Uykudan uyanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 adam. Bir \u015fiir i\u00e7in, kelimeleri m\u00fcrekkebin kalbinden s\u00f6k\u00fcp al\u0131yordu sanki. Can \u00e7eki\u015fiyordu divit. Ta ki ismini yaz\u0131nca uslanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ve \u015fiir tam da o s\u0131rada ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n
Mahmur g\u00f6zlerim dolar
\nUykular\u0131m intihar eden r\u00fcyalar\u0131n g\u00fcvertesinde,
\nD\u00fc\u015flerim desen; onlar kur\u015funa dizili
\n\u015eimdi ya\u015famak \u015f\u00f6yle dursun
\n\u00d6lmek bile a\u011f\u0131r geliyor sanki<\/p>\n
Yazd\u0131k\u00e7a huzur buluyordu kalem. Kefeni giymi\u015f, son uykusuna giden bir ceset gibi vakurlu ad\u0131mlar at\u0131yordu k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131n \u00fczerinde. Bir \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k koptu. Ci\u011ferleri par\u00e7alan\u0131yordu harflerin. Bir bakt\u0131m da ne g\u00f6reyim. Yine l\u00fcgat\u0131n bileklerinde ne\u015fter misali dola\u015f\u0131yordu ismin.<\/p>\n
Sesi solu\u011fu kesilirken noktamla i\u015faretlerinin
\nHangi kelimeye dokunmaya kalksam,
\nKolu kanad\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yordu ku\u015flar\u0131n.
\nSemtin \u00fcst\u00fcnde kapkara bulutlar toplanm\u0131\u015f,
\nKasvetin bin bir tonunu y\u00fcre\u011fime nakka\u015f gibi i\u015fliyordu g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc.
\nVe bardaktan bo\u015fan\u0131rcas\u0131na de\u011fil,
\nG\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs kafesinin kepenkleri a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na ya\u011f\u0131yordu ya\u011fmur.<\/p>\n
Bir an sustu adam. Dilsizleri kendisine \u00f6zendirircesine\u2026 Oysa sesi en lahuti seslerin \u00f6tesinde bir g\u00fczelli\u011fe sahipti. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc dilinden de\u011fil \u00f6yle g\u00f6n\u00fcl kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n tokma\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan tek \u015fey ismindi. Zikir misali, g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tespih yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sonra bu bana yak\u0131\u015fmaz deyip dervi\u015f edas\u0131yla g\u00f6z kapaklar\u0131n\u0131 bir heyelan olmu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na kapat\u0131p y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn hayaliyle avutmu\u015ftu kendini. Ve son dizeye \u015funu yaz\u0131yordu:<\/p>\n
Tut ruhumun ellerinden,
\nTekrar dirilt umutlar\u0131m\u0131
\nKabzet t\u00fcm mutsuzlu\u011fumu
\nHer i\u015fe besmeleyle de\u011fil isminle ba\u015flayay\u0131m,
\nYa\u015famay\u0131 hat\u0131rlayay\u0131m.
\nEsirin olay\u0131m, \u00f6yle \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu de\u011fil,
\n\u00d6m\u00fcrs\u00fczl\u00fck boyu
\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seninle sonlu bir hayat de\u011fil,
\nSonsuzlu\u011fun ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 olay\u0131m.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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