\u00c7\u00f6p atmak i\u00e7in evin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda alt kattan baz\u0131 seslerin geldi\u011fini duydum. Kom\u015fularla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmaktan ka\u00e7\u0131nan biri olarak biraz dinledim ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 ba\u011flarken ve gelen sesleri analiz etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Periyodik olarak bir \u2018\u2019\u00e7at \u2018sesi duyuyordum. A\u00e7\u0131k kalm\u0131\u015f bir yang\u0131n merdiveni cam\u0131 oldu\u011funa karar vererek sa\u011f elimde \u00e7\u00f6p torbas\u0131 yava\u015f yava\u015f inmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc kata geldi\u011fimde solumda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm bir g\u00f6lgeden irkildim. H\u0131zl\u0131ca benden uzakla\u015fan \u015feyi o anda fark ettim.<\/p>\n
Zavall\u0131 \u015fey apartman\u0131n i\u00e7ine s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015f, bir yere gidemiyordu. Korkusu iyice artm\u0131\u015f \u015fekilde cama toslay\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131kla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordu. \u0130lk girdi\u011fi noktay\u0131 bulamay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7aresizli\u011fiyle g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rebildi\u011fi her yerden deniyordu \u015fans\u0131n\u0131. Dillerinden anlayabilseydim d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan gelen c\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131 seslerinden bir anlam \u00e7\u0131karabilirdim.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u0131kmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 cama yakla\u015ft\u0131m ve pencereyi a\u00e7t\u0131m. Serin havay\u0131 hissetmi\u015ftim ki kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131\u015flar\u0131 h\u0131zlanarak \u00fcst katlara y\u00f6neldi. Can havline benzer bir tela\u015fla y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7arpmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen ayn\u0131 cama tekrar tekrar \u00e7arp\u0131yordu. Tek amac\u0131 apartmandan \u00e7\u0131kmak iken \u015fimdi birde bir yabanc\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gelmi\u015fti ve benden ka\u00e7mak \u00f6nceli\u011fi olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n
Her te\u015febb\u00fcsle gelen \u2018\u2019 \u00e7at \u2018\u2019 sesi burnumu s\u0131zlat\u0131yordu, bir cam kap\u0131y\u0131 g\u00f6rmemi\u015fim de \u00e7arpm\u0131\u015f\u0131m gibi.\u00a0 Ben oldu\u011fu cama y\u00f6neldik\u00e7e o daha s\u0131k\u0131 kapal\u0131 camlara do\u011fru u\u00e7uyordu.<\/p>\n
Bir ara sesler kesildi. En \u00fcst kata \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda onunla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmak istemiyordum, t\u00fcm umudum en \u00fcst kat\u0131n cam\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131k oldu\u011fundayd\u0131, fakat cam kapal\u0131yd\u0131. Yorgun kanatlar\u0131 ve ac\u0131 \u00e7eken gagas\u0131yla merdivenlerin kenar\u0131na t\u00fcnemi\u015f bekliyordu. Kalp at\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 uzaktan hissedebiliyordum, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bedenini bir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bir yukar\u0131 sallayacak \u015fiddetteydi.<\/p>\n
Geldi\u011fimi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce tekrar havaland\u0131, \u00fczerime do\u011fru geldi\u011finde \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ama kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131ndan u\u00e7arak alt katlara y\u00f6neldi. Denemeye devam ediyordu, yorgundu, yaral\u0131yd\u0131 besbelli.<\/p>\n
A\u00e7\u0131k olan cam\u0131n oldu\u011fu kattan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck v\u00fccudunu \u00e7uval gibi vuru\u015funun sesi geliyordu. Cam\u0131n bir kanad\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ama o yineleyerek kapal\u0131 kanada vuruyordu bedenini. Cam\u0131 k\u0131rabilece\u011fine inanc\u0131 var gibiydi. Ya da art\u0131k bir \u015fey hissetmiyordu.<\/p>\n
Biraz zaman ge\u00e7mi\u015fti ki ka\u00e7 kez ayn\u0131 cama toslad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sayamad\u0131m ama ona do\u011fru at\u0131ld\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc fiziksel bir a\u011fr\u0131 hissetmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m y\u00fcz\u00fcmde. Son \u00e7are onu a\u00e7\u0131k pencereye kadar kovalamaya karar verdim. Montumu \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m ve bir kuma\u015f par\u00e7as\u0131 edas\u0131yla gitmesini istedi\u011fim y\u00f6nden ba\u015fka bir y\u00f6ne u\u00e7mas\u0131n\u0131 engelledim.<\/p>\n
Ve bir alt kata u\u00e7maya ba\u015flad\u0131. Art\u0131k ses kesilmi\u015fti, \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan emin olmak i\u00e7in t\u00fcm apartman\u0131 gezdim. \u00c7\u0131k\u0131\u015f yolunu bulmu\u015ftu. Kom\u015fularla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fma endi\u015fem geri gelmi\u015fti, elimdeki \u00e7\u00f6p\u00fc fark edip h\u0131zl\u0131ca apartmandan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
U\u00e7u\u015fan g\u00fcvercinler ser\u00e7eler g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, belki \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131ktan sonra iyi adam oldu\u011fumu anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r o ser\u00e7e diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Dallara t\u00fcnemi\u015f al\u0131nan nefese derinlik katan o \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylerken kendi dillerinde, bana te\u015fekk\u00fcr ediyorlard\u0131r belki dedim kendime.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00f6p\u00fc kutuya at\u0131p eve do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm. Burnum i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e s\u0131zl\u0131yordu ama anlam veremiyordum.<\/p>\n
Apartmana girdim, her katta camlar\u0131 tek tek kapatt\u0131m. Bir delik bulup girmesin buraya ait olmayan hi\u00e7bir \u015fey diye.<\/p>\n
T\u00fcm camlar\u0131 kapat\u0131p eve y\u00f6neldim. Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m eve girdim.<\/p>\n
A\u011flamaya benzer bir ses duydum ve h\u0131zl\u0131ca ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 bile \u00e7\u0131karmadan salona ko\u015ftum. Annem tekerlekli sandalyesinden d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f yerde a\u011fl\u0131yordu. Burnu kanam\u0131\u015f y\u00fcz \u00fcst\u00fc yatan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bedenini kald\u0131rd\u0131m koltu\u011fa yat\u0131rd\u0131m, su i\u00e7irdim. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc temizledim, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6pt\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
Hala ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131mla oldu\u011fumu o anda fark ettim. Ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m, d\u0131\u015f kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m. Ayakkab\u0131m\u0131 yere koyarken g\u00f6z\u00fcm sa\u011f\u0131mdaki cam\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne ili\u015fti. Ser\u00e7e orada \u00f6ylece yat\u0131yordu. Heyecandan atan kalbi atmaz olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n
Annemin d\u00fc\u015fmesine de ser\u00e7enin can vermesine de can\u0131m s\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcp i\u00e7eri girdim, annemi kontrol etmeye salona gittim, annemin cans\u0131z bedeniyle orada kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131m. Nas\u0131l \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc bile hat\u0131rlayamayacak durumda bir ser\u00e7e gibi can vermi\u015fti.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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