I<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi atlar d\u00fc\u015fledi. Sahiplerini yalayan atlar\u2026 Hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi enlemler, boylamlar, kanyonlar, oyuklar\u2026<\/p>\n
Kolej k\u0131yafetleri dikmek ya da eksik ya\u015fayanlar\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcnlemek i\u00e7in yarat\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Mutfa\u011f\u0131nda kesme a\u015f\u0131, kudret helvas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
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Ekti\u011fi hi\u00e7bir sevgi tutmad\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u00dczerine ne giydiyse yak\u0131\u015fmad\u0131.<\/p>\n
S\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcp att\u0131 derin g\u00f6let z\u0131pk\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131, lavabo aynas\u0131n\u0131, gaz ya\u011f\u0131n\u0131, sar\u0131msaklar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
K\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f bir \u00e7ekirge ya da mersinlere s\u00fcrt\u00fcnen bir y\u0131lan kadar k\u0131z\u0131ld\u0131 yeni ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 sehpan\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131; yok\u2019un en g\u00fczel par\u00e7as\u0131, en g\u00fczel Nigaristan inanc\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
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Hayaletti sanki yontma sapl\u0131 R\u00f6nesans fincanlar\u0131, tekila barda\u011f\u0131, bezeye taba\u011f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
\u00c7ini ipe\u011findendi \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015filik yata\u011f\u0131, uykular\u0131, duygular\u0131, Frazer\u2019in alt\u0131n dal\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Ortal\u0131kta Be\u015fir\u2019in g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f mineli t\u0131ra\u015f tak\u0131mlar\u0131, Azize\u2019nin bol mayonezli salatas\u0131, havlusu, duas\u0131, ba\u015f a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
T\u00fcketene kadar sevmi\u015fti her \u015feyi: Esmer perdeleri, antika s\u00fcsleri, Baalbek\u2019i\u2026<\/p>\n
T\u00fcketene kadar kuru ekmekleri, Tanr\u0131 Tetis\u2019i, \u015fehr-i azametin su bentlerini\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bilmiyordu kendini iyile\u015ftirmeyi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bir Mushaf kadar kederliydi. Kalabal\u0131k ve metaforsuz kortejlerin z\u00fcnnar topuzlu levanteni: Anti-Minori[1]<\/a>, tan yeri, perhiz zehri\u2026<\/p>\n Ansiklopediler yuttu, kitaplar ezberledi.<\/p>\n Sado-Mazo gelinlikler \u00e7izdi, bi\u00e7ti, dikti.<\/p>\n Kimi g\u00f6rse Minraud\u2019un ta\u015f tabletlerine benzetti.<\/p>\n Kime tutunsa ayn\u0131 harp esiri: Bozguna u\u011fram\u0131\u015f bir redif taburu askeri. Hem de faz uzay\u0131, fil sahibi, \u00f6rg\u00fct \u00fcyesi\u2026<\/p>\n \u00d6zlemi\u015fti ney \u00fcflemeyi. Melodramlar\u0131 unutana kadar sevi\u015fmeyi, pitonlar gibi pul d\u00f6kmeyi.<\/p>\n \u00d6zlemi\u015fti erkeklerin ufak rak\u0131lar\u0131yla g\u00f6n\u00fcl e\u011flendirmeyi\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Gecekondu y\u0131k\u0131m\u0131 ya da karakalem bir \u015feydi Be\u015fir\u2019in kas\u0131k t\u00fcyleri.<\/p>\n Doldurulmu\u015f k\u0131y\u0131lardan farks\u0131zd\u0131 kokusu, teri, sevgisizli\u011fi.<\/p>\n Gordion\u2019dan gelmi\u015fti fa-min\u00f6r ba\u015flayan \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n aras\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir nota gibi.<\/p>\n Tozlu ve smokinliydi. Fazla elips, fazla \u015faibeli\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Orospu de\u011fildi. Paraya ihtiyac\u0131 yoktu.