Ya\u015famak ve \u00f6lmek aras\u0131nda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 hayat\u0131n i\u00e7inde verildi ona o ad. A\u011flamak ile gelinen d\u00fcnyada, \u00f6lene kadar g\u00fclmekti niyet. Ve sonra ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 hayat\u0131n, niyetin yerini ald\u0131 nasip ve k\u0131smet. K\u0131smetten sonra avutmak gerekti y\u00fcre\u011fi, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne terbiyesizlik etmemekti kalbindeki istek.<\/p>\n
Sustu, bekledi. \u201cHay\u0131rl\u0131s\u0131!\u201d dedi ve kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n, \u0131ss\u0131z bir yerin sessiz kad\u0131n\u0131 oldu. \u00a0Vard\u0131 kimlikte ad\u0131, bir de hayat ekledi ona verdi yeni bir ad; \u201cG\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc Kad\u0131n\u201d<\/p>\n
Hayata kar\u015f\u0131 duru\u015funun g\u00fcc\u00fcyd\u00fc o ad, kolay kolay ve isteyerekten al\u0131nmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Takdire \u015fayan bir duru\u015ftu kendisindeki; \u00f6v\u00fcle \u00f6v\u00fcle anlat\u0131land\u0131 o art\u0131k. \u201cG\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc Kad\u0131n\u201d i\u00e7in anlam\u0131 yoktu. O toplum y\u00fcz\u00fcnden gard\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131\u015f, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs germi\u015f, y\u0131k\u0131lmamak i\u00e7in dik durmu\u015f bir kad\u0131nd\u0131 asl\u0131nda. Nas\u0131l, neden oldu G\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc Kad\u0131n? Sorulmad\u0131 hi\u00e7 o G\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc Kad\u0131n\u2019a hayat\u0131nda aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n hangi ta\u015fa tak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131. Hangi da\u011fa g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs gerdi\u011fini, hangi pervas\u0131zlara kafa tuttu\u011funu, hangi okyanusun sular\u0131nda bo\u011fulmadan kurtuldu\u011funu, hangi yanan ate\u015fin alevinde yanmadan kurtuldu\u011funu bilemedi, anlayamad\u0131 da hi\u00e7 kimse ama ad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda bir ad\u0131 vard\u0131; \u201cG\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc Kad\u0131n\u201d idi art\u0131k o.<\/p>\n
Yaln\u0131z b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc kad\u0131n. B\u00fcy\u00fcmenin zor oldu\u011funu bu kadar can\u0131n\u0131n yanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeden, bilemeden b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc. B\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde teslim olmamakt\u0131 hayat\u0131n pisliklerine. Diklendi kendini bilmezlere. Hayat ona ilk olarak erkekten nefret etmeyi \u00f6\u011fretiyordu. Vard\u0131 dayan\u0131lmaz sanc\u0131s\u0131, asl\u0131nda yabanc\u0131s\u0131 da de\u011fildi burnunun dibindeydi ilk erke\u011fe nefreti, babas\u0131ndan \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti. Sonras\u0131 da geldi elbet. Hani o \u00e7ok sevmelerin adamlar\u0131 olur ya hani g\u00fcya g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn kimseyi g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi bir adam oldu\u011funa inan\u0131rs\u0131n ya e\u015f denilir ya ama le\u015f olur ya i\u015fte sonra da o e\u015fte g\u00f6rd\u00fc le\u015fli\u011fi, e\u015fsiz bir halde tatt\u0131 o nefreti. Nefreti \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti art\u0131k. Hayat arkada\u015f\u0131 denilenden vazge\u00e7ti\u011finde, hayat\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131 oldu\u011fu ile kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131. Kad\u0131n iyi g\u00fcnde, k\u00f6t\u00fc g\u00fcnde denileni yanl\u0131\u015f anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130yi g\u00fcnde iyi g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, k\u00f6t\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fcn ise ona e\u015f dedi\u011fi le\u015fin kendisinin ya\u015fataca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131na varamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kad\u0131n, k\u00f6t\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc birlikte atlataca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 inan\u0131rken, k\u00f6t\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fcn sahibi hayat arkada\u015f\u0131 diye se\u00e7ti\u011fi, hayat\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131ym\u0131\u015f me\u011fer? Onu da sonradan anlad\u0131. Bilemedi ama \u00f6\u011frendi. Can\u0131 ac\u0131ya ac\u0131ya, sessiz sedas\u0131z \u00f6\u011frendi kad\u0131n. Bedeli neyse \u00e7ekmeye raz\u0131, bedeline direnecek kadar da diklenmi\u015fti hayata kad\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Belediye Ba\u015fkan\u0131\u2019n\u0131n izniyle \u201cEvet!\u201d dedi\u011fine heba etmeyecekti. Hayat onu h\u00e2kimin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda, \u201cEvet bitsin!\u201d demeye teslim ederken yoluna tek ba\u015f\u0131na \u0131\u015f\u0131k tutan, ba\u015f\u0131 dik durand\u0131. Biliyordu kad\u0131n, bitmesi \u00e7ok g\u00fc\u00e7 yolun yolcusuydu, yolundan vazge\u00e7meyendi, olmas\u0131n\u0131 istedi\u011fi olaca\u011fa inanand\u0131, direniyordu. Yoruluyordu, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu, dizleri kan\u0131yordu ama hep aya\u011fa kalkmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini biliyordu. E\u011fmiyordu ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7atm\u0131yordu ka\u015f\u0131n\u0131, aln\u0131na \u00e7alm\u0131yordu kara yaz\u0131y\u0131. \u201cHadi toparlan kad\u0131n!\u201d diyordu, \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu hi\u00e7 kimseye hi\u00e7bir \u015feye ald\u0131r\u0131\u015f etmeden yoluna, yollara.<\/p>\n
Toplumun dul kad\u0131n\u0131 oldu\u011funda, hayat ba\u015fka ba\u015fka niyetlere ba\u015fka ba\u015fka bak\u0131\u015flara bula\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131. M\u00fcsait kad\u0131nd\u0131 art\u0131k kad\u0131n. Her erke\u011fe ko\u015facak kad\u0131nd\u0131. Evlenmi\u015f, ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hele birde paras\u0131 yoksa ay birde \u00e7ocuklar ile ortada kalm\u0131\u015fsa, ne teklifler, ne teklifler. Dul kad\u0131n olunca, en g\u00fczel kad\u0131n sen oluyordun. Herkesin hayalini d\u00fc\u015fleyen kad\u0131n da sen oluyorsun, bir de seni nas\u0131l b\u0131rak\u0131r \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131klar\u0131 ile etkilemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan, etkisiz canl\u0131lar\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan c\u00fcmlelerin bini bir para.<\/p>\n
Ay\u0131plad\u0131 kad\u0131n hem de \u00e7ok ay\u0131plad\u0131. Ama ilk \u00f6nce kendini ay\u0131plad\u0131. Kuyru\u011funa bakt\u0131, sallad\u0131m m\u0131 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc? Toplumda nas\u0131l durdu\u011funa bakt\u0131? Acaba \u00e7ok mu makyaj yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131? G\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs dekoltesi mi \u00e7oktu ya da ete\u011fi mi k\u0131sayd\u0131? Kad\u0131n kendini ay\u0131plad\u0131, yoklad\u0131, sorgulad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bakt\u0131 kad\u0131n kendinden ge\u00e7ip gitmi\u015f, kendini yerden kaz\u0131maya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan kendine. Kad\u0131n derdinin pe\u015fine d\u00fc\u015fmekten ba\u015fka bir derdin pe\u015finde olmayand\u0131. Ay\u0131plad\u0131 ama kendini de\u011fil, ay\u0131plad\u0131 erke\u011fi. Kad\u0131n, derdinin pe\u015fine d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Erke\u011fe kendini g\u00f6sterecek bir halde olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlad\u0131. Toplumun de\u011fer yarg\u0131lar\u0131na g\u00f6re o sark\u0131labilen m\u00fcsait kad\u0131nd\u0131 sadece.<\/p>\n
