{"id":11091,"date":"2021-08-04T00:19:12","date_gmt":"2021-08-03T21:19:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11091"},"modified":"2021-08-04T00:19:12","modified_gmt":"2021-08-03T21:19:12","slug":"kirmizi-pabuclar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=11091","title":{"rendered":"KIRMIZI PABU\u00c7LAR"},"content":{"rendered":"

Gelincik tarlas\u0131 \u015feklinde dizayn edilmi\u015f \u00e7ocuk<\/strong> markas\u0131n\u0131n vitrini \u00f6n\u00fcnde dakikalard\u0131r duran kad\u0131n\u0131 farkeden ma\u011faza \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan\u0131;<\/p>\n

-\u00dcr\u00fcnlerimize i\u00e7eride bakmak ister misiniz efendim?<\/p>\n

K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 beyaz renklerin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131kta oldu\u011fu k\u0131yafet ve ayakkab\u0131larla s\u00fcslenen camek\u00e2nda g\u00f6zlerini bir noktaya sabitlemi\u015f kad\u0131n, gen\u00e7 k\u0131z\u0131n teklifini duymam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile.<\/p>\n

S\u0131rtlar\u0131n\u0131 birbirine yaslam\u0131\u015f yorgun k\u00f6hne konutlar\u0131n oldu\u011fu dar sokaklar\u0131n birindeydi evleri. Yan kom\u015fular\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fmelerinden, zaman zaman \u00f6fkelerinden tutun da<\/p>\n

gece uyuyamayan yeni do\u011fan bebeklerin yan\u0131 ba\u015flar\u0131ndaym\u0131\u015f hissi uyand\u0131ran, i\u00e7 i\u00e7elikte s\u00fcrmekteydi ya\u015famlar\u0131. D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan bak\u0131l\u0131nca yan yana, i\u00e7eri girince tamamen uza\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131lar dar soka\u011f\u0131n…<\/p>\n

Yol hizas\u0131ndaki ihtiyar evin birinci kat\u0131nda kirac\u0131 olan gen\u00e7 \u00e7ift i\u00e7in Buckingham Saray\u0131na de\u011fi\u015fmeyecekleri ya\u015fam alanlar\u0131yd\u0131 buras\u0131… \u00d6yle ya a\u015fk\u0131n mucizevi bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131l\u0131klar\u0131 yemye\u015fil ormanlara, bir ka\u015f\u0131k suyu devasa okyanuslara \u00e7evirebilirdi. D\u00fcnden kalan ekmek ile k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir tabak siyah zeytin Kral Henry’nin ihti\u015faml\u0131 yemek masas\u0131ndaki onlarca \u00e7e\u015fitle e\u015fitlenebilirdi. Yirmili ya\u015flar\u0131ndaki bu iki gen\u00e7 i\u00e7in durum tam olarak b\u00f6yleydi ve Nur…<\/p>\n

Masallara inanm\u0131\u015f bu ailenin en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ferdiydi. Yetinmeyi d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda \u00f6\u011frenmeye ba\u015flayan, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u015feylerle mutlu olmay\u0131 becerebilen, masumiyetin ete kemi\u011fe b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f haliydi. Ko\u015fullar zordu, insanlar zordu, hatta ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 kentin iklimi dahi zordu ancak mutlu olmak i\u00e7in sebepler bulmak kolayd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Ba\u015flarda televizyonlar\u0131 yoktu, yerine d\u00fc\u015f ekranlar\u0131 vard\u0131. Buzdolaplar\u0131, \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131r makineleri yoktu, yerine gelecek g\u00fczel g\u00fcnlere olan sa\u011flam inan\u00e7lar\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ev sahipleri olan Fahri amca ayn\u0131 zamanda evin di\u011fer y\u00f6ne bakan k\u0131sm\u0131ndaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bakkal d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131n\u0131 i\u015fletirdi. Mavi deri kapl\u0131, kal\u0131n, u\u00e7lar\u0131 buru\u015f buru\u015f olmu\u015f bir o kadar da kirli veresiye defterinde gen\u00e7 Arif’in de ad\u0131 vard\u0131. Anne-k\u0131z\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck l\u00fcks\u00fc \u00e7ubuk krakerle birlikte ald\u0131klar\u0131 \u00e7okokremdi. O vakitler yar\u0131\u015f halindeki onlarca f\u0131nd\u0131k ezmesi markas\u0131 yoktu. Hatta t\u00fcm ak\u0131\u015fkan \u00e7ikolatalar\u0131n tek bir ad\u0131 vard\u0131(\u00e7okokrem). \u00c7ubuk krekerleri \u00e7ikolataya bat\u0131rarak yerler ve birbirlerine g\u00fcl\u00fcmserlerdi. Belki de k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki o ifadeyi yeniden g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in her defas\u0131nda Fahri Amcan\u0131n mavi deri kapl\u0131 veresiye defterine birka\u00e7 lira daha yazd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Nur’un, iki g\u00f6z evin duvarlar\u0131na kadar yans\u0131yan \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fleri annesi i\u00e7in mutlulu\u011fun en net tan\u0131m\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yaz aylar\u0131nda s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131 ile nemi dayan\u0131lmaz olan kentte iki se\u00e7ene\u011finiz olmal\u0131yd\u0131; varl\u0131kl\u0131 ailelerden olmak (ki bu t\u00fcm yaz aylar\u0131n\u0131 deniz evinde ya da yaylada ge\u00e7irmek anlam\u0131na gelirdi.) Orta gelir d\u00fczeyindeki ailelerden olmak yani; evinizin odalar\u0131nda klima olmas\u0131 (bu da 7\/24 suni \u015fekilde serinleyebilmek demekti.)<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0131klar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kalan aileler de oluyordu ki \u00f6zellikle \u00e7ocuklar\u0131nda halk aras\u0131nda pi\u015fik, isilik denilen i\u011fne ba\u015f\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, irili ufakl\u0131, koyu k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 renkli beneklerle kendini anlat\u0131rd\u0131. Yeti\u015fkinlerinde ise<\/p>\n