<\/p>\n Ve optik sonsuzlu\u011fa, f\u0131rt\u0131na adalar\u0131na, \u00e7e\u015fmelere, \u00e7i\u011fdemlere, ulusal kli\u015felere\u2026<\/p>\n Yoktu ihtiyac\u0131 \u015fans elementlerine, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcmenin enerjisine\u2026<\/p>\n Basit biriydi: Schubert\u2019in m\u00fczikal beyni, Playboy malzemesi\u2026<\/p>\n Her sabah ko\u015far g\u0131da satan d\u00fckk\u00e2nlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan ilerleyip Pasifik\u2019e kadar gidiyor, poma kemikleri toplay\u0131p geri geliyordu.<\/p>\n Oryantal bir k\u00fclt\u00fcrd\u00fc onunki. Arka plan\u0131nda molozlar olan bir end\u00fcstri resmi\u2026<\/p>\n Kuma\u015f toplar\u0131 ve petrol dergileriyle dolu bir maji dairesinde ya\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Nerval\u2019in kravat\u0131 kadar puslu, koyu\u2026<\/p>\n Ak\u015famlar\u0131 kimonoyla geziyor, bozla\u015f\u0131ncaya dek sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 tar\u0131yor ve Napolyon Konya\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7en ince \u00e7orap merakl\u0131s\u0131 cucold\u2019lar\u0131n[2]<\/a> kar\u0131lar\u0131na \u015fimal \u00f6yk\u00fcleri anlat\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Sert, de\u011fi\u015fik, miyop bir duyguydu soludu\u011fu.<\/p>\n Ters, az\u0131nl\u0131k, \u00e7a\u011fas\u0131z[3]<\/a> bir duygu\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Te\u015fhir seven bir uygarl\u0131\u011fa aitti dinledi\u011fi Akseki ilahisi.<\/p>\n Be\u015f orta\u00e7a\u011f \u00f6tedeydi Fatima\u2019n\u0131n ba\u015fkenti, d\u00fclger t\u00fct\u00fcnleri, mekk\u00e2re \u015fenlikleri\u2026<\/p>\n Dinmeyen bir sa\u011fana\u011fa tutulmu\u015ftu Bebop mucitleri, k\u0131z bozanlar\u0131n ters simetrisi, tezatl\u0131k ilkeleri.<\/p>\n Azize\u2019nin miydi bu cep viskisi, durmadan deri de\u011fi\u015ftiren kandil yelekleri, azot maskeleri, r\u00fcya tabirleri\u2026 ?<\/p>\n Dokunulmayacak kadar korkun\u00e7tu Azize\u2019nin yeti\u015fkinlik amnezisi, nezleli pe\u00e7eteleri, b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f ki\u015fili\u011fi\u2026<\/p>\n Dokunulmayacak kadar tarihi, dokunulmayacak kadar uzletti Be\u015fir\u2019e adad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o asude sahipsizli\u011fi\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n II<\/p>\n Ard\u0131na kadar a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 kap\u0131.<\/p>\n Alt katta Ortodoks t\u00fcrbanl\u0131 bir doktor odas\u0131. Duvarlar\u0131nda Ester ve Aha\u015fveron\u2019un mesnevi boyalar\u0131, teskin b\u00e2b-\u0131, Vitrivus adam\u0131.<\/p>\n \u00d6nemli miydi apokrif metinler, terk edilmi\u015f Ermeni evleri, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu, gen\u00e7li\u011fi, akaju \u00e7er\u00e7eveleri\u2026 ?<\/p>\n G\u00f6\u011fe bakan bir lunaparkta b\u00fcy\u00fcmek isterdi. Cinsel fenomenlerden uzak, sandvi\u00e7 b\u00fcfelerine yak\u0131n; mutedil c\u00fcmlelerle, oto portrelerin i\u00e7inde.<\/p>\n \u0130lahla\u015f\u0131r m\u0131 sevenler i\u00e7 i\u00e7e ge\u00e7mi\u015f renklerden vazge\u00e7tiklerinde?<\/p>\n \u0130lahla\u015f\u0131r m\u0131 sosyal yard\u0131m merkezleri, bayrak t\u00f6renleri, morarm\u0131\u015f di\u015f etleri\u2026 ?<\/p>\n Korur muydu onu kurmacan\u0131n derinli\u011fi, do\u011fan\u0131n ahlaks\u0131zla\u015ft\u0131rma becerisi, sanr\u0131 yaratan giysileri?<\/p>\n Ne ara tan\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131 \u015f\u00f6valyesi olmayan \u00fclkeleri, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n Joyce\u2019sini, Be\u015fir\u2019i, Azize\u2019yi, insanlar\u0131n el s\u00fcrmedi\u011fi ekosistemleri\u2026 ?