Kap\u0131y\u0131 alacakl\u0131 gibi \u00e7alanlar, i\u00e7eride Meczup Suat\u2019\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan bihaberdi. Suat ise daha \u00f6nceleri bu sahnenin defalarca ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tasdikler nitelikte, uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerde istifini bozmadan yatmaya devam ediyordu. Biraz sonra kap\u0131daki ses son \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yapt\u0131ktan sonra kayboluverdi.<\/p>\n
Bizim Suat, Suat amca veyahut Meczup Suat\u2026 Bakmay\u0131n mahlas\u0131n\u0131n meczup oldu\u011funa Suat\u2019\u0131n. Kendini ak\u0131ll\u0131 sanan pek \u00e7ok ben oldum delisinden katbekat ak\u0131ll\u0131d\u0131r. Hayata Suat ve taifesinin bulundu\u011fu taraftan bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z vakit her \u015feyi apa\u00e7\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz. Kimin divane, kimin ak\u0131ll\u0131, kimin rol yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve kimin her \u015feyi bir tarafa b\u0131rak\u0131p samimiyet yolunda var olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bir bak\u0131\u015fta anlars\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n
Suat ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcndeki meczup olu\u015funu ve istikbalini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyi bir tarafa b\u0131rakarak, uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden bir h\u0131\u015f\u0131mla kalkt\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden olsa gerek, sakin ad\u0131mlarla yalpalayarak lavabonun yolunu tuttu. Aynan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ge\u00e7ti\u011finde sakal t\u0131ra\u015f\u0131n\u0131n geldi\u011fini fark etti. Bir ara aynada kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc Suat\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine bakarak, son g\u00fcnlerde elinden d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmedi\u011fi Ahmet Hamdi Tanp\u0131nar \u00fcstad\u0131n Huzur roman\u0131ndaki bir c\u00fcmle dudaklar\u0131ndan d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcverdi: \u201cYoksullu\u011fa al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ama ihtiyarl\u0131\u011fa al\u0131\u015famad\u0131m. \u201c G\u00fcnlerdir bu c\u00fcmle \u00fczerinden zaten hayat muhasebesini yap\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan kendi f\u0131rsat\u0131n\u0131 kendisi olu\u015ftururmu\u015f. Lakin bu yola \u00e7\u0131karken neyi olu\u015fturmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini, neleri f\u0131rsat olarak g\u00f6rmesi gerekti\u011fini idrak etmeliydi. Bizler ya\u015fam i\u00e7erisindeki her \u015feyin s\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131 kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z gibi \u00f6nc\u00fcllerimizin de \u00f6nem s\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131 bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc d\u00fczene koyamaz olmu\u015ftuk. Belki de hayat dedi\u011fimiz ve geri d\u00f6nmemek \u00fczere hi\u00e7 durmadan yol ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ser\u00fcven de bu olsa gerek\u2026<\/p>\n
Lavabodaki b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015flerini tamamlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Suat\u2019\u0131n evden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p her g\u00fcnk\u00fc vazifesini yapmak ad\u0131na yola koyulma vakti gelmi\u015fti. Makus talihini payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 evinin bah\u00e7e kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131; Otuz y\u0131ll\u0131k can yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yerden kald\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir e\u015fin g\u00f6sterdi\u011fi \u015fefkat misali a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u015e\u00f6yle bir evinin bulundu\u011fu soka\u011f\u0131 kola\u00e7an ettikten sonra yola koyuldu.<\/p>\n
