Beyaz badanal\u0131, yamal\u0131, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131l\u0131, avu\u00e7 i\u00e7i kadar, bah\u00e7eli bir evdi onunkisi… Plastik yo\u011furt kaplar\u0131na ekilmi\u015f onlarca \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck pencerenin \u00f6n k\u0131sm\u0131na tespih taneleri gibi dizmi\u015fti. Yol ile bah\u00e7eyi ay\u0131ran tahta kap\u0131 derme \u00e7atma \u015fekliyle, gelenlerin kimli\u011fini hemen ele verir, yorgun tahtalar\u0131n \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 ses, bir nevi zil i\u015flevi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00dc\u00e7 ya\u015fl\u0131 ve yorgun \u00e7am a\u011fac\u0131, s\u00fck\u00fbneti \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015ft\u0131ran bu evin sad\u0131k bekleyenlerindendi. \u0130kinci \u00e7am a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n orta k\u0131sm\u0131na monte edilmi\u015f minik ku\u015f yuvas\u0131 hi\u00e7 bo\u015f kalmazd\u0131. Kendileri i\u00e7in b\u0131rak\u0131lan minik at\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmal\u0131klara a\u015fina olduklar\u0131ndan te\u015fekk\u00fcr olarak \u015fiirsel seslerini esirgemezlerdi. Anneannemin dedi\u011fi gibi, \u201cBir evde \u00e7i\u00e7ekler ve ku\u015flar varsa orada ya\u015fayanlar g\u00fczel insanlard\u0131r.\u201d Darac\u0131k \u00e7\u0131kmaz sokaktaki bu eski mahallenin bitiminde devasa b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fckte, birbirinin ayn\u0131s\u0131 sitelerin oldu\u011fu konutlar vard\u0131. Gece oldu\u011funda masallardaki korkutucu devleri an\u0131msatan so\u011fuk sil\u00fceti bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck mahalleyi her an yutacakm\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sitelerin \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 tamamen kapan\u0131p bloklar\u0131n \u00f6nlerindeki ayd\u0131nlatmalar yaln\u0131z ba\u015flar\u0131na kald\u0131klar\u0131nda insan\u0131n i\u00e7ini so\u011fuk bir \u00fcrperti kaplard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Mavi Ortanca Mahallesi, ad\u0131na m\u00fcnhas\u0131r, d\u00fcnle bug\u00fcn\u00fcn aras\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, direnmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan \u015firin bir d\u00fc\u015f alan\u0131 gibiydi. Lale Sokak ya da G\u00fcl Sokak de\u011fil, ortanca sokak olmas\u0131 belki de ismi verenlerin akl\u0131na dahi gelmeyen bir ezilmeyi de anlat\u0131yordu. Galaksi sitelerinin \u00e7at\u0131k ka\u015fl\u0131 \u00e7ehresinde, g\u00f6steri\u015fin kabal\u0131\u011fa; ihti\u015fam\u0131n kibre d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fen tezah\u00fcr\u00fc gizliydi. Mavi ortanca sokaktaki sadeli\u011fin naifli\u011fe, ucu ucuna ya\u015faman\u0131n al\u00e7ak g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fcl\u00fc\u011fe evrilen foto\u011fraf\u0131, iki tezat ya\u015fam alan\u0131ndan nefesler b\u0131rak\u0131yordu \u015fehrin \u00fczerine. Beyaz badanal\u0131, yamal\u0131, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kiremitli ev, sabah ezan\u0131yla birlikte olduk\u00e7a eskimi\u015f bir \u00e7ift terli\u011fi zorlukla s\u00fcr\u00fcyen ayaklarla hareketlenirdi. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck banyo kap\u0131s\u0131na kadar t\u0131slayarak y\u00fcr\u00fcyen ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n, abdest al\u0131p namaz i\u00e7in haz\u0131rlan\u0131rd\u0131, duas\u0131n\u0131 ettikten sonra mutfa\u011fa gider, mavi metal \u00e7aydanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na su koyard\u0131. Taban\u0131 kire\u00e7lenmi\u015f emektar \u00e7ayc\u0131s\u0131 fokurdamaya yak\u0131n gariple\u015firdi. Eski kara trenlerin \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 sesi taklit ederek \u015e\u00fckran Teyze\u2019yi arada bir korkutmay\u0131 da ihmal etmezdi. Oturma odas\u0131, yatak odas\u0131, mutfak ve banyodan olu\u015fan bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck evde, e\u015fyadan \u00e7ok foto\u011fraflar vard\u0131. Duvarlara as\u0131lan an\u0131lar m\u0131 hayatlar m\u0131 dedirten cinsten… Hik\u00e2yeleri olan \u00e7o\u011fu siyah beyaz onlarca foto\u011fraf\u2026 