<\/p>\n \u2026<\/p>\n Dinlese miydi deri \u00e7izmelerin oksijensizli\u011fini, Rolling Stones, Beatles ve Led Zeppelin\u2019i\u2026 ?<\/p>\n Ezmi\u015f ve yemi\u015fti Be\u015fir Azize\u2019yi. Per\u015fembe \u00f6ncesi, bir ku\u015fu sapanla vurur gibi.<\/p>\n A\u015fk h\u00e2linde bir kaybolu\u015ftu Azize\u2019nin tokatlanm\u0131\u015f kalbi, bula\u015f\u0131k telleri, al\u0131\u00e7 p\u00fcresi, \u0131s\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f yanak i\u00e7i\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n III<\/p>\n (Per\u015fembe\u2026)<\/p>\n \u2026 Triple union\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n (Y\u00f6n\u00fc olmayan ve uzakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kaybetti\u011fi bir and\u0131.<\/p>\n \u0130\u00e7g\u00fcd\u00fclerin en kal\u0131n, en logaritmik zaman\u0131: Tek plan \u00e7ekilmi\u015f bir Orson Welles sinemas\u0131\u2026 : Ses patlamas\u0131, ereksiyon nabz\u0131\u2026)<\/p>\n \u2026<\/p>\n Sansar kadar \u00e7evikti Azize Be\u015fir\u2019in k\u00f6p\u00fcren g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcnde. Ve kendi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 o enfes Penolope\u2026 : \u00dcst \u00fcste, terbiye edilmemi\u015f hislerle, mum damlatt\u0131lar birbirlerine. Kelep\u00e7e vurdular en hassas yerlerine\u2026<\/p>\n Si\u011fil ve sivilce emdiler. K\u00f6rd\u00fcler\u2026<\/p>\n Sonra ya\u011fmur ya\u011fd\u0131. S\u0131cak bir Uran\u00fcs par\u00e7as\u0131 damlad\u0131 serin buklelere, t\u00fcylere, sonelere, pembe rektal etlere\u2026<\/p>\n Metal di\u015fli f\u0131r\u00e7alar dola\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131lar monogramlar\u0131n \u00fczerinde; \u00f6lg\u00fcn, mu\u015famba bir kanepenin \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015filik tekilli\u011finde, leoparlara ait s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerle\u2026<\/p>\n \u2026<\/p>\n Romantik bariton par\u00e7alar \u00e7ald\u0131lar b\u00fct\u00fcn gece.<\/p>\n Fitilli kadifeden \u015falvarlar giydiler hep birlikte.<\/p>\n Tra\u015flanm\u0131\u015f bir kayayd\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc de.<\/p>\n \u00dc\u00e7\u00fc de ayn\u0131 s\u00fck\u00fbta gebe.<\/p>\n (Tanr\u0131 d\u00fcnyay\u0131 yok etmek \u00fczere. Dini liderlerle: Sanskrit\u00e7e ya da Ermenice, Zeus\u2019un c\u00fcbbesiyle\u2026)<\/p>\n <\/p>\n (Sabah\u2026)<\/p>\n \u2026Regret\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Kemi\u011fe i\u015fleyen bir hastal\u0131k gibiydi vahim mu\u011flakl\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00e7izgi romanlar\u0131, kiler raflar\u0131, heves noktas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Yerde Be\u015fir\u2019in ekmek kaday\u0131f\u0131, Azize\u2019nin safra ta\u015f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Yerde tefeci makbuzlar\u0131, kol saati kay\u0131\u015f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Solunga\u00e7lar\u0131 m\u0131 vard\u0131 sabah\u0131n?<\/p>\n Kahvalt\u0131da insan av\u0131, Navajo past\u0131rmas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Kim kime ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f, kim kime sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131?<\/p>\n Bir an \u00f6nce gitseler rahatlayacakt\u0131. Evini sel basm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n (banyoda Be\u015fir\u2019in ba\u011f\u0131rsak yang\u0131s\u0131, Azize\u2019nin su buhar\u0131\u2026)<\/p>\n Affedemezdi nefsinin a\u011flef yanlar\u0131n\u0131, ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 gecenin bekas\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Affedemezdi S\u00e2bur, \u00c2dur, Hatvat ve Musf\u00e2\u2019y\u0131[4]<\/a>\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n (Be\u015fir \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 \u00f6nce, o\u011flak kadar g\u00fczel g\u00fcvercinleriyle.