Anlatacaklar\u0131m\u0131 ger\u00e7ekten siz de dinleyecekseniz, herhalde \u00f6nce do\u011fdu\u011fum yeri, giydi\u011fim, rezil fakat r\u00fcsva olmayan \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumun nas\u0131l ge\u00e7ti\u011fini, ben daha do\u011fmadan gelece\u011fi bor\u00e7land\u0131r\u0131lan hayat s\u00fcrg\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc, maziden miras kalan evhamlar\u0131 ve daha nicesini bilmek istersiniz diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Belki siz de y\u00fcre\u011finizde bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn bir kederli hissiyat duygusu hissettiniz ama ben pek anlatmak taraftar\u0131 de\u011filim galiba. Her \u015feyden \u00f6nce bu z\u0131mb\u0131rt\u0131lardan s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131yorum. Sonra onlarla ilgili bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceye kap\u0131l\u0131p gitsem al\u0131ngan taraflar\u0131m inlemeye ba\u015flar. Ayr\u0131ca o lanet h\u00fcz\u00fcnleri size oldu\u011fu gibi \u00e7\u0131plak haliyle anlatmam\u0131 filan da beklemeyin. Ben size yaln\u0131zca yamulup derbeder olmadan, k\u00f6y\u00fcmden, bereketli toraklar\u0131mdan, mis kokulu tand\u0131r\u0131mdan kopmadan \u00f6nce ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim \u00e7ocukluk hat\u0131ralar\u0131m\u0131n bir kesitinden bir hayli maceraperest ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumun yaramaz manyakl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 anlataca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Mis kokulu tand\u0131r\u0131m demi\u015fken size ondan ayr\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 olarak bahsetmeden edemeyece\u011fim. B\u00f6lgemizde tarih \u00f6ncesinden g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcze pi\u015firme, \u0131s\u0131nma gibi ama\u00e7larla kullan\u0131lan yere g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc basit bir d\u00fczenektir benim hala hasret duydu\u011fum mis kokulu tand\u0131r\u0131m. Ayr\u0131ca evlerimizin hemen biti\u015fi\u011finde bulunan apayr\u0131 bir kap\u0131ya bak\u0131p g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6ren pencereye sahipti o g\u00fczel tand\u0131rlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n i\u00e7inde bulundu\u011fu a\u015fhane. G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6ren mi? \u00d6yle bir pencere de neyin nesiymi\u015f diyen \u00e7arp\u0131k kentle\u015fmenin ac\u0131 buhran\u0131na kap\u0131lan bir gen\u00e7lik, bir \u00e7ocuklu\u011fun ve onlar\u0131n t\u00fcm serzeni\u015flerinin kula\u011f\u0131mda \u00e7\u0131nlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hisseder gibiyim. Bu modernlikten gelen serzeni\u015fleri bir kenara b\u0131rak\u0131p benim o tatl\u0131 anlar\u0131ma geri d\u00f6nmek ister gibiyim.<\/p>\n
Evet, evet tam da o ana geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcm i\u015fte bak\u0131n. Ayaklar\u0131 tand\u0131ra sark\u0131t\u0131p etraf\u0131nda bir halka olu\u015ftururduk t\u0131pk\u0131 dostlar meclisi gibi ve ellerimiz s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 birbiriyle kenetlendi\u011finde g\u00f6zlerimiz \u00e7oktan semaya d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f olurdu. Bazen ad\u0131n\u0131 bile bilmedi\u011fimiz ancak hayallerimizi s\u00fcsleyen o uzak diyarlar\u0131, cennet bah\u00e7elerini d\u00fc\u015flerdik. Bu hayatta bir daha rast gelmedi\u011fim e\u015fsiz bir oyundu. Fakat hala bir yerlerde bu oyunu oynayan \u00e7ocukluk arkada\u015flar\u0131 oldu\u011funa inanc\u0131m tam. Bir g\u00fcn mutlaka ama mutlaka onlar\u0131 bulup onlara e\u015flik edece\u011fim.<\/p>\n
\u00d6yle bir oyun saati belirmi\u015fti ki kasvetli, kara k\u0131\u015f r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131n\u0131n esti\u011fi, bacalar\u0131, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc bembeyaz \u00f6rt\u00fclerin sarm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu bir saat. Babaannemin elleriyle \u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc y\u00fcn \u00e7oraplar\u0131 an\u0131msad\u0131m bu denli so\u011fuktan bahsedince. O el eme\u011fi \u00e7oraplar \u00f6yle ki derince bir tand\u0131r\u0131 an\u0131msat\u0131yor bana. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onlar\u0131 giydi\u011fimde hi\u00e7bir so\u011fuk hi\u00e7bir k\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u015f\u00fctmemi\u015fti beni. Bilemiyorum \u015fimdi babaannem o \u00e7oraplara sevgisini mi yoksa duas\u0131n\u0131 m\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Belki de her ikisini\u2026<\/p>\n
Yine \u00e7etin g\u00fcnlerdeydik hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7o\u011fu zaman\u0131nda oldu\u011fu gibi. Hayatlar\u0131m\u0131z hep bir kar\u0131nca mevsimi misali. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz demeden, hayvanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 beslerdik, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fck. Bu sebepten duramazd\u0131k oldu\u011fumuz yerde. Ya y\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fck ya da ko\u015fard\u0131k, sabit kalmam\u0131z gerekti\u011finde de kartopu oynar \u0131p\u0131slak olurduk. M\u00fccadele ederdik oynarken bile. Ter atard\u0131k her ne kadar dondurucu so\u011fuk da olsa. Ta ki ak\u015fam olup zaman dolana kadar. Bu metafor biz \u00e7ocukluk i\u00e7in hep mutluluk verici hi\u00e7 b\u0131k\u0131p usand\u0131rmayan tekrar edilesi bir oyundu.<\/p>\n
Evet, \u015fimdi d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumuz sert \u015fartlarda ge\u00e7mi\u015fti ama en yumu\u015fak meziyetlere sahipti biliyorum. Yaz\u0131 sevdi\u011fimizden mi o dondurucu k\u0131\u015fa katlan\u0131rd\u0131k yoksa sahiden sever miydik kara k\u0131\u015f\u0131 bilemem ama g\u00fcne\u015f yery\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc her ayd\u0131nlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda biz de g\u00f6kku\u015fa\u011f\u0131 gibi renk a\u00e7ard\u0131k.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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