Bazen kendini karanl\u0131k dehliz bir kuyunun i\u00e7inde, bazen bir girdab\u0131n i\u00e7inde kaybolmu\u015f, bazen de hayat\u0131nda kocaman bir bo\u015fluk hissedersin… Duygular\u0131n \u00e7\u0131kmaz sokakta gibidir. Bazen hay\u00e2l k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131klar\u0131 bir fanusun i\u00e7inde \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fcze sunulur. Mutluluk yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 bana geliyor dedi\u011fin \u00e2nda mutlulu\u011fun \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc keserler ve u\u00e7urumdan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yuvarlarlar. H\u00e2let-i ruhiyen araftad\u0131r.<\/p>\n
G\u00fcn gelir g\u00fcne\u015f vurmaz pencerene… Kap\u0131n \u00e7al\u0131nmaz, iskemlede otururken duydu\u011fun tek ses geciken kara trenin hazin sesi olur… Ku\u015f c\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131, ya\u011fmurun sesini unutursun. Burnuna ne bir g\u00fcl\u00fcn kokusu ne de papatya kokusu geliyordur. Geceni ayd\u0131nlatan ne dolunayd\u0131r ne de y\u0131ld\u0131zlar. Gecenin tek \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 sokak lambalar\u0131d\u0131r. G\u00fcn gelir sadece foto\u011fraf karelerinde g\u00fcl\u00fcmsersin, hay\u00e2llerine, umutlar\u0131na siyah perde \u00e7ekilmi\u015ftir. Her \u015feyden elini ete\u011fini \u00e7ekmi\u015fsindir. \u0130\u015fte tam da bu \u00e2nda hayata tutunman\u0131z\u0131 sa\u011flayacak, yar\u0131nlara umutla bakman\u0131za vesile olacak bir hik\u00e2ye anlataca\u011f\u0131m…<\/p>\n
\u201cYe\u015fil le\u011fendeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck istavritin \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc\u201d<\/p>\n
K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck istavrit yiyecek bir \u015fey san\u0131p h\u0131zla at\u0131ld\u0131 \u00e7apariye… \u00d6nce m\u00fcthi\u015f bir ac\u0131 duydu duda\u011f\u0131nda. G\u00fcmb\u00fcr g\u00fcmb\u00fcr oldu y\u00fcre\u011fi. Sonra h\u0131zla \u00e7ekildi yukar\u0131ya. Asl\u0131nda hep merak etmi\u015fti denizin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc, neye benzerdi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc? Bir yanda b\u00fcy\u00fck merak, bir yanda \u00f6l\u00fcm korkusu… \u201cDuda\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131klar\u201d denir, \u015fansl\u0131d\u0131r onlar hani g\u00f6r\u00fcp de g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc son \u00e2nda oltadan kurtulanlar. Ne \u00e7are bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n parmaklar\u0131 hoyrat\u00e7a kavrad\u0131 onu. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck istavrit anlad\u0131 yolun sonu. Koca denizlere s\u0131\u011fmazd\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fi oysa y\u00fczerken k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ye\u015fil le\u011fende. Cans\u0131z uzan\u0131vermi\u015f dostlar\u0131na de\u011fiyordu minik y\u00fczgeci…<\/p>\n
\u0130nsanlar hep gelip ge\u00e7tiler \u00f6n\u00fcnden. Bir kedi yalanarak bakt\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ine. Yava\u015f\u00e7a karard\u0131 d\u00fcnya. Ba\u015f\u0131 da d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu. Son bir kez d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc derin maviyi, beyaz mercan\u0131, bir de ye\u015fil yosunu. \u0130\u015fte tam o \u00e2nda e\u011filip ald\u0131m onu. Y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm deniz kenar\u0131na, bir \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fck kondurdum ba\u015f\u0131na, iki damla g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131ndan ibaret sade bir t\u00f6renle u\u011furlad\u0131m onu denizin sular\u0131na. Bir \u00e2n \u00f6ylece bakakald\u0131 sonra sevin\u00e7le dibe dald\u0131; t\u00fcm kederini s\u00f6k\u00fcp atarak. Te\u015fekk\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc de ihm\u00e2l etmemi\u015fti, birka\u00e7 de\u011ferli pulunu avu\u00e7lar\u0131ma b\u0131rakarak… Bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 ve kedi \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n bakt\u0131lar y\u00fcz\u00fcme, \u201cBunu neden yapt\u0131n?\u201d dercesine…<\/p>\n