<\/p>\n Sonra Joyce, Minraud, Azize\u2026<\/p>\n Gittiler \u00f6ylece mors \u015fifreleriyle.<\/p>\n Gittiler karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n dahi girmeye korktu\u011fu \u00f6m\u00fcrlere\u2026)<\/p>\n \u2026<\/p>\n Rahatlam\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131?<\/p>\n Kimse onun kadar \u00e7ok sevmemi\u015fti \u00f6d\u00fcllendirilmi\u015f k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fckleri, geciken \u00f6\u00e7leri, Ugarit idollerini\u2026<\/p>\n Sokakta diken demetleri, yol ameleleri, sedefli, nal\u0131nlar, mobilya ta\u015f\u0131yan kamyonlar, polis hafiyeleri, televizyon antenleri, bacalar, kurganlar, karabasanlar\u2026<\/p>\n (sokakta\u2026)<\/p>\n Her \u015fey yan yana.<\/p>\n Yan yana t\u00fcm kau\u00e7uk ma\u011fazalar\u0131, c\u00fcruf y\u0131\u011f\u0131nlar\u0131, mutasyon ge\u00e7irenler, \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc Jeferson Airplane\u2019den[5]<\/a> \u00f6\u011frenenler, egoistler, sonsuza kadar h\u00fck\u00fcm s\u00fcrenler, trapezciler, vampirler\u2026<\/p>\n D\u00fc\u011fmesi mi eksikti Be\u015fir\u2019in?<\/p>\n Sark\u0131tlar\u0131n suskunlu\u011funa mahk\u00fbm etti\u011fi bu zavall\u0131lar kim?<\/p>\n \u0130risinden kurusuna,<\/p>\n uzun ve k\u0131sa\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n IV<\/p>\n \u2026Fire\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Sahtiyan, kas\u0131rga bir entari ge\u00e7irdi s\u0131rt\u0131na. Pel\u00fc\u015f kadar yumu\u015fak bir ak\u015fam karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda.<\/p>\n \u0130yiydi terzili\u011fi. Kusursuzca telaffuz ederdi \u2018e\u2019 harfini; \u2018p\u2019yi, \u2018t\u2019yi, \u2018s\u2019yi\u2026<\/p>\n Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fc Yugoslav\u2019d\u0131. Ruju evren karma\u015fas\u0131, sahte markal\u0131, pomat k\u0131vaml\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Anlams\u0131z bir ilgi duyard\u0131 \u0130tfaiyecilere kar\u015f\u0131. Bu y\u00fczden \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Rodop mahallesindeki yang\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n \u2026<\/p>\n Cigarac\u0131 bir taksi \u015fof\u00f6r\u00fc ge\u00e7ti yan\u0131ndan; y\u00fcre\u011finin kap\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ndan, otuz \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l \u00f6nceden, sonradan, Kuzey Avrupa\u2019dan, Erzincan\u2019dan\u2026<\/p>\n Gecikmi\u015fti her \u015feye: Anas\u0131na meni veren bu sab\u0131k ve sap\u0131k erke\u011fe\u2026<\/p>\n Yans\u0131n \u00f6yleyse!<\/p>\n Yans\u0131n k\u00e2fir V\u00e2ile\u2026<\/p>\n \u2026<\/p>\n Tan\u0131d\u0131k bir fedai g\u00f6rd\u00fc biraz daha ilerleyince. Dili alevlerin i\u00e7inde. G\u00f6vdesi sanki kertenkele. Sanki po\u015fet bi\u00e7iminde: Ba\u015fs\u0131z, peltek, ince\u2026<\/p>\n Yans\u0131n \u00f6yleyse!<\/p>\n Yans\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcnde t\u0131slayan bu engerek benekleriyle birlikte\u2026<\/p>\n \u2026<\/p>\n \u00c7ok pasteldi devlet bu gece.<\/p>\n \u00c7ok esirli, \u00e7ok fonetik, \u00e7ok e\u015fcinselce\u2026<\/p>\n \u00c7anak \u00e7\u00f6mlek patlad\u0131 bir yerlerde. F\u0131st\u0131k ezmesi bir iklimde, sekiz k\u00f6\u015fe bir zindan gedi\u011finde\u2026<\/p>\n Mutluydu zengin kedileri, centilmen bir lirin ahengi, Kalk\u00fcta ejderleri\u2026<\/p>\n Nafileydi kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki kabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n direni\u015fi.<\/p>\n Umursamazd\u0131 ate\u015f rahle-i tedrisattan ge\u00e7emeyenleri.