M\u00fctemadiyen her birinin tozlar\u0131 al\u0131n\u0131r ve onlarla sohbet edilirdi. M\u00fcmtaz Amca\u2019n\u0131n gitti\u011fi g\u00fcnden beri ku\u015flara verdi\u011fi ekmek k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131ndan, \u00e7i\u00e7eklere d\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc suya kadar anlat\u0131rd\u0131 onlara \u015e\u00fckran Teyze. Bug\u00fcn, di\u011fer g\u00fcnlerden farkl\u0131 bir h\u00fczn\u00fc, biraz da tela\u015f\u0131 vard\u0131. E\u015finin \u00f6l\u00fcm y\u0131ld\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc i\u00e7in irmik helvas\u0131 yap\u0131p kom\u015fular\u0131na da\u011f\u0131tacakt\u0131. Helvaya alamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 f\u0131st\u0131k i\u00e7in bile dakikalarca dert yanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 M\u00fcmtaz Bey\u2019e:<\/p>\n
\u201cTereya\u011f da bulamad\u0131m ama olsun margarinle de yapar\u0131m. Hem sen hep ne derdin bana? Suyu kaynatsan a\u015f olur, kuru dala su versen \u00e7i\u00e7ek. Ben onu g\u00fczelce kavururum, mesele k\u0131vam\u0131 tutturmakta. Sen hi\u00e7 merak etme g\u00fczel olacak M\u00fcmtaz Bey. Hem Yasin-i \u015eerif de okuyaca\u011f\u0131m sana.\u201d<\/p>\n
Bir yandan konu\u015furken di\u011fer yandan beyaz namaz \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcyle g\u00f6zlerini siliyordu. On y\u0131l ge\u00e7mi\u015fti yol arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6\u00e7mesinin \u00fczerinden… Zamanla unutulur diyenlerin tezini \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcten bir bo\u015flukta, yoklu\u011fu kapanmayan bir yara gibi usul usul kanatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 i\u00e7ini. \u015e\u00fckran Teyze i\u00e7in yeni nesil haf\u0131zalar\u0131n alg\u0131layamayaca\u011f\u0131 derinlikte, yokken dahi o kadar vard\u0131 ki… \u0130nsan\u0131n belle\u011fine verdi\u011fi komutlar \u00f6len birini ya\u015fatabiliyorken, ya\u015fayan birini de \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fcyor muydu sanki?<\/p>\n
Solmu\u015f lacivert kadife \u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc koltuk ile tekli koltu\u011fun aras\u0131nda duran ince uzun ayakl\u0131 eski komidinin \u00fczerindeki gramofona bakt\u0131. Boyalar\u0131 yer yer patlam\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131k mavi duvara yaslanm\u0131\u015f eski kitapl\u0131ktaki kitaplara dokundu. Kitaplar\u0131n baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131, yorgun hisseti sonra. Tekli koltu\u011fa b\u0131rakt\u0131 kendini. Elinde s\u0131k\u0131ca tuttu\u011fu kitab\u0131 koklad\u0131 \u00f6nce, sonra M\u00fcmtaz Bey\u2019in okurken alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7izdi\u011fi yerlerde gezdirdi parmaklar\u0131n\u0131, yeni do\u011fan bir bebe\u011fin sa\u00e7lar\u0131na dokunur gibi \u00fcrkek ve i\u00e7i titreyerek… G\u00f6z kapaklar\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r kapand\u0131. Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki kekremsi ifade ile bir s\u00fcre kalakald\u0131. Belli ki yine an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n birinde as\u0131l\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 zihni.<\/p>\n
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Sabah sekiz sular\u0131nda Galaksi Sitesi\u2019ne gelen \u00e7\u00f6p ara\u00e7lar\u0131 haraketlili\u011fin iyiden iyiye kendini belli etti\u011fi saatlerin ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131yd\u0131. Son blokta oturan 25-30 ya\u015flar\u0131ndaki gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n elindeki b\u00fcy\u00fck\u00e7e bavulu asans\u00f6rden zorlukla \u00e7ekerek \u00e7\u0131karmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Site g\u00f6revlisi ko\u015farak, \u201cEyl\u00fcl Han\u0131m, siz b\u0131rak\u0131n l\u00fctfen, ben ta\u015f\u0131r\u0131m!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n