\u015fehire ait tabirle amele yan\u0131\u011f\u0131 denilen g\u00fcne\u015f yanmas\u0131, her ortamda ya\u015fam ko\u015fullar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 anlatan y\u00fcz okuma \u00e7ipini and\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu grupta olup \u00e7ocu\u011fu olanlar hortum, lehen gibi yard\u0131mc\u0131 ekipmanlarla ge\u00e7ici serinleme metodlar\u0131 bulurlard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Evlerinin k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck beton avlusu ve biti\u015f b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde ba\u015flayan dar dikd\u00f6rtgen \u015feklindeki, Fahri Amcan\u0131n bah\u00e7e diye tan\u0131mlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 alanda, T\u00fcrkan’\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00f6lgeye b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 su dolu lehen bulunurdu.<\/p>\n

\u00dcst\u00fc kapal\u0131, iki yan\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k beton avlunun tavan\u0131ndaki iki demir \u00e7engele zaman zaman sal\u0131ncak ta kurarlard\u0131. Bu \u00e7ocuksu y\u00f6ntemler k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bedeninin k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 noktalarla dolmas\u0131na engel olmazd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Biraz tahta \u00e7ubuk, biraz bez, i\u011fne iplik ve m\u0131s\u0131r p\u00fcsk\u00fcl\u00fc yard\u0131m\u0131yla yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bebek i\u00e7in \u00e7ilek kasas\u0131n\u0131 renkli kuma\u015flarla dizayn ederek minik bir yata\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrmesi, s\u0131caklar i\u00e7in icat ettikleri kadar ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131z olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130lerideki y\u0131llarda oyuncaklara, kar k\u00fcrelerine sahip oldu\u011fu vakitlerde bile bez bebe\u011fini ve yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek anlatacak, “\u00e7ok g\u00fczeldi anneci\u011fim” diyecekti…<\/p>\n

Mahallenin t\u00fcm babalar\u0131 ak\u015fam \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcnce tek tek evlerine gelir karanl\u0131\u011fa kalmazlard\u0131. Arif ge\u00e7 saatlere kadar \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, onun geli\u015fini saat ka\u00e7 olursa olsun ayak sesinden tan\u0131y\u0131p “anne babam geldi!” Diyerek kap\u0131ya ko\u015fard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Anne k\u0131z onu kap\u0131da kar\u015f\u0131lar, Arif ise ne kadar yorgun olursa olsun g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek i\u00e7eri girerdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130klim zordu, insanlar zordu, illaki hayat zordu ancak mutlu olmak i\u00e7in sebepler bulmalar\u0131 \u00e7ok kolayd\u0131. O y\u0131llardan yat\u0131l\u0131 ge\u00e7ecek lise y\u0131llar\u0131na kadar duymad\u0131klar\u0131 aras\u0131nda, evin \u00e7ocuklar\u0131nda veya babas\u0131nda yedek anahtar olabilece\u011fiydi. Baba kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7alar, anne ve \u00e7ocuklar hep birlikte a\u00e7arlard\u0131. Sanki yolculuktan d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fcesine sar\u0131l\u0131p, \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrlerdi… Bu kar\u015f\u0131lama \u015feklinin t\u00fcm evlerde ayn\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 zamanla g\u00f6r\u00fcp hayrete d\u00fc\u015feceklerdi.<\/p>\n

Bayram arifesiydi. Annesi ve Nur avludayd\u0131lar demir kap\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda gelenin k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n tek arkada\u015f\u0131 olan, k\u00f6\u015fedeki evde oturan Ay\u015feg\u00fcl oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcler;<\/p>\n

-Nur oynayal\u0131m m\u0131?<\/p>\n

-Annem izin verirse olur.<\/p>\n

-Bak ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131ma, babam ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ay\u015feg\u00fcl heyecanla pabu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6stermi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

-\u00c7oookkk g\u00fczel,hay\u0131rl\u0131 olsun, (naif bir \u00e7ocuk olan Nur akrabalar\u0131ndan biri dahi ikramda bulunsa te\u015fekk\u00fcr edip geri \u00e7evirirdi. Annesiyle d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131klar\u0131nda ya\u015f\u0131tlar\u0131 gibi bir \u015feyler almas\u0131 i\u00e7in asla diretmezdi.)<\/p>\n