<\/p>\n B\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131 uyumsuz ve sak\u0131zl\u0131 adamlar\u0131n arduvaz kapl\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131lar\u0131ndan, muz\u0131r ne\u015friyattan, param par\u00e7al\u0131ktan\u2026<\/p>\n B\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ba\u015fka bedenlere girip ya\u015famaktan\u2026<\/p>\n Estetik ya da tula modas\u0131 ama\u00e7lar\u0131 yoktu. \u0130\u00e7i tala\u015fl\u0131 ve yoksuldu.<\/p>\n Muz sar\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131 mahallenin tahribat\u0131. Ne yana y\u00fcr\u00fcse \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fck di\u015f, sark\u0131k b\u0131y\u0131k, bira kasas\u0131, ambalaj k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Do\u011fru \u00f6fkeler ve yanl\u0131\u015f heveslere ayarlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 telsizlerin frekanslar\u0131.<\/p>\n Turun\u00e7lar azalm\u0131\u015f, k\u0131zlar ni\u015fanlar\u0131n\u0131 atm\u0131\u015flard\u0131.<\/p>\n Tan\u0131d\u0131k m\u0131yd\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131ran? \u00c7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla kendini \u0130skandinavla\u015ft\u0131ran; s\u0131fatlar, zarflar ve edatlar i\u00e7inde \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan\u2026<\/p>\n Cohence konu\u015ftu Azize\u2019yle. Atmosferi kirletecek kadar \u00e7ok cinayet i\u015flemi\u015f bir ekspresyonistin \u00e7izgileriyle.<\/p>\n Kale y\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 gibiydi Azize. \u015ea\u015fk\u0131n, k\u0131skan\u00e7, pespaye\u2026<\/p>\n Yans\u0131n \u00f6yleyse!<\/p>\n Yans\u0131n d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yar\u0131kta kanavi\u00e7e i\u015flemeli \u00f6rt\u00fcleriyle birlikte\u2026<\/p>\n Kimse onun kadar canl\u0131 gitmemi\u015fti \u00f6l\u00fcme.<\/p>\n Kimse onun kadar hamiyetsizce\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n V<\/p>\n Toplat\u0131ld\u0131 senetler, tahviller, gut hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131, dalg\u0131\u00e7 \u00e7anlar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Pasl\u0131yd\u0131 berberlerin makaslar\u0131, sa\u00e7 ma\u015falar\u0131, Breton r\u00fcyas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Geni\u015fledi s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131. Vakitler kocamand\u0131. Radyoda Hassa mar\u015flar\u0131, aksanl\u0131 bir Mahler kayd\u0131.<\/p>\n Darmada\u011f\u0131n\u0131kt\u0131 yatakta bas\u0131lm\u0131\u015f sevgililerin sentetik hazlar\u0131. Sustu jet motorlar\u0131, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma tezg\u00e2hlar\u0131.<\/p>\n Merhametsizdi herkes her \u015feye.<\/p>\n Her \u015fey beyaz balina \u015feklinde: Bingazi eteklerinde, ahit evinde\u2026<\/p>\n Bitki saplar\u0131n\u0131 yoldu biri. Ertelendi k\u0131na geceleri. Bo\u015falt\u0131ld\u0131 tiyatrolar\u0131n kulisleri\u2026<\/p>\n Ka\u00e7mak \u00e7areydi. \u00c7are terk etmekti Rodop \u2019un k\u00fcbik fig\u00fcrlerini, Reich etkisini…<\/p>\n Yan\u0131yordu sosis ve yemek kokular\u0131yla arabeske, i\u00e7kiye ve gotik k\u0131zlara g\u00f6m\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f semtin ilkelli\u011fi, enstr\u00fcman tabureleri, yar\u0131\u015f b\u00fcltenleri.<\/p>\n Yan\u0131yordu Tanr\u0131\u2019yla aras\u0131nda uyumsuzluk olanlar\u0131n noylum d\u00f6\u015femeleri, votka vitrinleri\u2026<\/p>\n Tela\u015fl\u0131yd\u0131. Her e\u015fikte ayr\u0131 bir an\u0131z y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ayr\u0131 bir kefen karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Homeapotik ila\u00e7lar satan bir eczaneyi ge\u00e7ti \u00f6nce; s\u0131rlar, d\u00fc\u015fler ve cariyelik g\u00fcd\u00fcs\u00fcyle\u2026<\/p>\n Hareket eden bir kumul vard\u0131 sanki \u00e7evresinde.