Dip boyalar\u0131 gelmi\u015f, platin renkli sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 tepeden da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k toplam\u0131\u015f, tayt\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerine giydi\u011fi kap\u00fc\u015fonlu gri sweatiyle, spor ayakkab\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n iki yandan yere uzanan ba\u011fc\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 tela\u015f\u0131ndan ba\u011flayamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n. \u0130ncecik bir dal\u0131 and\u0131r\u0131rken olduk\u00e7a da sinirli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. \u201cBen hallederim!\u201d diyerek terslemi\u015fti adam\u0131, \u00e7\u00f6p arac\u0131n\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rmak istemiyordu belli ki.<\/p>\n
Eyl\u00fcl tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f bir yoga merkezinde e\u011fitmendi. E\u015fi R\u00fczg\u00e2r tam bir h\u0131z ve motosiklet d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcn\u00fcyd\u00fc. \u00dc\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 beklenmedik \u015fekilde trafik kazas\u0131nda kaybetmi\u015fti onu. R\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra psikolojik destek alm\u0131\u015f, g\u00fcnlerce kendine gelememi\u015fti. Hayata yeniden adapte olabilmek i\u00e7in yakla\u015f\u0131k bir ay sonra \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sosyal hayata kar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131yla yaralar\u0131n\u0131 onarmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti. Yak\u0131n arkada\u015flar\u0131 da s\u00fcrekli destek oluyorlar, onu hi\u00e7 yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakm\u0131yorlard\u0131. Gard\u0131robunu yenilemesinin, evin dekorasyonuyla ilgilenmesinin ya da k\u00f6pek evlat edinmesinin ona iyi gelebilece\u011fini s\u00f6yleyip hayat\u0131n devam etti\u011fini s\u0131k s\u0131k hat\u0131rlat\u0131yorlard\u0131. Eyl\u00fcl d\u00fcn gece uzun uzun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, yapacaklar\u0131n\u0131 not etmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
4+1, \u00e7ift banyolu, eskitme ah\u015fap parkeli, olduk\u00e7a \u015f\u0131k bu ev \u00fczerine geliyordu art\u0131k. Dairenin \u00f6n cephesinin b\u00fcy\u00fck k\u0131sm\u0131 camd\u0131, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn t\u00fcm hareketlerini L \u015feklindeki deri koltuk tak\u0131m\u0131ndan izleyebiliyordu. \u015eimdi evinin duvarlar\u0131nda R\u00fczg\u00e2r\u2019\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131ra ba\u011f\u0131ra s\u00f6yledi\u011fi rap \u015fark\u0131lar, \u0130ngilizce isyank\u00e2r notalar \u00e7\u0131nlam\u0131yordu. \u00c7o\u011funlukla ak\u015fam yemeklerinde i\u00e7tikleri beyaz \u015farab\u0131 o tadard\u0131. \u0130lk yudumunu a\u011fz\u0131nda gezdirirken dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e k\u0131v\u0131r\u0131r, yuttuktan sonra \u201cSenin kadar harika!\u201d derdi. Art\u0131k o \u015firin komplimanc\u0131s\u0131 yoktu. \u00dcniversite y\u0131llar\u0131ndaki dostluklar\u0131n\u0131n a\u015fka d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmesi daha d\u00fcn gibiydi. R\u00fczg\u00e2r, oldu olas\u0131 \u00f6zg\u00fcr bir ruha sahipti. Siyaset, felsefik kitaplar, gelecek tela\u015f\u0131, toplumsal e\u015fitsizlik, varolu\u015f sanc\u0131lar\u0131 ruhundan \u00e7ok uzakt\u0131. Hayat\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 andan ibaret oldu\u011funu savunur, herhangi bir inanca mensup olmay\u0131 da reddederdi. Bir yerlerde k\u00f6k salmas\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi \u00f6zg\u00fcr ruhuna ters d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden hayalini kurdu\u011fu yelkenlisi ile d\u00fcnyay\u0131 gezmeyi d\u00fc\u015flerdi. Bazen g\u00fcnlerce ortadan kaybolur, d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde de kimselere izahat vermek istemezdi. Omuzlar\u0131na de\u011fen dalgal\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 sadece motoruna binerken ba\u011flar, \u00e7o\u011funlukla a\u00e7\u0131k b\u0131rak\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Kumral sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan bir iki ton a\u00e7\u0131k renkte olan kirli sakallar\u0131, kavisli d\u00fczg\u00fcn ka\u015flar\u0131na e\u015flik eden gri mavi g\u00f6zleri vard\u0131. Ne olduk\u00e7a uzun olan boyu, ne de mankenleri aratmayan fizi\u011fi her an y\u00fcz\u00fcnde var olan g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc kadar \u00e7ekici de\u011fildi. Eyl\u00fcl ona a\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011funu yak\u0131n arkada\u015flar\u0131na s\u00f6yledi\u011finde en \u00e7ok, o kocaman g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201cBu kadar somurtkan, arabesk ruhlu h\u00f6d\u00fck i\u00e7inde, o g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc yok mu, BA-YI-LI-YO-RUM!