Meczup Suat bu mahallede g\u00f6zlerini d\u00fcnyaya a\u00e7t\u0131. Dedesi Azerbaycan\u2019dan 1920\u2019deki g\u00f6\u00e7 dalgas\u0131yla geliyor Kars vilayetine\u2026 O vakitler babas\u0131 be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda, hi\u00e7bir \u015feyden habersiz sabi idi. 1940\u2019\u0131n zemheri so\u011fuklar\u0131nda do\u011far, Minik Suat\u2026 Dedesinin dizinin dibinde hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi Azerbaycan\u2019\u0131n an\u0131lar\u0131 ile b\u00fcy\u00fcr. Bazen seher vakti dedesini, hi\u00e7 k\u0131p\u0131rdamadan kar\u015f\u0131 da\u011f\u0131n tepesine saatlerce bakarken rast gelirdi. Acaba dedesi kar\u015f\u0131 tepeleri ka\u00e7 geceler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda a\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131? Ka\u00e7 gece k\u00f6y\u00fcne misafir olmu\u015ftu? \u0130\u015fte Suat b\u00f6yle bir ortamda Azerbaycan hikayeleri ile hemhal olarak b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\u00a0 Sonralar\u0131 herkes g\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015f menek\u015fe sokak, numara on birden\u2026 Y\u0131llar birbirini kovalarken ev sakinleri birer birer etraf\u0131ndan azal\u0131vermi\u015f Suat\u2019\u0131n. Kimi \u00f6b\u00fcr aleme, kimi de ba\u015fka diyarlara g\u00f6\u00e7 etmi\u015f. Meczup Suat i\u015fte b\u00f6yle kalm\u0131\u015f bir ba\u015f\u0131na koca evde. Bu yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n enkaz\u0131nda, kendisini bazen iki cami aras\u0131nda kalm\u0131\u015f beynamaz gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ne \u00f6b\u00fcr aleme g\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015f ne de ba\u015fka diyarlara yol alabilmi\u015fti. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerinin ve yapacaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda kalakalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Etraf\u0131nda bulunan ve her f\u0131rsatta yakas\u0131na yap\u0131\u015farak ona yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir sonunun olmas\u0131 gerekti\u011finden dem vuran mahalle e\u015fraf\u0131 da b\u00fct\u00fcn ya\u015fan\u0131lanlar\u0131n ayr\u0131 bir cabas\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Saat epeyce ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Suat, alacaklar\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131ktan sonra evinin yolunu tutmu\u015ftu. Biraz sonra eve vard\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, cefakar bah\u00e7e kap\u0131s\u0131ndan i\u00e7eriye girince avlunun sa\u011f taraf\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00f6neldi. S\u0131rt\u0131ndaki \u00e7uval\u0131 kan ter bir vaziyetteyken yere b\u0131rakt\u0131. \u00d6nce avluyu bir g\u00fczel temizledi. T\u0131pk\u0131 \u00e7ocuklu\u011funda dedesinden \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fi gibi\u2026 Bo\u015falmaya y\u00fcz tutmu\u015f b\u00fcy\u00fck kaplar\u0131n sular\u0131n\u0131 tekrardan tazeledi. Bir h\u0131\u015f\u0131mla avlunun di\u011fer taraf\u0131na ge\u00e7erek, orada bulunan kaplara da az \u00f6nce s\u0131rtlan\u0131p geldi\u011fi \u00e7uval\u0131n i\u00e7erisindeki yemlerden bo\u015falt\u0131verdi. \u0130htiyarl\u0131\u011fa al\u0131\u015famaman\u0131n verdi\u011fi h\u00fcz\u00fcnle belini tutarak, avluyu iyice s\u00fcz\u00fcp evin i\u00e7erisine do\u011fru y\u00f6neldi. Suat, pencere kenar\u0131nda bulunan her zamanki yerini alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Biraz sonra tek tek randevu saatine ge\u00e7 kalm\u0131\u015f yeni sevgililer misali bir tela\u015fla; g\u00fcvercinler, ser\u00e7eler, sakalar ve daha nice ku\u015f t\u00fcrleri avluya inmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kendi nasiplerine d\u00fc\u015feni alabilmek i\u00e7in m\u00fccadeleye koyulmu\u015flard\u0131. G\u00fcvercinler yemlenirken, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck c\u00fcsseleriyle aralardan s\u0131v\u0131\u015farak nasibi i\u00e7in m\u00fccadele veren ser\u00e7eleri g\u00f6ren Meczup Suat adeta kendinden ge\u00e7iyordu.<\/p>\n