\u0130ri siyah g\u00f6zleri \u0131\u015f\u0131ld\u0131yordu. Ay\u015feg\u00fcl’e yakla\u015f\u0131p “dokunabilir miyim?” dedi.<\/p>\n

K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 rugan pabu\u00e7lar\u0131 belli ki \u00e7ok be\u011fenmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

-Evet dokunabilirsin diyerek aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 uzatt\u0131 Ay\u015feg\u00fcl. Nur, e\u011filip i\u015faret parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ayakkab\u0131ya do\u011fru uzat\u0131rken, bo\u011faz\u0131ndaki yumruyla k\u0131s\u0131lan sesiyle m\u00fcdahele etti annesi;<\/p>\n

-Nur’cu\u011fum l\u00fctfen! Hi\u00e7 ho\u015f bir hareket olmaz bu. Hem biz sana yeni pabu\u00e7lar alaca\u011f\u0131z yak\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

-Hay\u0131r anne yeni ayakkab\u0131lar istemem benim sandaletlerim zaten \u00e7ok g\u00fczeller.<\/p>\n

Diyerek ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 i\u015faret etti.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0131mart\u0131lm\u0131\u015f de\u011fil avutulmu\u015f \u00e7ocuklar beklemesini “anne” kelimesini telaffuz etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131klar\u0131nda \u00f6\u011frenirlerdi belki de..<\/p>\n

Hay\u00e2l kurman\u0131n sahip olmakla ayn\u0131 mutlulu\u011fu verebilece\u011fini sadece avutulmu\u015f \u00e7ocuklar bilebilirdi. Ve insan \u00fcst\u00fc gayretle \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan adamlar\u0131n k\u0131zlar\u0131 daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ya\u015flar\u0131nda istemeyi de\u011fil gururlu olmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenirlerdi.<\/p>\n

Aradan uzun y\u0131llar ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 pabu\u00e7larla b\u00fcy\u00fcyen \u00e7ocuklar \u00e7oktan unutmu\u015flard\u0131 o g\u00fcnk\u00fc renkli ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131. Hi\u00e7 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 pabu\u00e7lar\u0131 olmadan b\u00fcy\u00fcyen k\u0131zlarla ebeveynleriyse, haf\u0131zalar\u0131ndaki duvara \u00e7iviledikleri o resmi ara ara indirip seyrederlerdi…<\/p>\n

\u00dcniversite y\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131 yurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131nda ge\u00e7iren Nur daha zor ko\u015fullar\u0131 da ya\u015fayacak ancak buna ra\u011fmen bir yandan \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131p bir yandan ikinci \u00fcniversitesini ba\u015far\u0131yla bitirecekti. Bireysel mutluluktan ziyade di\u011ferlerinin hayat\u0131na dokunmak ad\u0131na m\u00fcthi\u015f \u00e7abalara<\/p>\n

imza atacakt\u0131…<\/p>\n

Ege’de serin bir yaz ak\u015fam\u0131 deniz k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 sand\u0131ktan \u00e7\u0131kartan bir \u00e7ift konu\u015fuyorlard\u0131. Adam kad\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcp;<\/p>\n

-Y\u0131llarca \u00e7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6nceli\u011fimin i\u015fim oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledin hep. Hakl\u0131yd\u0131n. Bazen k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131n, \u00e7o\u011fu zaman yaln\u0131z kald\u0131n. Hakl\u0131yd\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesindeki o Arafe g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc an\u0131msar m\u0131s\u0131n, g\u00f6zlerin k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, a\u011flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131n. Israr edince de anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n.<\/p>\n

O gece cebimdeki paray\u0131 tekrar tekar sayd\u0131m, sanki her sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131mda \u00e7o\u011falmas\u0131n\u0131 diler gibi… Ama olmad\u0131… K\u0131z\u0131ma bayraml\u0131k bir \u00e7ift ayakkab\u0131 almaya yetmedi.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zleri doldu adam\u0131n, sesi titredi hayat\u0131m\u0131n d\u00f6n\u00fcm noktas\u0131 tam olarak o and\u0131. Ve ben babal\u0131\u011f\u0131n tan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 yeniden yapt\u0131m. 23 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m… \u00d6\u011freniyordum…<\/p>\n

“Baba olmak Arafe g\u00fcn\u00fcnde, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 gelincik tarlas\u0131 \u00e7o\u015fkusuyla mutlu k\u0131labilmek i\u00e7in k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 pabu\u00e7lar alabilmektir.”<\/p>\n

Arif ve e\u015fi susuyorlard\u0131. Hava serindi, dalgalar bir \u015feyler f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yordu. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131zlar\u0131 \u00e7oktan b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc ve \u00e7ok uzaklardayd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Mevsimler daha kolayd\u0131, hayat biraz daha kolay, ancak mutlu olabilmek i\u00e7in sebepler bulmak art\u0131k \u00e7ok zordu…<\/p>\n

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