\u201d diyerek heyecanla co\u015fkusunu muhabbetin orta yerine fla\u015f bir geli\u015fme olarak b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Son blo\u011fa yakla\u015fmakta olan \u00e7\u00f6p arac\u0131n\u0131n sesi ile titreyerek tuttu\u011fu bavulun \u00fczerinden \u00e7ekti ellerini. Sonra tekrar dokundu, \u201cBunu yapmak zorundas\u0131n Eyl\u00fcl.\u201d diye m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131 kendi kendine.<\/p>\n
Orta boylu t\u0131knaz olduk\u00e7a esmer belediye i\u015f\u00e7isi eline ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi turuncu eldivenlerini d\u00fczeltiyordu, arac\u0131n yan taraf\u0131ndaki tutundu\u011fu yerden indi.<\/p>\n
-\u00c7\u00f6p m\u00fc han\u0131mefendi?<\/p>\n
-\u00c7\u00f6p de\u011fil!<\/p>\n
-Nas\u0131l yani!<\/p>\n
-\u00c7\u00f6p de\u011fil ama at\u0131lacak bunlar!<\/p>\n
Turuncu kasketini sa\u011fa sola \u00e7evirerek oynatan adam tuhaf tuhaf bakt\u0131 kad\u0131na, sonra bavulu al\u0131p \u00e7\u00f6plerin i\u00e7ine do\u011fru f\u0131rlatt\u0131. Yava\u015f yava\u015f uzakla\u015fan arac\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan \u00f6ylece bak\u0131yordu Eyl\u00fcl. Kaskat\u0131 olmu\u015f gibiydi. Bir an \u00e7alan telefonun sesi ile kendine geldi, gri sweatinin cebine att\u0131 elini parmaklar\u0131 hala titriyordu. Kimin arad\u0131\u011f\u0131na bakmadan ekran\u0131 kayd\u0131rd\u0131, arayan arkada\u015f\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n
-Merhaba Eyl\u00fcl.<\/p>\n
-Merhaba.<\/p>\n
-Ne yapt\u0131n, kurtuldun mu R\u00fczg\u00e2r\u2019\u0131n e\u015fyalar\u0131ndan?<\/p>\n
K\u0131sa bir sessizlik oldu. \u201cEvet!\u201d deyip kapatt\u0131 telefonunu. \u0130\u00e7inde tuhaf bir su\u00e7luluk duygusu vard\u0131. Sitenin mermer merdivenlerine y\u00f6nelirken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
\u201cR\u00fczg\u00e2r da b\u00f6yle isterdi.\u201d Deri ceketi, kask\u0131, di\u015f f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131, kahvesini i\u00e7ti\u011fi kupas\u0131, kokusunun sindi\u011fi kaza\u011f\u0131 evin her yan\u0131ndayken yeniden ba\u015flayamam. \u201cR\u00fczg\u00e2r da b\u00f6yle isterdi.\u201d Dairesine \u00e7\u0131kana kadar son c\u00fcmleyi bir\u00e7ok kez tekrar etti. O g\u00fcn giden \u00e7\u00f6p arac\u0131 bir insandan kalan ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131, an\u0131lar\u0131, hayalleri pressledi\u011fini bilmeden g\u00f6zden kayboluyordu. Kentin \u00fcst\u00fcnde kanat \u00e7\u0131rpan bir ku\u015f, izliyordu t\u00fcm olup biteni.<\/p>\n
\u015e\u00fckran Teyze\u2019nin y\u0131ld\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc helvas\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fcz\u00fcn kokusunu, hayata tutunman\u0131n an\u0131lardan kurtulmak oldu\u011funu i\u00e7selle\u015ftirmi\u015f gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n\u0131n med-cezirlerindeki kalp at\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n sesini, bir ku\u015f duyuyordu. Bir ku\u015f kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131yordu kentin \u00fcst\u00fcnde.<\/p>\n
Hay\u0131r, hay\u0131r! Belki de bir ku\u015f yeni nesil ak\u0131ll\u0131 binalar\u0131n \u00e7oktand\u0131r varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 unuttu\u011fu Mavi Ortanca Sokaktaki helva kokusuna kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131yordu. Zaman\u0131n h\u0131zl\u0131 d\u00f6ng\u00fcs\u00fcnde, \u00f6rselenmi\u015f, kaybolmu\u015f, ezilmi\u015f o sokak bug\u00fcn irmik helvas\u0131 kokuyordu.<\/p>\n
Ve o ku\u015f a\u011fl\u0131yordu…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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