\u201cBir g\u00fcn bulursam kendimi ye\u015fil le\u011fendeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck istavrit kadar \u00e7aresiz son \u00e2na kadar umudum olsun diye.” \u0130\u015fte k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck istavritin \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcd\u00fcr bu. Sizler de bir g\u00fcn oltaya tak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda, can\u0131n\u0131z s\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, karamsarl\u0131\u011fa d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fczde, \u00fcmidiniz t\u00fcm bedeninizden ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bu hik\u00e2yeyi hat\u0131rlay\u0131n. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ya\u015fam varsa umut vard\u0131r. Umudun oldu\u011fu yerde u\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z hay\u00e2ller vard\u0131r. Umut ve yeis ayn\u0131 y\u00fcrekte bar\u0131nmaz. Yeis de\u011fil, umuttur y\u00fcre\u011fi var eden, hayata tutunmay\u0131 sa\u011flayan. Yeis esaretin, umut ise \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn sembol\u00fcd\u00fcr. \u0130nsan yeise r\u00e2m olmak yerine, umuda sultan olmay\u0131 tercih etmelidir. En karamsar oldu\u011funda bile umutsuzluk bir \u00e7\u00f6l, umut ise o \u00e7\u00f6lde vaha olmal\u0131d\u0131r. Umut \u00f6ylesine g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir \u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131r ki hi\u00e7bir karanl\u0131k \u00f6rtemez onu… Umut; kimi zaman insan\u0131n f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 havalarda s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 limand\u0131r. Kimi zaman bir ku\u015fun kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Kimi zaman bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun u\u00e7urtmas\u0131n\u0131 u\u00e7uru\u015fudur. Kimi zaman karanl\u0131k bir odaya vuran g\u00fcne\u015ftir. Kimi zaman y\u00fcr\u00fcme engelli birinin koltuk de\u011fneklerindedir. Kimi zaman kelebe\u011fin bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck ya\u015fam\u0131nda gizlidir. Kimi zaman herkes vazge\u00e7 dedi\u011finde f\u0131s\u0131ldayan tek \u015feydir umut\u2026 Hayat varsa umut d\u00e2ima vard\u0131r. Atiyi karanl\u0131k bularak azmi b\u0131rakmak ya\u015fayan birinin \u00fczerine toprak atmaya benzer. Mehmet Akif Ersoy’un da dedi\u011fi gibi, \u201cAzmiyle, umuduyla ya\u015far hep ya\u015fayanlar.\u201d<\/p>\n
Gelece\u011fi hay\u00e2l et,
\nSula umudunu,
\nB\u0131rak ye\u015fersin umutlar\u0131n
\nB\u0131rak fethetsin t\u00fcm bedenini umutlar,
\nB\u0131rak umudun g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc kollar\u0131na kendini.
\nAkl\u0131n\u0131, ruhunu, g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc umudun emrine ver!<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 beklenmedik \u00e2nda \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gelen ve hi\u00e7 gitmeyendir umut, unutma! Karanl\u0131kta kalmaktan korkma, \u00fcz\u00fclme her \u015fey bitti diye! Belki de bir yerlerde \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n seni ayd\u0131nlatmak i\u00e7in karanl\u0131\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fmeni bekliyordur. En b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131lar bile umudun g\u00f6lgesinde erimeye mahk\u00fbmdur.\u00a0 \u0130mk\u00e2ns\u0131z diye bir \u015fey yoktur. Yeter ki ilk t\u00f6kezlemede pes edip, umuda do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcmekten vazge\u00e7me! Mucizeler seninledir d\u00e2ima…<\/p>\n
\u0130thaf:
\nUmudunu kaybedenlere, \u201cI\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n sizi bulmas\u0131 ve umutlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ye\u015fermesi temennisiyle..\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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