\u00d6lmek i\u00e7in bir sebep istiyorum.
\nSebep derken y\u00f6ntem manas\u0131nda. Yoksa esen r\u00fczg\u00e2rla yay\u0131lan incili h\u00fczzam kokusu yeter de artar \u00f6lmeye.
\nKar\u015f\u0131 binadaki ya\u015fl\u0131 teyzenin, yetim torununa pi\u015firdi\u011fi bayatlam\u0131\u015f tarhana \u00e7orbas\u0131 kokusu da yeter. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131 parkta bir ser\u00e7e \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f so\u011fuktan. C\u0131l\u0131z bedeninin topraktaki son \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n t\u0131n\u0131s\u0131 da yeter. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 sularken \u00e7imen k\u00f6klerini korkmu\u015f mudur acaba? Balkanlardan gelen y\u00fcksek bas\u0131nc\u0131n vurdu\u011fu evsiz Bekir\u2019in ayazdan s\u0131zlayan dizlerinin sesi de yeter \u00f6lmeye. Bulutlar\u0131n a\u011flamas\u0131 da, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 da -ki siz s\u0131radan insanlar g\u00f6kg\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fc diyorsunuz buna- uykusundan yeni uyanan salak bir kardelenin zamans\u0131z uyan\u0131\u015f\u0131 da yeter.
\nBir tek sen yetmezsin, biliyorsun. Bir tek senin u\u011fruna binlerce can verilecek boncuk g\u00f6zlerin yetmez. Bir tek senin ellerinin tek dokunu\u015fla yanarda\u011flar\u0131 susturan yumu\u015fakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yetmez. Bir tek senin gamzelerinin koca koca ordular\u0131 dilim dilim do\u011frayan keskinli\u011fi yetmez. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seni ya\u015famak, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc de \u00f6ld\u00fcrmektir \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde.<\/p>\n
Ecrin Korkmaz<\/p>\n
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Ya\u015famak i\u00e7in bir sebep istiyorum.
\nSebep derken; deneye yan\u0131la dibini tutturmadan un helvas\u0131 yapmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f bir kad\u0131n\u0131n ellerinin eminli\u011fi gibi mesela.
\nSava\u015fta ilk kur\u015funu s\u0131kma \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 at\u0131p, rengine ve kokusuna \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olup kan\u0131n, \u2018daha da daha da\u2019 diyerek g\u00f6z\u00fc kara kalbin, ard\u0131 ard\u0131na pat pat tenden i\u00e7eri \u015farj\u00f6r\u00fc bo\u015faltmas\u0131 gibi\u2026 Ya da yan yat\u0131p kuyru\u011funu vururken Tekir, yava\u015f yava\u015f kalkay\u0131m da, oraya gideyim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesinin verdi\u011fi rahatl\u0131kla. Nas\u0131lsa s\u00fct ve mama koymu\u015flard\u0131r kab\u0131na.
\nAyaklar\u0131na kara sular h\u00fccum etmi\u015f bir baban\u0131n, vardiya sirenlerine doymu\u015f kulaklar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0131kay\u0131p, di\u015fliler aras\u0131nda gedik di\u015flerini s\u0131karken patron k\u00fcf\u00fcrlerine, makine ya\u011fl\u0131 elleriyle hayale dal\u0131p, paras\u0131 yetince alaca\u011f\u0131 o k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bisiklete mahallede bir o yana bir bu yana k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n bindi\u011fi buruk bir masal\u0131n s\u0131cac\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi mesela\u2026
\nTutunmakt\u0131r ya\u015faman\u0131n elzemi! \u0130nanmazsan manolyodan d\u00fc\u015fen yapra\u011fa sor. Dinle ne s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor kanalizasyona u\u00e7mu\u015f ceninler?
\nYa\u015famak i\u00e7in ill\u00e2 bir sebep gerek.
\nKad\u0131n ya\u011f bulsa, un yok, \u015feker yok.
\nKan tuttu askeri pi\u015fmanl\u0131kla d\u00f6nd\u00fc evine. Makineler devrald\u0131 \u015fava\u015f\u0131, kan yok, koku yok.
\nTekir\u2019in kab\u0131 bo\u015f, sahipleri bir vir\u00fcse yenilip g\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015f d\u00fcnyadan\u2026
\n\u0130\u015f kazas\u0131nda kopmu\u015f eli baban\u0131n, ci\u011ferleri iflas. K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bisiklette hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131 ki k\u0131z\u0131, art\u0131k d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc de yok.
\nYapra\u011f\u0131 \u00f6p, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc sev, kanalizasyonlar\u0131 unutma, onlar da kar\u0131\u015f\u0131r \u0131rma\u011fa! Kevser\u2019in suyunda hayat var diyorlar, diyorlar ama d\u00fcnyada o da yok.
\nBir tek seni anmak dayanmakt\u0131r bana, bir tek seni g\u00f6rmek r\u00fcyalar\u0131mda. Senin ellerinden i\u00e7mek ab-\u0131 hayat\u0131. Senin ellerin hani; tenime her dokunu\u015funda t\u00fcy diplerimden kan\u0131ma ge\u00e7en s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 duyumsamak, hi\u00e7 dokunmam\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc seni \u00f6lmek, ya\u015fam\u0131 da ya\u015fatmakt\u0131r ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015fl\u0131klarda.<\/p>\n
Suna K\u0131z\u0131l\u0131rmak<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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