Odadaki soba son i\u00e7 \u00e7eki\u015flerini ya\u015f\u0131yordu. Yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndaki pencerenin perdesini bir par\u00e7a aralad\u0131. Saat gecenin bilmem ka\u00e7\u0131yd\u0131. Birden aya\u011fa kalkma gereksinimi duymu\u015ftu. Perdesini aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131 pencereden y\u00fcz\u00fcne do\u011fru vuran turuncu renkli sokak lambas\u0131n\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00e7ocuk bedeninin g\u00f6lgesini kocaman bir h\u00e2l ald\u0131rarak odadaki soban\u0131n \u00fczerine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Derince bir nefes \u00e7ekti ci\u011ferlerine. Odas\u0131ndan, tuvalete gidinceye kadarki mesafede rutubetin her yerde kol gezdi\u011fini hissetmesine ra\u011fmen \u00e7ocuk bedeninde rutubet kelimesini bir yere oturtamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Rutubet, galiba her zaman g\u00f6zlerin nemli olmas\u0131 gibi bir \u015fey diye ge\u00e7irdi i\u00e7inden. Uyku ba\u015f\u0131na kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f vaziyette tuvaletteki ihtiyac\u0131n\u0131 giderdi. Sobal\u0131 odadan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 an, buzhaneye girmi\u015f gibi bir so\u011fukla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Tuvaletten, sobal\u0131 odaya var\u0131ncaya kadarki k\u0131sa mesafede, uzunca bir maraton ko\u015fusu ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftiriyormu\u015f gibi hissetti. Gece boyu t\u00fcrl\u00fc m\u00fccadeleyle \u0131s\u0131tm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu yata\u011f\u0131na uzand\u0131. Yorgan\u0131 kafas\u0131na kadar \u00e7ekip, tekrardan derin bir uykuya dalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Geceden aral\u0131k b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu perdeden g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 odan\u0131n her yerine s\u0131zm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00f6zlerini tavana dikmi\u015f vaziyette, gecenin muhasebesini yap\u0131yordu. Yataktan kalkmadan \u00f6nce son bir vazifesi kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Komodinin \u00fczerindeki pe\u00e7eteye uzand\u0131. Eline ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 iki par\u00e7a pe\u00e7ete ile geceden beri rutubetten kaynakl\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnde birikmi\u015f olan su damlalar\u0131n\u0131 siliyordu. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu i\u015flemin ard\u0131ndan kalk\u0131p elini ve y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131kad\u0131. O g\u00fcn i\u00e7in haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu siyah pantolon ve g\u00f6mle\u011fi giymi\u015f, \u00fczerine de ceketini alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Aynada \u015f\u00f6yle bir kendine bakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bug\u00fcn \u00e7ok g\u00fczel olacakt\u0131. Hem \u00f6\u011fretmeni ve s\u0131n\u0131f arkada\u015flar\u0131yla g\u00fcnlerdir sinemaya gidecekleri g\u00fcn\u00fcn plan\u0131n\u0131 yap\u0131yorlard\u0131. \u00d6\u011fleden \u00f6nce sinemaya gidip, \u00f6\u011fleden sonra derse devam edeceklerdi. Heyecanl\u0131 oldu\u011fu her halinden belliydi. Annesi kap\u0131n\u0131n e\u015fi\u011fine geldi\u011finde onun k\u0131yafetlerini giyinmi\u015f oldu\u011funu fark etti. O\u011flunun, aynan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki endam\u0131n\u0131 seyre dalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki \u00e7ok ge\u00e7meden kendince bu b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc ortam\u0131 realiteye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrmenin vakti geldi\u011fini anlad\u0131. Annesi, sofran\u0131n haz\u0131r oldu\u011funu ve k\u0131yafetlerini \u00e7\u0131karmas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Bu durum kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda afallam\u0131\u015f olan o\u011fluna, k\u0131yafetlerine sofradan bir \u015feyler d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrse e\u011fer sonu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kendince beyan etmi\u015fti. Annesinin hakl\u0131l\u0131k pay\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Biraz sonra k\u0131yafetlerini \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p, sofran\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na oturmak i\u00e7in vazife ba\u015f\u0131na at\u0131lmaktan \u00e7ekinmedi.<\/p>\n
