\u00a0( K\u00f6y\u00fcmden Bir Portre.)<\/p>\n
U\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z sular gibidir y\u00fcre\u011fimiz, \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r durur \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck ama y\u00fck\u00fc pek b\u00fcy\u00fck… S\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7eken de \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcy\u00fc hisseden de sevin\u00e7ten \u00e7arpan da ac\u0131dan kanayan da o. Bazen dev dalgalar gibi kabar\u0131r, co\u015far da co\u015far; \u00f6fkeden, sevin\u00e7ten ya da a\u015fktan…\u00a0 Bazen r\u00fczgars\u0131z deniz gibidir dingin mi dingin. Ama her zaman hassast\u0131r, k\u0131r\u0131lgand\u0131r her \u015feye al\u0131n\u0131r, her \u015feyden etkilenir. Ya\u011fmur ya\u011far de\u011fi\u015fir, g\u00fcne\u015f \u00e7\u0131kar de\u011fi\u015fir, yapraklar ye\u015ferince ba\u015fka, sarar\u0131p d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ba\u015fkad\u0131r. Ney sesi ile m\u00e2n\u00e2 iklimlerinde gezinirken, bir uzun havayla bozk\u0131rlara dalar. Tolstoy okurken ba\u015fka, Re\u015fat Nuri okurken ba\u015fka alg\u0131lar hayat\u0131, \u0130bn-i Arabi yak\u0131p kavururken Yunus\u2019la dinginle\u015fir, Nietzsche ile alabora olur. Vahiy\u00a0 Kitab\u0131\u2019yla k\u0131y\u0131ya ula\u015f\u0131r, bulu\u015fur y\u00fcceler y\u00fccesiyle. Etkiye g\u00f6re tepki, veriye g\u00f6re \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u00a0 yani\u2026 G\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kaybolup karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n pencereden i\u00e7eri girdi\u011fi dakikalarda hep h\u00fcz\u00fcnlenirdi Molla Mustafa ama hi\u00e7bir zaman kararmazd\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fi. Hep bir mum yanard\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011finde, y\u0131llarca harlay\u0131p canl\u0131 tuttu\u011fu. Bilirdi ki bilgiyle, tefekk\u00fcrle, tedebb\u00fcrle, tezekk\u00fcrle beslemezse Maazallah s\u00f6n\u00fcverirdi bu \u0131\u015f\u0131k! Zihni p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l, kalbi ayd\u0131nl\u0131kt\u0131 ama odas\u0131 art\u0131k iyiden iyiye kararm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6z g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rmez olmu\u015ftu. Y\u0131llar\u0131n verdi\u011fi al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131kla bacal\u0131ktaki gaz lambas\u0131n\u0131 yakt\u0131, ard\u0131ndan k\u00f6m\u00fcrlerini alevlendirip, kahve cezvesini malt\u0131za koydu. Geceye ve okumalara haz\u0131rd\u0131 art\u0131k.
\nMedreseden icazetliydi Molla Mustafa, Arap\u00e7aya ve \u0130slami ilimlere hakimdi. Di\u011fer hocalar ve ahali ilmihal bilgisi seviyesinde bile de\u011filken o klasik eserleri et\u00fct edip kendi yorumlar\u0131n\u0131 yapabilecek\u00a0 d\u00fczeydeydi. \u0130lmen \u00e2liydi ama ki\u015filik olarak son derece m\u00fctevaz\u0131 idi Molla Mustafa. B\u00fct\u00fcn sorular\u0131 sab\u0131rla dinler, kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndakinin anlayabilece\u011fi \u00fcslupta ve yal\u0131nl\u0131kta cevap verirdi. Nam\u0131n\u0131 duyan bir \u00e7ok ki\u015fi ve hoca ondan istifade etmek ve sorular\u0131na cevap bulabilmek i\u00e7in k\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcze gelir, mutlu bir \u015fekilde d\u00f6nerlerdi. O\u011fullar\u0131 Halit, Memet ve R\u0131za da ki\u015filik sahibi, ahlakl\u0131, i\u015fine ve evine d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcn insanlard\u0131 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr. B\u00f6yle evlatlar yak\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 Molla Mustafa’ya, \u00f6yle de oldu sonras\u0131nda. Memet de onun izinden y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Molla Memet diye tan\u0131nd\u0131. Dualar\u0131 ve sureleri ondan \u00f6\u011frenen annem, onu hala sevgiyle, minnetle ve rahmetle yad ediyor. R\u0131za Bey de bilfiil hocal\u0131k yapmasa da belirli bir seviyede dini bilgiye sahip olup \u00f6zellikle eski metinlere hakimdi. Uzun k\u0131\u015f gecelerinde, ocaktaki me\u015fe k\u00fct\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ve ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, Osmanl\u0131ca yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f hik\u00e2ye metinlerini o g\u00fczel \u00fcslubuyla ev halk\u0131na okudu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcr gibiyim.
\nKahvesi haz\u0131rd\u0131 art\u0131k, a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r doldurdu fincan\u0131n\u0131. Ge\u00e7ti k\u00f6\u015fesine, ald\u0131 eline \u015eems-i Tebriz\u2019inin \u201cDivan\u201d isimli eserini, ba\u015flad\u0131 okumaya. \u201cKader, yolun tamam\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fil, sadece yol ayr\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 verir. G\u00fczerg\u00e2h bellidir. Ama t\u00fcm sapaklar ve d\u00f6neme\u00e7ler yolcuya aittir. \u00d6yleyse hayata tam anlam\u0131yla hakim olmasak da \u00e7aresiz de de\u011filiz.\u201d\u00a0diyordu Mevlana’n\u0131n yolda\u015f\u0131 \u015eems. Do\u011fru diyerek onaylad\u0131 i\u00e7inden\u00a0 Molla Mustafa ve \u201cKader bize \u00e7izilen yol de\u011fil bizim se\u00e7ti\u011fimiz yoldur.\u201d vurgusunu dile getirerek, \u201cDavran\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kendimiz se\u00e7meseydik zaten sorumlu da olmazd\u0131k!\u201d diye ekledi. Kader bir \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcd\u00fcr, bir dengedir. Makro boyutta ise S\u00fcnnetullah\u2019t\u0131r yani i\u015fleyi\u015fle ilgili de\u011fi\u015fmez evrensel yasalard\u0131r.\u00a0 Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerle saatler ge\u00e7ti. En mutlu oldu\u011fu anlar bu tefekk\u00fcr\u00a0 anlar\u0131yd\u0131 onun i\u00e7in. Sonras\u0131nda huzurla girdi yata\u011f\u0131na, dinlenmek i\u00e7in Tehecc\u00fcde kadar…
\nMolla Mustafa ve o\u011fullar\u0131 ahirete g\u00f6\u00e7eli uzun y\u0131llar oldu; g\u00fczel evlatlar ve hat\u0131ralar b\u0131rakarak. Mevlid-i Nebi’nin yazar\u0131 S\u00fcleyman \u00c7elebi\u2019nin dua c\u00fcmleleri onlar\u0131n ve Zenci Ka\u015f\u0131\u2019nda dinlenen t\u00fcm suskunlar yurdu sakinlerinin \u00fczerine olsun.
\n\u201cMustaf\u00e2’ya hem-civ\u00e2r et y\u00e2 Ker\u00eem,<\/p>\n
Cennet\u00fc’l -Firdevs i\u00e7inde y\u00e2 Rah\u00eem\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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