{"id":10364,"date":"2020-11-01T20:53:00","date_gmt":"2020-11-01T18:53:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=10364"},"modified":"2020-11-01T20:53:00","modified_gmt":"2020-11-01T18:53:00","slug":"siir-gibi-opulen-gozlerinden","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/?p=10364","title":{"rendered":"\u015eiir Gibi \u00d6p\u00fclen G\u00f6zlerinden"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u201cIzd\u0131rap diye bir \u015fey var. Bulabilir miydim \u00f6lmeden?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

En \u00e7ok siyaha sar\u0131l\u0131r h\u00fczn\u00fc olanlar. En \u00e7ok siyah sever h\u00fcz\u00fcn kokan dertleri. \u00d6rne\u011fin \u015fiir gibi bir okyanusta bo\u011fulmaya raz\u0131 bir gencin inad\u0131na birka\u00e7 m\u0131sra s\u00f6yleyerek veda etmesi gibi. \u00d6mr\u00fcnde birka\u00e7 sat\u0131r karalamam\u0131\u015fsan hi\u00e7 okuma derim yazacaklar\u0131m\u0131. Okuma \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc m\u0131sralar\u0131n da ayr\u0131 bir ruhu var. O \u00f6yle ulvi bir ruh ki \u00f6mr\u00fcnce anla\u015f\u0131lmay\u0131 beklemi\u015f. O \u00f6yle bir ruh ki muhatab\u0131na sevdas\u0131 bamba\u015fka. Bazen bir m\u0131sra ile y\u0131llar\u0131n kirini tozunu al\u0131r \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r insan\u0131n; paslanm\u0131\u015f ve yoksulla\u015fm\u0131\u015f derinliklerinden.<\/p>\n

\u015eiir siyaha benzer. \u00d6rter ac\u0131lar\u0131n ve kederlerin hi\u00e7 bitmeyecek ve hi\u00e7 ge\u00e7meyecekmi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen yanlar\u0131n\u0131. \u015eiir bir abla gibidir, her \u015feyi \u00e7\u00f6zmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan ve yoruldu\u011funda elinden tutacak olan. \u015eiir yak\u0131n akrabad\u0131r anlayaca\u011f\u0131n. Yani anla. Bunu b\u00f6yle bil.<\/p>\n

\u0130lkokuldan sonra karalamaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ta o vakitler hala \u00f6zenle ve \u00f6zlemle saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ajandalar\u0131m s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor. Ad\u0131na \u015fiir diyemem belki birka\u00e7 c\u00fcmleyi alt alta koyup karalad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feylere. Belki diyemem yazm\u0131\u015fsam bo\u015fa de\u011fil. Yazm\u0131\u015fsam vard\u0131r hayalinde kavisler \u00e7izen ve \u015firin bir uykuda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn r\u00fcyada. Sonra biraz daha b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e senle beraber b\u00fcy\u00fcyor kelimeler fark\u0131nda olmadan. Unutmadan s\u00f6yleyeyim, \u015fiir o vakitler f\u0131r\u0131ndan taze \u00e7\u0131kan ekme\u011fe benziyor. Yesen mi koklasan m\u0131 beklesen mi? \u00d6yle mazlumca bir tiyatro\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130ddial\u0131 bir c\u00fcmle s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum. \u015eiirle ba\u015flayan ne varsa o do\u011frudur o ger\u00e7ektir o pe\u015finden gidilmesi gerek \u015feydir. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u015fiir ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7t\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcne\u015fin do\u011fu\u015fu gerekir yeni g\u00fcn i\u00e7in. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc dile ve kaleme d\u00f6k\u00fclen \u015fey kalbinin en temiz k\u00f6\u015fesinden dam\u0131t\u0131lan ve miske benzeyen kokular gibi temizdir, tertemizdir, ger\u00e7ektir, samimidir. G\u00f6nl\u00fcnde \u015fiire yer ay\u0131ranlar\u0131n \u00e7ay\u0131 i\u00e7ilebilir. \u00c7ay, \u015fairlerin ve yazarlar\u0131n \u0131zd\u0131raplar\u0131n\u0131 dindirir. \u00c7o\u011funun da \u0131zd\u0131rab\u0131n\u0131 art\u0131r\u0131r. Bir insan bir \u015fiiriyle d\u00fcnyay\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirebilir. Bu d\u00fcnya kendi i\u00e7indeki ke\u015ffedilmemi\u015f d\u00fcnya ile birlikte ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z zahiri d\u00fcnyad\u0131r. Hem ne d\u00fcnyalar vard\u0131r? Ama bizden istenen ne? Evvela kendi d\u00fcnyan\u0131 tan\u0131man, evvela kendi d\u00fcnyana teslim olman! \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o d\u00fcnya sensin. Seni sen yapan ne varsa o senin d\u00fcnyand\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Her insan \u015fiir gibi bir hayat ister. Ama baz\u0131 \u015fiirler \u00e7ok k\u0131sa tek c\u00fcmlelik olup baz\u0131 \u015fiirler ise sayfalarca s\u00fcrer. T\u0131pk\u0131 yirmi g\u00fcnl\u00fck bebe\u011fin ve doksan y\u0131ll\u0131k bir \u00f6mre sahip dedenin d\u00fcnyas\u0131 gibi. Aslan\u0131m, \u015fiir utanga\u00e7t\u0131r unutma! Ona samimi ol. Ona ger\u00e7ek kendini g\u00f6ster.<\/p>\n