<\/p>\n \u00c7evresinde yol silindirleri, u\u011fursuz kul\u00fcpleri\u2026<\/p>\n Ayinsel bir cinayet zinciriydi tertipledi\u011fi.<\/p>\n Karatahtaya s\u00fcrten bir t\u0131rnak gibi, k\u00f6t\u00fc sokaklar\u0131n lamba direkleri, lenf bezleri, Zeitgeist patolojisi\u2026<\/p>\n Polen yayma \u00e7abas\u0131ndayd\u0131 bizonlar, temizlik\u00e7i ku\u015flar, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 boru \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri, \u00e7\u00f6p\u00e7\u00fc bal\u0131klar\u0131, g\u00fczelavratotlar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Pamuk kozalar\u0131na kadar yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ar\u0131lar\u0131n isyan\u0131, emek\u00e7i ayaklanmas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Yeniden yaz\u0131ld\u0131 ortakya\u015far fark\u0131ndal\u0131\u011f\u0131n izah\u0131, evrim savunmalar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Y\u00fcceltildi yeniden k\u00fclt\u00fcrel g\u00f6recelikler, taret toplar\u0131, salk\u0131m bombalar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Karma kar\u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131 zihni, \u00e7ile azizleri, Viktorya fikirleri\u2026<\/p>\n Karma kar\u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131 maarif m\u00fcfetti\u015fleri, Mars otelleri, tak\u0131m zabitleri\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n VI<\/p>\n \u2026Homecoming\u2026<\/p>\n \u2026<\/p>\n H\u0131zland\u0131.<\/p>\n B\u00fct\u00fcn rivayetler evlerde kalmal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n B\u00fct\u00fcn o y\u00fcksek tavanl\u0131 salonlar, burkal\u0131 kad\u0131nlar, korkun\u00e7 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma odalar\u0131, hesap hatalar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Hemen \u00f6n\u00fcnde bir gelincik kurba\u011fas\u0131, yer sars\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n \u00d6n\u00fcnde Judah aslanlar\u0131, okul soka\u011f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Be\u015fir miydi pe\u015findeki? Rugan iskarpinli, setre giyimli\u2026 ?<\/p>\n Tam da kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndayd\u0131 \u015fimdi Hun birlikleri, tuluat kahvehanesi\u2026<\/p>\n Ko\u015fsa g\u00f6r\u00fcnmezdi.<\/p>\n Ko\u015fsa a\u015fard\u0131 tuz g\u00f6llerini, u\u00e7urum banketlerini, b\u00fcy\u00fck izleyicileri, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u2018Goethe\u2019leri\u2026<\/p>\n Uyan\u0131k ya da mest de\u011fildi. Kaybetmi\u015fti t\u00fcm analog becerilerini, isterik incinme reflekslerini\u2026<\/p>\n (ko\u015fsa g\u00f6-r\u00fcn-mez-di!)<\/p>\n Cenoval\u0131 bir gelin gibi, her tene uyard\u0131 \u00e7\u0131plak ya\u015famaya inanm\u0131\u015f olan g\u00f6zleri\u2026<\/p>\n \u2026<\/p>\n Par\u00e7a par\u00e7a, kopuk kopuktu pulsarlar\u0131n ortas\u0131, end\u00fcljans k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131, kartpostallar\u0131n pullar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Unuttu kimyasal had\u0131mlar\u0131, Sandal meyhanesinin aylaklar\u0131n\u0131, zemin katlar\u0131, klanlar\u0131, ihtiraslar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Yaln\u0131z de\u011fildi makinelere kar\u015f\u0131 birle\u015fen i\u015f\u00e7iler, y\u0131ld\u0131z yutan kara delikler, anti sanayi devrimleri, torpido muhbirleri\u2026<\/p>\n Korkuyla bile ilgilenmezdi \u015fimendifer makinistleri, sefer tasl\u0131 memurlar, \u00e7apraz y\u00fcr\u00fcyen akrobatlar, avunamayanlar, tutunamayanlar, O\u011fuzlar, Ataylar, s\u0131f\u0131r a\u015fka mahk\u00fbm olanlar\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n VII<\/p>\n (Cut-Up)<\/p>\n \u2026Home\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Yeniden yaratmal\u0131yd\u0131 kendini: Mutlu Stoac\u0131l\u0131ktan, kardan, buzdan, muhte\u015fem spiral organlardan\u2026<\/p>\n Kuruttu kays\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131. Ruhunu hangi vestiyere asm\u0131\u015ft\u0131?