\u201cG\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc Kad\u0131n\u201d en \u00e7ok da erkeklerin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda gard\u0131n\u0131 ala ala g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc olmu\u015ftu. Kuyru\u011fu da yoktu g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs dekoltesi de, ete\u011fi de k\u0131sa de\u011fildi, \u00e7okta makyaj yapm\u0131yordu. Sadece dul bir kad\u0131nd\u0131 art\u0131k o. Toplumda yer edinmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu, toplumun aln\u0131 ak, y\u00fcz\u00fc pak kad\u0131n\u0131yd\u0131 ama duldu. \u00a0Kimine g\u00f6re tavlan\u0131lacak, birka\u00e7 zaman g\u00f6n\u00fcl e\u011flendirilecek, kimine g\u00f6re bir gecelik olsun, nefes als\u0131n alt\u0131mda denilecek, kimine g\u00f6re can\u0131 istenildi\u011finde kolay gidilecek kad\u0131nd\u0131. \u00c2m\u00e2 \u00f6yle de\u011fildi kad\u0131n, g\u00f6n\u00fcl e\u011flendirilecek, bir geceli\u011fine bir erke\u011fe nefes olacak ucuz orospulardan, duygusuz bir sevi\u015fmeye yem olacak bir libidonun y\u00fckselmesine sebep, yatacak kad\u0131n de\u011fildi kad\u0131n. \u0130\u015fte bunlar\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda, gitmeyen kad\u0131n oldu\u011fu i\u00e7inde ad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki o ad.<\/p>\n
Reddedilen erke\u011fin sayg\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na direndi, paras\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, \u201cEvet de, sana da bakar\u0131m, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131na da\u201d c\u00fcmlesine diklendi, en iyi dostunun, \u201cSeviyorum seni!\u201d demesine k\u00fcf\u00fcr etti. Kan kustu, k\u0131z\u0131lc\u0131k \u015ferbeti i\u00e7ti. G\u00f6zlerinden hi\u00e7 g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 akmad\u0131 ama i\u00e7i kan a\u011flad\u0131. Da\u011f gibiydi ama i\u00e7indeki depremleri hi\u00e7 kimse g\u00f6rmedi. Hani takdir ediliyorlar ya, hani \u00f6ve \u00f6ve, anlata anlata bitiremiyorsunuz ya, hani parmakla g\u00f6steriliyorlar ya, hani alk\u0131\u015f tutuyorlar ya, i\u015fte \u201cG\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc Kad\u0131n\u201d b\u00f6yle olunuyor.<\/p>\n
Sormad\u0131lar kad\u0131na, ad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na bu ad\u0131 al\u0131r m\u0131s\u0131n diye? Sorsalard\u0131 istemezdi bu ad\u0131, \u201cG\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc Kad\u0131n\u201d olmak zor i\u015fte. Hayat\u0131n bir s\u0131nanmas\u0131 vard\u0131r onun i\u00e7in, o en zor s\u0131nanmalardan ge\u00e7ip en zor s\u0131navlar\u0131ndan y\u0131ld\u0131zl\u0131 pekiyi alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. S\u00f6ylemesi kolay, ya\u015famas\u0131 \u00e7ok zor olan ad\u0131n\u0131 i\u015fte b\u00f6yle al\u0131vermi\u015fti. Var olan nefesi g\u00f6nl\u00fcnce ya\u015fayarak ya\u015fay\u0131p, \u00f6lmeyi dilerdi. Ama onlara hayatta, hayatlar\u0131n\u0131n en zor g\u00f6revi verilmi\u015fti. Onlar ya\u015farken de \u00f6len, \u00f6lmeden ya\u015fayanlard\u0131. Niyetleri ya\u015famakt\u0131. Verilene susan, olan\u0131 kabul eden, her \u015feye raz\u0131 olan g\u00f6n\u00fcller de\u011fillerdi art\u0131k o koca y\u00fcrekli kad\u0131nlar. Art\u0131k hayatlar\u0131n kad\u0131nlar\u0131 de\u011fillerdi art\u0131k onlar. Sevilmez mi bu kad\u0131nlar? En \u00e7ok da siz sevilirsiniz.<\/p>\n
Ah be benim g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc kad\u0131nlar\u0131m, ac\u0131y\u0131 dibine kadar s\u0131y\u0131ran kad\u0131nlar\u0131m, g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesinde bin bir ac\u0131n\u0131n tarifi olan kad\u0131nlar\u0131m, kalbi sevmeye utanan kad\u0131nlar\u0131m, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131z ta\u015fa tak\u0131lmas\u0131n, sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131za y\u0131ld\u0131z d\u00fc\u015fmesin, g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcz kararmas\u0131n, can\u0131n\u0131z ac\u0131mas\u0131n, incinmeyesiniz!<\/p>\n
Ya\u015fay\u0131p da direnen g\u00f6nl\u00fcne, duru\u015funa sevdal\u0131 oldu\u011fum kad\u0131nlar,<\/p>\n
Yitip giden, pervas\u0131zca cana k\u0131yan lanetlerin \u201cKader\u201d yazd\u0131klar\u0131na can veren, can\u0131m kad\u0131nlar,<\/p>\n
Hepinizin kalbine, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, gidi\u015fine sonsuz sayg\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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