Baz\u0131 \u015fiirler tek \u00e7ift bir g\u00f6ze baz\u0131 \u015fiirlere tek bir kalbe ve baz\u0131 \u015fiirler ise suya yaz\u0131l\u0131r. Suya yazanlar\u0131n ak\u0131betini bilemiyorum tabii. Fakat g\u00f6ze ve kalbe yaz\u0131lan \u015fiirlerin bire bir \u015fahidiyim. \u00c7ok g\u00fczel oluyor, tavsiye ediyorum. G\u00f6z ve kalp kumsal tanelerine benzer.<\/p>\n

\u015eimdilerde \u015fiirler g\u00f6zlerden ve kalpten \u00e7ok ayr\u0131 \u015feylere yaz\u0131l\u0131r oldu. \u015eiir yazanlar \u015fiir yazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, \u015fiir okuyanlar \u015fiir okuduklar\u0131n\u0131, \u015fiir yorumlayanlar ise \u015fiir yorumlad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 sanar oldular. Yani ne demeli? Buna da \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr m\u00fc yoksa \u201cBu kadar da sa\u00e7mal\u0131k olmaz be can\u0131m!\u201d m\u0131 demeli? \u00a0Karar\u0131 sana b\u0131rak\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n

Her \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fti ve de\u011fi\u015fiyor; zaman\u0131n oynak ellerinde. De\u011fi\u015fmeyen ne kald\u0131 ki \u015fiire ve \u015faire laf edelim? Hani nerede o eski \u015fiire konu olan ba\u015froldeki haziranlar? Nerede yeni \u015fiire beste olacak g\u00f6nl\u00fc manaya ta\u015fm\u0131\u015f olanlar? Nerede kay\u0131p vakitlerini arad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z? Nerede ruhuna sahip \u00e7\u0131kanlar ordusu? Mektuplar, k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar, kokular, m\u00fcrekkepler, divitler, renkli kalemler, k\u0131r\u0131k sandalye ayaklar\u0131, yar\u0131m b\u0131rak\u0131lan \u00e7aylar, \u015fark\u0131lar, geceler, \u00f6t\u00fc\u015fen \u00e7ekirgelerin ninnileri, \u015fiir gibi bakanlar, \u015fiir gibi konu\u015fanlar, \u015fiire \u015fiir olanlar… Neredeler? S\u00f6yler misin, neredeler?<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnya \u015fiirden koptuk\u00e7a ve d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fck\u00e7e insan\u0131n \u00fczerinden kelimeler, yabani bir mevsimde ya\u015fayan \u00e7ok yabanc\u0131 bir bahts\u0131z bedevi olaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z a\u015fik\u00e2r. Anlatabilirler belki sayfa dolusu anlat\u0131c\u0131lar, uzun uzun d\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u00e7indeki \u015feyleri hararetli hararetli. Ama ben birka\u00e7 m\u0131sra s\u00f6yleyip zirvesine \u00e7\u0131kmak istiyorum, g\u00f6n\u00fcl tepelerine. O esintilerin ba\u011fr\u0131na yaslanmak istiyorum ve ok\u015fas\u0131n istiyorum her harfim duyguyla kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k \u015fiirden sancaklar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ben \u00e7ok \u015fey istiyorum, ben \u00e7ok \u015fey istiyorum, ben \u00e7ok \u015fey istiyorum lakin olmayacak biliyorum!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u201cIzd\u0131rap diye bir \u015fey var. Bulabilir…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":271,"featured_media":8624,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,53],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10364"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/271"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10364"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10364\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10364"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10364"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10364"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}