti\u011fimizde mi, kendimizle y\u00fczle\u015fti\u011fimizde mi? Kanatlar\u0131m\u0131z y\u0131llar ge\u00e7erken k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcrken mi, \u00fczerine koyduklar\u0131m\u0131z bir bir d\u00fc\u015ferken mi? Daha k\u0131sa c\u00fcmleler kurmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda m\u0131, sustuklar\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda m\u0131? Yoksa yaln\u0131zlar tayfas\u0131n\u0131n, eksilen kaybolan c\u00fcmlelerimizden k\u0131y\u0131ya vuranlar\u0131 toplay\u0131p beyaz bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t \u00fczerinde bir araya getirme \u00e7abalar\u0131na tan\u0131k oldu\u011fumuz da m\u0131?<\/p>\n
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