<\/p>\n Neredeydi \u015fimdi greyfurttaki ac\u0131, meditasyon s\u0131n\u0131flar\u0131, Kral Solomon\u2019un mant\u0131\u011f\u0131?<\/p>\n Neredeydi yarad\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n Truva at\u0131\u2026 ?<\/p>\n Faysalabat\u2019ta \u00f6l\u00fcm cezas\u0131 alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131: Dramatik, ya\u015fl\u0131 bir d\u00fcnya paradigmas\u0131: Bo\u015fluklar\u0131n tanr\u0131s\u0131: Laik H\u00fcmanist, nazik liberal, cihat sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n D\u0131\u015f tuvalette sex, antik Suriye, Viking gemileri, g\u00fcnd\u00fcz fenerleri: T\u00fcm yapay ili\u015fkiler, yaz partileri, \u0130nka rahipleri, karma\u015fa, kaos, George Orwel\u2019\u0131n 1984 terminolojisi\u2026 : Hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 her \u015fey tropikal bir zehir gibi, testere di\u015fli, tehlikeli\u2026<\/p>\n Delirmek \u00fczereydi. Ne zaman ge\u00e7ecekti bu say\u0131klama n\u00f6beti?<\/p>\n Yine hi\u00e7bir yerdeydi. Yine her iki cinsiyetin gizli kenti, evrenin ilk yoktosaniyesi\u2026<\/p>\n Evinde miydi? Nas\u0131l gelmi\u015fti?<\/p>\n Kimse g\u00f6rmemi\u015fti yang\u0131ndan arta kalan pasl\u0131 s\u00fcrg\u00fcleri, kurum t\u00fck\u00fcrenleri, susan, konu\u015fan, biriken izleri\u2026<\/p>\n Kimse ondan yana de\u011fildi. Zeytin Da\u011f\u0131\u2019ndaki ilk terzi, trans soyunun ilk tasviri\u2026<\/p>\n Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131kasa ge\u00e7ecekti muskalar\u0131n sihri, erek\u00e7ili\u011fin \u00e7aresizli\u011fi\u2026<\/p>\n Anlams\u0131zd\u0131 art\u0131k matta kehanetleri, plasebo etkisi, h\u00fccre biyolojisi, ak\u0131l vir\u00fcsleri\u2026<\/p>\n Yeterli miydi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn bunca insan\u0131 yenik d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmesi?<\/p>\n Yakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 t\u00fcm mozaik desenleri, test t\u00fcplerini, bez bebekleri\u2026<\/p>\n Ellerini nas\u0131l ta\u015f\u0131sa \u015fimdi?<\/p>\n Tutmasa hi\u00e7bir m\u00fckemmelli\u011fi, levrekleri, dutlar\u0131, s\u00fcl\u00fcnleri\u2026<\/p>\n Tutmasa kuma\u015flar\u0131, iplikleri, kadehleri\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n VIII<\/p>\n \u2026The End\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Herkes yokken ka\u00e7 ki\u015fiydi?<\/p>\n Ne zaman \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti kendini zehirli bir s\u0131v\u0131da eritmeyi, telepatik ve s\u00fcper nat\u00fcralist ileti\u015fimleri, cinsiyet de\u011fi\u015ftirenlere ait g\u00fc\u00e7leri?<\/p>\n \u015e\u00fcphesiz o ak\u0131l sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerinde olmayan biriydi: Polamory[6]<\/a>, Haz\u00e2rfen teorisi\u2026<\/p>\n Bo\u015faltt\u0131 t\u00fcm \u00e7ekmeceleri, eril zamirlerin ceplerini, \u00e7eyiz denklerini\u2026<\/p>\n Bo\u015faltt\u0131 transseks\u00fcel \u00fclkesini\u2026 :<\/p>\n (Her iki cinsiyetin gizli kenti, evrenin ilk yoktosaniyesi\u2026)<\/p>\n Oturdu bekledi il k\u00e2tiplerini, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u0131rg\u0131r otob\u00fcsleri, Rodop \u2018un saat tamircilerini.<\/p>\n Bekledi gizli k\u00f6\u015feleri, Goyimleri, misvak kullanan erkekleri\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Bir \u015feyler arad\u0131 sand\u0131klar\u0131n diplerinde.<\/p>\n Azize\u2019ye ait bir \u015feyler: Rozen k\u00f6pr\u00fcleri, aspirinler, kem g\u00f6zler, zorba semboller\u2026<\/p>\n Lamba s\u00f6n\u00fck ve kirliydi.