Alelacele haz\u0131rlan\u0131p kald\u0131r\u0131lan sofran\u0131n ard\u0131ndan annesi bile \u00fczerini giyinmekte gecikmemi\u015fti. Elbette yap\u0131lan b\u00fct\u00fcn bu haz\u0131rl\u0131klar bo\u015fa de\u011fildi. Annesinin d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131 i\u00e7in sesleni\u015fiyle kendine gelmi\u015fti. Avluya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda S\u00fct Han\u0131mla kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu ya\u015fan\u0131lanlara \u00e7ocuk bedeniyle anlam veremiyordu. Yine de S\u00fct Han\u0131m ad\u0131n\u0131 verdi\u011fi ineklerinin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015famay\u0131 bilmi\u015fti. Ona \u00e7ocuk\u00e7a bir \u015feyler anlatt\u0131. \u0130ki boynuzu aras\u0131ndaki s\u00fcslemeleri de hayran hayran izledi.<\/p>\n
Annesinin tekrar seslenmesiyle, S\u00fct Han\u0131m\u0131n iki boynuzu aras\u0131ndaki s\u00fcslemeleri b\u0131rak\u0131p, kendine gelmi\u015fti. Annesinin ona uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0131rt \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 almak i\u00e7in at\u0131ld\u0131. Hi\u00e7bir tepki veremeden \u00e7antay\u0131 omuzlar\u0131ndan s\u0131rt\u0131na ge\u00e7irdi. Adeta dili tutulmu\u015ftu. Bir \u015feyler hissediyor fakat annesine sorma cesaretini kendinde g\u00f6remiyordu. Akl\u0131ndan \u015ferit misali \u00f6\u011fretmeni, arkada\u015flar\u0131 ve hayat\u0131nda ilk kez gidecek oldu\u011fu sinema ge\u00e7iyordu. Biraz sonra ku\u015flar\u0131n c\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 aras\u0131nda annesi ve S\u00fct Han\u0131mla yola koyulmu\u015flard\u0131. \u201c Sinemaya kadar annem e\u015flik edecekti bana, bu S\u00fct Han\u0131mda nereden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131? \u201c diyerek yol boyunca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce deryas\u0131nda s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. Caddeler \u00e7ok kalabal\u0131kt\u0131. Okullar\u0131n bulundu\u011fu caddeden ge\u00e7iyorlard\u0131. S\u00fct Han\u0131mla, cadde \u00fczerinde yol al\u0131rken okullar\u0131n bah\u00e7elerinde bulunan \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n merakl\u0131 bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fczerinde hissediyordu. Yol ortas\u0131nda \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp \u201c Anne nereye gidiyoruz? Arkada\u015flar\u0131m bekliyor, S\u00fct Han\u0131m\u0131 yerine b\u0131rakal\u0131m. Arkada\u015flar\u0131m \u015fu an sinemadad\u0131r, biz de yanlar\u0131na varal\u0131m\u201d diyerek i\u00e7ini d\u00f6kmek istiyordu. O g\u00fcn sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn caddenin g\u00f6zleri onun \u00fczerindeydi. Utan\u0131yor ve s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131yordu. Arabalara al\u0131\u015fk\u0131n olmayan S\u00fct Han\u0131m\u0131 zapt etmek olduk\u00e7a zordu. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131ndan ay\u0131ram\u0131yordu. G\u00fcn boyu yol almay\u0131 bilmi\u015fler ve halas\u0131n\u0131n bulundu\u011fu k\u00f6ye kadar varm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. S\u00fct Han\u0131m art\u0131k yeni evine kavu\u015fmu\u015ftu. Havan\u0131n kararmaya y\u00fcz tutmas\u0131ndan, saatlerdir yolda olduklar\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Halas\u0131n\u0131n onlar gelmeden haz\u0131r eyledi\u011fi m\u00fckellef sofrada yemeklerini yedikten sonra \u00e7ok ge\u00e7meden uzand\u0131klar\u0131 yerde uzunca ve derin bir uykuya dalm\u0131\u015flard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Rasim, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u201c Baba yar\u0131n s\u0131n\u0131f\u00e7a sinemaya gidece\u011fiz ya, akl\u0131ma bir \u015fey geldi. Baba, sen ilk sinemaya ne zaman gitmi\u015ftin? \u201c sorusuna i\u015fte bu \u015fekilde cevap vermi\u015fti. Aradan y\u0131llar ge\u00e7se de sinemaya gidecekken, caddelerde S\u00fct Han\u0131mla nas\u0131l sinema filmi oldu\u011funu asla unutmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Evet \u00f6yleydi. \u0130nsan ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131na gelirse gelsin, kap\u0131 arkas\u0131ndaki g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6ken \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu onu asla b\u0131rakmayacakt\u0131. Ta ki \u00f6lene kadar\u2026<\/p>\n
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