Sizler bir ill\u00fczyonsunuz sadece. U\u00e7ar\u0131 bir yan\u0131lsama. Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ba\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 delen g\u00f6vdeleriniz yoklu\u011fun varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015fey de\u011fil. Ben d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm i\u00e7in vars\u0131n\u0131z. Benim \u00e7apra\u015f\u0131k zihnimin karma\u015f\u0131k kurgular\u0131 y\u00fczlerinizdeki \u00e7izgiler. Uyuyorum ve g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015fler halinde da\u011f\u0131l\u0131yorsunuz yery\u00fcz\u00fcne. Kiminiz k\u00e2buslar\u0131ms\u0131n\u0131z benim, kiminiz arzular\u0131m, kiminiz de aray\u0131\u015flar\u0131m. Hepsi bundan ibaret, hepsi bu kadar, hepsi bu… Hi\u00e7biriniz nefes alm\u0131yorsunuz asl\u0131nda, hi\u00e7biriniz yere basm\u0131yorsunuz. S\u0131rf bu y\u00fczden aynada aksiniz de g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyor zaten. S\u0131rf bu y\u00fczden k\u0131m\u0131ldam\u0131yor \u00e7aresizli\u011fin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u00e7aresizli\u011finiz. S\u0131rf bu y\u00fczden s\u0131zlam\u0131yor vicdans\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa vicdanlar\u0131n\u0131z. S\u0131rf bu y\u00fczden ya\u015fan\u0131yor t\u00fcm ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131n ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131. Sizler asl\u0131nda yoksunuz ve ben gotik bir hal\u00fcsinasyon g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum cadde cadde, sokak sokak. Kim oldu\u011funuzu bilmeden, kim oldu\u011funuza inanarak. Sizler asl\u0131nda yoksunuz, hi\u00e7 do\u011fmad\u0131n\u0131z, hi\u00e7 do\u011furulmad\u0131n\u0131z, hi\u00e7 do\u011frulmad\u0131n\u0131z…<\/p>\n
Sizler, saydamla\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir seraps\u0131n\u0131z sadece. Bense bir \u00e7\u00f6lde g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f yapayaln\u0131z bir deli. Susuzlu\u011fumla can buldu sudan yarat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f cesetleriniz. Arzular\u0131m\u0131n topra\u011f\u0131ndan \u015fekillendi kirli d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131z. Ben var oldu\u011fum kadar vars\u0131n\u0131z ve ben var etti\u011fim kadar dar. Her \u015feyiniz koca bir yalan, koca bir palavra, koca bir martaval. Ad\u0131n\u0131 ne koyarsan\u0131z koyun, hil\u00e2f-\u0131 hakikat i\u015fte. Bu k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kan g\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fc sulayan sizler, ben kan g\u00f6rmekten i\u011frendi\u011fim i\u00e7in kustunuz vah\u015fetleri. Bu mendil satan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuk yok burada. Karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan do\u011fdu onun yitik d\u00fc\u015fleri. Evsiz fukaralar da \u00f6yle, onlar\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7ip giden, onlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne bas\u0131p giden g\u00f6lgeleriniz de. Sizler asl\u0131nda yoksunuz. Hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131n\u0131z, hi\u00e7 olmayacaks\u0131n\u0131z ve hi\u00e7 olamazs\u0131n\u0131z…<\/p>\n
Sizler, u\u00e7uk ka\u00e7\u0131k bir sanr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z sadece. Benim tedavisi imk\u00e2ns\u0131z \u015fizofrenli\u011fimin \u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc isimleriniz. Y\u00fczlerinize bu kahrolas\u0131 maskeleri ben takt\u0131m, ben gizledim i\u011frenilesi surats\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n i\u011frenilesi suratlar\u0131n\u0131. Bu karanl\u0131\u011fa serpi\u015ftirilmi\u015f korku tanelerisiniz yaln\u0131zca. Ellerinizdeki vebal de benim su\u00e7um, y\u00fcre\u011finizdeki dinmeyen tutkular\u0131n\u0131z da. \u015eu, yavrusunun \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011fa a\u011flamalar\u0131na ald\u0131rmadan bir anneyi dilim dilim kesen insan art\u0131\u011f\u0131 da karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan geliyor, ucuz politikac\u0131lar\u0131n pahal\u0131 ideolojileri u\u011fruna akla hayale gelmeyecek k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fckleri i\u015flemeye haz\u0131r olan, uyu\u015fturulmu\u015f zavall\u0131lar\u0131n k\u00f6lelikleri de… \u015eehirde bir panay\u0131r kurulmu\u015fsa mesela, babas\u0131n\u0131n omuzlar\u0131nda pamuk \u015feker yiyen afacanlar\u0131n mutlulu\u011funu da kesin ben \u00e7izmi\u015fimdir a\u00e7\u0131k renk bir tuvale. Yani, sizler asl\u0131nda yoksunuz. Karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 t\u00fcm inan\u0131lmas\u0131 anlams\u0131z olan bu anlam d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131 inan\u0131lmazl\u0131klar. Yani siz asl\u0131nda yoksunuz, yani siz yoksunuz, yani yoksunuz, yoksunuz, yani…<\/p>\n
Sizler, ruhumun zindanlar\u0131ndan ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f hayalet bir hay\u00e2lsiniz sadece. Bir kalsiyum eksikli\u011fi, bir yanl\u0131\u015f \u00e7izilmi\u015f kuram, bir mant\u0131k hatas\u0131, bir denklem e\u015fitsizli\u011fi. Bo\u015flukta kaplad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z alan, \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fclemez bir bo\u015flu\u011fun alan\u0131 i\u015fte. Dedim ya koca bir yalans\u0131n\u0131z diye! \u0130\u00e7i doldurulmu\u015f bir intihar asl\u0131nda sizleri s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m boyut. Paralel evrenlerin, en kuantumsuz olan\u0131ndan geliyorsunuz. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131z \u00f6yle yalan ki! Sava\u015flar\u0131n\u0131z, ihtiraslar\u0131n\u0131z, katliamlar\u0131n\u0131z, bir hi\u00e7 u\u011fruna harcad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u00f6m\u00fcrleriniz, merhamet yoksunu gaddarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z, d\u00fc\u015fene tekme atan ayaklar\u0131n\u0131z, a\u00e7 b\u0131rakan toklu\u011funuz, bebeklere dahi uzanan \u015feytani \u015fehvetiniz, masumiyetin \u0131rz\u0131na ge\u00e7en masumiyetiniz. \u00d6yle yalan ki m\u00fcnevverli\u011finiz, kravatlar\u0131n fiyonklar\u0131na ba\u011flanan medeniyetiniz\u2026 Siz yoksunuz asl\u0131nda, benim k\u0131rk derece ate\u015fle a\u011fz\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131kan say\u0131klamalars\u0131n\u0131z. Kendimi avutmak i\u00e7in uydurdu\u011fum kahraman\u0131 ve mutlu sonu olmayan masallars\u0131n\u0131z. Yani siz yoksunuz, yani siz yoktunuz, yani siz, yok olmal\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z…<\/p>\n
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\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sizler, ger\u00e7ek olamazs\u0131n\u0131z. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ger\u00e7ek, siz olamazs\u0131n\u0131z…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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