Ayva sar\u0131s\u0131 ak\u015fam pervanesinin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc beni yordu. Ellerim, zaman sebilini tutacak mec\u00e2l arad\u0131 ve buldu. \u00c7ok ses getiriyor bu muattar ezgi. G\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn tam orta yerine konan andelib yoklu\u011fu \u0131slat\u0131yorum. Nas\u0131l m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorum? Beni yoran hik\u00e2yenin mer\u00e2m\u0131 bu de\u011fil, bilin istiyorum. Elimde \u015fimdilik \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015filik reng-i ahengi birliyorum. \u00d6mr\u00fcn ke\u015fmeke\u015fine, efendili\u011fin mihnet-ke\u015fanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, delikanl\u0131 kitab\u0131n\u0131n en ci\u011ferden c\u00fcmlesine kadar\u2026 Hay\u0131r, bu benim c\u00fcmlelerim de\u011fil! Elimi h\u00fczne istifli bir g\u00fcn semeresi \u00e7izilmeden toplam\u0131yormu\u015fum onlar\u0131. Biliyorum, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7ekilmi\u015f hevesimin en az be\u015f parma\u011f\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ya\u011fmurlar g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden en g\u00fczel bu \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin \u00fczerine ya\u011fard\u0131. Ya\u011fmurlar dinlendirir insan\u0131. Ve yoruldum\u2026 Hen\u00fcz eve girmedim, soluklanmad\u0131m, b\u00fcy\u00fck bardakla \u00e7ay i\u00e7medim, en basiti \u00e7oraplar\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131m. Bana bu aralar iyi gelen \u015fey y\u00fcz\u00fckoyun uyumak. Onun s\u00fcsl\u00fc kelimeler etti\u011fine bakmay\u0131n, ben y\u00fcz\u00fckoyun uyurum birka\u00e7 saat. O besbelli yine kelime h\u0131nz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 pe\u015finde\u2026<\/p>\n
Buras\u0131\u2026 Buras\u0131ndan ben neden bu kadar s\u00f6z etmeliyim? \u015eu elimde g\u00f6rd\u00fckleriniz birbirinden \u00e7ok uzaklar. Sar\u0131 olan menek\u015fe, mor olan yelkovan\u2026 \u00d6yle ya \u00f6tekini anama soraca\u011f\u0131m. Bilinmez dedim ya! Laleler neden sar\u0131dan k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya d\u00f6nerler? Bilinir elbet, ben \u015fimdilik bilmiyorum. Benim i\u00e7imde neden alacakl\u0131 bir ses? \u00c7ok gece kula\u011f\u0131m \u00e7\u0131nl\u0131yordu, bu ona benzemez. Yine o diyor, ben de\u011fil\u2026 Bak\u0131n, bunlar benim. Biri menek\u015fe, biri yelkovan\u2026 \u00d6teki\u2026 Siz onun kusuruna bakmay\u0131n, benim \u00e7i\u00e7eklerim var; onun kelimeleri\u2026 Bu \u00e7i\u00e7eklere de g\u00f6z dikti biliyorum. Bunlar hen\u00fcz benim; onlar\u0131 bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na verece\u011fim.<\/p>\n
Hik\u00e2yenin tam \u015furas\u0131nda i\u015fte ben var\u0131m! \u00c7i\u00e7e\u011fi kopar\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, suya koyars\u0131n\u0131z. Nitekim \u00f6yle yapard\u0131m, h\u00e2l\u00e2 ya\u015fard\u0131, canl\u0131 gibi dururdu. Dedi\u011fi do\u011frudur; hevesk\u00e2rl\u0131\u011f\u0131m, bu \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin toplam\u0131\u2026 O, bu b\u00fcy\u00fck bah\u00e7enin bah\u00e7e-v\u00e2n\u0131, ben ise te\u015fnelik savan\u0131\u2026 G\u00f6z\u00fcm doyumsuz bir toprak a\u011fas\u0131\u2026 \u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn en g\u00fczel g\u00f6lgeli\u011finde dikili tek bir \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fim bile yoktur. Onun hi\u00e7 bilmedi\u011finiz bir ad\u0131 var: Refik. \u201cSana da toplar\u0131z.\u201d diyecektir. Hangimiz daha tez canl\u0131y\u0131z kim bilir? Hem bu \u00f6yle bir \u015fey ki, insan\u0131n a\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131na tamah etmeye f\u0131rsat\u0131 olmadan bir boh\u00e7adan \u00e7\u0131kan nevaleler gibi\u2026 Neyse, benim yazmaya meyy\u00e2l tavr\u0131m\u0131 sa\u011f eli \u00e7enesine hafif dayal\u0131 bir han\u0131mefendi tema\u015fas\u0131 gibi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyin! Derdim ba\u015fka benim, derdim ba\u015fka\u2026<\/p>\n
Kalemi elimden b\u0131rak\u0131vermi\u015fim, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc daha yava\u015f k\u0131rpt\u0131m, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bah\u00e7esinden \u00e7ok uzakta\u2026 S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc dilimden \u00e7ok sesli:<\/p>\n
\u201cTaa \u015furamda\u2026 Bir \u00e7i\u00e7ek de benim olsun mu?\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ayva sar\u0131s\u0131 ak\u015fam pervanesinin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":198,"featured_media":10012,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[69,53],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10041"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/198"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10041"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10041\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10041"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10041"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.kadrandergi.com.tr\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10041"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}