<\/p>\n Sadece kaybedenler i\u00e7indi etraf\u0131ndaki k\u00fclt\u00fcr eksikli\u011fi, elbise modelleri, haritalar\u0131n y\u00fcksek yerleri\u2026<\/p>\n Ahlaki de\u011ferleri olmayan terapistler gibiydi: Boz bulan\u0131k, s\u0131r biriktiren, r\u00f6ntgenci\u2026<\/p>\n Unutmak i\u00e7in her \u015feyi deneyebilirdi. El Guraba\u2019ya kat\u0131labilir, tehlikeli bir dindar olabilirdi.<\/p>\n Ya da Oxford s\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc ezberleyebilir, t\u0131p \u00f6\u011frenebilir, Yifthah Amonlar\u0131\u2019yla sevi\u015febilirdi.<\/p>\n Unutma i\u00e7in her \u015feyi\u2026 : Yeni Kaledonya\u2019y\u0131, Animizmi, Psikiyatriyi, Be\u015fir\u2019i, Azize\u2019yi\u2026<\/p>\n Nas\u0131l bir \u015feydi regl kirlili\u011fi? Ger\u00e7ek bir kad\u0131n\u0131n fantezi ve rutinleri, \u00e7oklu evrenler k\u00fcmesi, Cel\u00e2li mitleri\u2026 ?<\/p>\n A\u011fz\u0131nda bir volkan patlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sanki.<\/p>\n Kustu karn\u0131ndaki f\u0131\u00e7\u0131 peynirini, fenotipsel nimetleri\u2026<\/p>\n Kustu \u015feytani t\u00fcr\u00fcn t\u00fcm teolojisini\u2026<\/p>\n Farkl\u0131yd\u0131 art\u0131k kuma\u015flar\u0131n \u00fczerinde unutulmu\u015f t\u0131\u011f \u00e7engelleri, mecmualar\u0131n ve domateslerin lezzeti\u2026<\/p>\n Farkl\u0131yd\u0131 \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc binalar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f cepheleri, filarmoni meclisleri, Newton\u2019un Mirabilis\u2019i\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u0130nsans\u0131zd\u0131 art\u0131k transseks\u00fcel \u00fclkesi.<\/p>\n Ans\u0131z\u0131n t\u0131kand\u0131 nefesi.<\/p>\n Sa\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131 ans\u0131z\u0131n \u0131s\u0131rganlar\u0131n orta yeri.<\/p>\n Adlar\u0131na kurban sunulacak kadar g\u00fczeldi g\u00f6rd\u00fckleri: Be\u015fir\u2019in Vesta i\u015faretleri, Azize\u2019nin oral tiryakili\u011fi, bahriye giysileri, Kuna kabilesi\u2026<\/p>\n Ve b\u00fct\u00fcn dans hamleleri, canavarlar\u0131n burun delikleri, ruh ref\u00fcjleri\u2026<\/p>\n Sol kolunda bir dinozor fosili. T\u00fcr de\u011fi\u015ftirenlere ait bir solunum yetmezli\u011fi, arest h\u00e2li\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n I Hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi atlar d\u00fc\u015fledi. Sahiplerini…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":162,"featured_media":10099,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[67,53],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10122"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/162"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10122"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10122\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10122"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10122"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10122"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}[1]<\/a> K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck esnaf<\/h6>\n
[2]<\/a> Kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fka erkeklerle payla\u015fan koca.<\/h6>\n
[3]<\/a> \u00c7a\u011fa: \u00c7ocuk<\/h6>\n
[4]<\/a> Musa\u2019ya kafa tutan Firavun \u2019un sihirbazlar\u0131.<\/h6>\n
[5]<\/a> Grace Slick\u2019in solistli\u011fini yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 altm\u0131\u015fl\u0131 y\u0131llar\u0131n \u00fcnl\u00fc rock grubu. Woodstock konserleriyle \u00fcnl\u00fcd\u00fcr.<\/h6>\n
[6]<\/a> Ayn\u0131 anda birden fazla ki\u015fiye \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olan ki\u015fi.<\/h6>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"