Suat, dededen atadan bu i\u015fi devralm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bulu\u015fma randevusuna ge\u00e7 kalmamak i\u00e7in her g\u00fcn ayn\u0131 saatte kalkard\u0131. Avludaki i\u015flerini g\u00f6rd\u00fckten sonra kitaplar\u0131na dalard\u0131. Kitaplar\u0131nda bulurdu, insano\u011flunda olmayan pek \u00e7ok \u00f6zelli\u011fi\u2026 Dedesinin kendi \u00e7ocuklu\u011funda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi kitaplarla ve ku\u015flarla her g\u00fcn kar\u015f\u0131 da\u011f\u0131n tepesine Azerbaycan\u2019a selam g\u00f6nderirdi.<\/p>\n
Ku\u015flar da acemice de\u011fildi hani. Belki de onlarda nesilden nesile her sabah bu avluya misafir olurlard\u0131. Bu y\u00fczden olsa gerek ku\u015flar\u0131 hep kendine yak\u0131n g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr Suat. Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e herkes de\u011fi\u015fti. K\u00f6yler kentlere ak\u0131n etti. Toprakla ha\u015f\u0131r ne\u015fir olan o nas\u0131rl\u0131 eller, robot misali \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan makine \u00e7arklar\u0131 aras\u0131nda kald\u0131. Ka\u00e7 ocak b\u00f6yle s\u00f6nd\u00fc. Ne oldum delisi ka\u00e7 insan varl\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u015f\u00f6hreti, makam\u0131 ve insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ne demek oldu\u011funu kald\u0131ramadan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan g\u00f6\u00e7 etmek zorunda kald\u0131. Ya\u015famak denilen \u015feyin \u00e7ok ciddi bir eylem oldu\u011funu biliyordu Suat. Ya\u015famak, sadece bedenin var olmas\u0131 de\u011fildi. Ya\u015faman\u0131n bu madde taraf\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda bir de ruh aleminin oldu\u011funu, insan\u0131n bu iki olmazsa olmaz\u0131 birle\u015ftirdi\u011fi s\u00fcrece ger\u00e7ek ve kamil manada var olabilece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n
\u00c7o\u011fu geceler t\u0131pk\u0131 bu gece de oldu\u011fu gibi b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn hemhal oldu\u011fu bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ihtiyar g\u00f6zleri dayanamaz kapan\u0131rd\u0131. Yine b\u00f6yle bir g\u00fcn, kalbinde ve d\u00fc\u015flerinde Azerbaycan\u2019\u0131 hissederek \u00f6b\u00fcr aleme terki diyar eylemi\u015fti. Meczup Suat \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn son demlerinde dahi, can T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de canan Azerbaycan\u2019\u0131n hasretini duymu\u015f ve hep bir taraf\u0131 eksik kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0 Sonraki g\u00fcnlerde kap\u0131s\u0131 birka\u00e7 kere daha \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131. Yine kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7an olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Haberi alan mahalle e\u015fraf\u0131 ise kabrini, o \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi ve ku\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n her g\u00fcn ziyaret etti\u011fi avluya defnettiler. Suat\u2019\u0131n ku\u015flar\u0131 yetim kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yetim ku\u015flar g\u00fcnlerce ayn\u0131 avluya geldiler. Bu durumu g\u00f6ren menek\u015fe soka\u011f\u0131 sakinleri, Suat\u2019\u0131n vasiyeti do\u011frultusunda kabrinin de i\u00e7erisinde bulundu\u011fu evi, Suat\u2019\u0131n hat\u0131ras\u0131na son bir g\u00f6rev olarak ku\u015flar\u0131n misafirhanesi \u015fekline sokmak i\u00e7in hep bir elden u\u011fra\u015f verdiler. \u0130lerleyen g\u00fcnlerde, belediye taraf\u0131ndan Meczup Suat\u2019\u0131n dert orta\u011f\u0131 olan bah\u00e7e kap\u0131s\u0131na da \u201cSuat\u2019\u0131n Ku\u015flar\u0131\u201d tabelas\u0131 as\u0131ld\u0131. Art\u0131k Suat\u2019\u0131n ku\u015flar\u0131 da, bah\u00e7e kap\u0131s\u0131na y\u0131llar \u00f6nce babas\u0131n\u0131n ast\u0131\u011f\u0131 T\u00fcrkiye ve Azerbaycan bayraklar\u0131 da kar\u015f\u0131 tepelerden uzak diyarlara selam g\u00f6nderiyordu.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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